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Symptom Of Your Touch - MV

A fun little music video I made for @ghostofnoir for their INCREDIBLE jaw-dropping and awe-inspiring fic Symptom of Your Touch

Symptom of Your Touch is THE Drarry fic for me, so I wanted to gift them a little thank-you present for gracing the world with such an incredible story. If you haven't read the fic yet, I HIGHLY recommend it :)

Symptom Of Your Touch - the "movie"

--- starring:

Logan Lerman & Willem Herbots & Daniel Radcliffe as Harry Potter

Tom Blythe & Willem De Schryver & Tom Felton as Draco Malfoy

Alice Pagani & Hanna Mensink as Pansy Parkinson

Femke Van Der Steen as Ginny Weasley

Touch Me Like a Lover

If you haven’t read Symptom, I HIGHLY recommend it. The characterization of Harry and Draco in it is top notch—- and if you’re a fan of how I characterize Draco / Harry / Pansy and Blaise… then I think you’ll really like how they are in Nox’s work!!!!

A lot of how I see the characters in my mind was cemented/influenced by how they were portrayed in this fic (especially Pansy & Blaise!!). On top of that, Nox is an incredible author. ☺️☺️

The fight had been messy; all their fights are. But this was the one ending in tears and with Draco packing his bags to spend some time at the Manor. 

Harry kind of lost it for a little bit. That first night, he drank until he blacked-out and woke up the next morning on the bathroom floor. The following night he didn’t have the guts to sleep in their bed so he took the couch—for once willingly. 

It wasn’t until a week later he even dared going into Draco’s study.

Atop the desk laid a fountain pen, made of pure gold with intricate swirling patterns carved to resemble snakes . Harry couldn’t even remember what exactly they were arguing about. Only that he looked at the pen not being held by pale fingers and knew the sight wasn’t right. 

Harry picked up the pen and a loose sheet of paper. Quickly scribbled in his sloppy script: 

I’m sorry Please come home

rules: post the last sentence you wrote and tag as many people as there are words in the sentence. (but also feel free to tag whoever you like 🩷)

Harry clapped extra loud when Draco came out to take a flourishing bow with the teapot and the cutlery.

Thanks for the tag, @upon-poppyhills ! Tagging @its-the-allure @wholahoop @peachpety @ghostofnoir @wizgays @the-forbidden-forest @the-wandering-writer4 @sightedkarma @hsvh-hp

SURPRISE!

I recently had the absolute joy of participating in a small binder + artist collab exchange with the wildly talented @redtulipsbindery to create a custom bind of Rookie Moves (gifted to the phenomenal @citrusses! ❤️)

RTB handcrafted the stunning Auror robe-inspired cover (like…ya'll!!! LOOK at those details?!), and I had the chance to contribute the dust jacket design and interior artwork. HUGE shoutout to the amazing mods @maleekamolscreates and @phoenixortheflame for organizing this dreamy project and pairing me with such a brilliant binder!!!

This collab was also a huge step for me creatively, too. I’m still pretty new to drawing (especially THIS much!) and had never done dust jacket design work before, so this was a major first! I really wanted to capture the warmth, humor, and heart of Rookie Moves in the visuals, and working in tandem with the bind design pushed me to think in new ways about layout and storytelling through art. It was a big ol’ learning experience, but a ridiculously fun one, and the fact that I got to make fanart for a fic that owns my soul?? YESSSS. ALL THE FEELS. I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS EXPERIENCE.

via @discipleofkleio

If you're thinking about watching this anyway because you feel all that nostalgia: It's time to grow up. It's time to move on.

Don't even hate watch it. Make it fail.

Sorry I'm just getting around to this ask! And thank you very much. I've really enjoyed putting together reclists and sharing what I love with others. 💚 I apologize in advance for hijacking this ask.

The truth is: finding joy in the Harry Potter fandom has become extremely difficult for me.

JKR's been awful for ages. That's not new. But things have gotten exponentially worse for trans folks, especially since the outcome of the US election. Things have gotten exponentially worse for a LOT of folks. I've been unable to participate - certainly not by writing, but not even reading in the hp fandom anymore. The dehumanization and bigotry turns my stomach. Of much less importance but still a contributing factor to the lack of fun: dramione (my original HP fandom) has become commodified beyond belief. It feels unrecognizable.

There are so many incredible hp fanfic authors. I've truly enjoyed them and their work, especially those celebrating identities and topics jkr would hate. I've read life-changing stories. I had a cocoon of escapism through the excruciatingly slow, exceedingly polite, and extraordinarily stressful collapse of my marriage. My time in this fandom was very special to me. I met incredible people who are very special to me. I'm grateful to those who've read and enjoyed my work as well. There are a lot of justifications to continue to participate and subvert her works and ideology - I don't judge anyone who does (unless you agree with jkr - then gfy). I'm just not having fun in her sandbox. What else should fandom should be, if not fun?

I encourage you to use my older reclists, read other works by authors on them, read *their* bookmarks, and to filter my bookmarks for tags that might help you narrow down a search. I bookmark everything!

I would be remiss to not mention the fandom that I spend time in now - red, white & royal blue, or firstprince. Especially if you are a drarry fan, there are lots of parallels! It's so refreshing to read fanworks of a book/movie that was written by a non-binary author, had a queer director, trans cast member, etc - basically just a big celebration of queer joy. It's so nice to not *have* to justify my participation, to anyone else but especially to myself. Anyway, I've got lots of those recs too, in my pinned post.

Things change. Life moves forward. Be kind to yourself and others!

Happy reading,

I whipped up a lil paperback yesterday and today, because it’s always a good day to make myself more copies of Wolf’s lovely words.

If you haven't read this fic, you need to: Wolf has such a way of situating Harry and Draco in the real world, and especially in the queer community. This is a story of self-discovery, evident almost immediately for Harry’s side of things: stuck in a boring job at the Ministry, frozen in an increasingly distant relationship with Ginny, and unable to break away from all the expectations placed on him by the Wixen community. Harry sees Draco's self-assurance, his friends and his community, as an enticing beacon of a life he doesn't feel he can have for himself.

But Draco's parallel journey creeps up on you as the narrative unspools. In time, it becomes clear that Draco's not actually living a carefree and gay seaside life, and that running away from the Wixen world has exacted a price from him.

And, listen: this is wolfpants. So there's also sparkling dialogue, brilliant characterization, adorable sausage dogs, and amazing sex scenes.

The typeset I used here is one I made earlier in my fanbinding journey, with only a handful of tweaks to the layout because I was still learning and there were a couple goofs.

The cover is new, but picks up the texting theme from the hardcover version and lays it over a pebble beach that (I hope) evokes Brighton's seaside vibes.

I feel like I've cracked the code on soft touch lamination, or at least have improved a lot, but I'm still working on the paperback technique in general.

Following tips from the paperback genius @jmbinding, I use my thermal binder to bind the text block into a piece of plain/blank presentation paper (same stuff I print onto for the cover), trim that bound block, and then glue on the laminated cover over the thermal bound plain one. Finally, I trim the cover to fit the trimmed book -- which is the step I'm still not super great at! (Don't look too closely at the edges or you'll spy my mistakes.)

Mandatory flip-through video because the floppy give of a paperback is still incredibly pleasing for me.

Thank you for bringing my fic to life again, in beautiful pbk form!

Here's my contribution to the Rookie Moves April Fool's Exchange. I collaborated on it with @amomorii who is an INCREDIBLE artist (and writer!) It was so much fun working with Sam.

The design on the dust jacket was based on this illustration that Sam found. ISN'T IT PERFECT?

Obviously I had to put my favorite line on the back. (Did I mention I got it tattooed? I did.)

I couldn't find the perfect scene break graphics, so I asked Sam to do them, and they are exactly what I wanted. Every chapter has a themed icon.

Did I buy a wide format printer and a roll of soft-touch laminate just so I could make this book exactly as I wanted? Maybe.

The inner book is very simple in design, but I love how it came out. The spine is…I don't even know what, but I put the title on it with the foil quill on my Silhouette. Came out gorgeously. And then the covers are covered in a suede-like paper (some variety of Skivertex). I love how it feels.

Fonts Body: Baskerville Chapters: Lemon/Milk Italic

Do I have enough copies of this fic/series? I don't think that's possible.