Executive dysfunction comes from a lack of available dopamine. Common advice is wrong. You need to provide your own dopamine before you can start. Otherwise you're trying to run your car on empty.

"But what if I still don't do it" well you already weren't getting it done anyway. Now you have a little treat. Try again later.

You deserve kindness and care even when you aren't being productive.

Big Jarlaxle update.

I need a fucking break on working on him. I don't say it in the video, but work is quite literally beating my ass to hell right now. And the level of detail I want to give him, I simply don't have the energy to give. He is intended for a major contest where the closer to perfection you get the better. (Do I think I'll have any chance at winning? Absolutely not. But I want to push myself.)

And overall I'm feeling very defeated on working on this project. Every step I've made has taken me longer than I thought or had fought me so I just need to put Jarlaxle down for a bit and come back when I'm feeling more confident about myself. Hopefully work sorts itself (it probably won't but I'm trying.) and I'll be able to hop back on this project and work on him slowly. I need a win. Even if it's just making a circle skirt.