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【qiluo route③】

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Qiluo: “Are you hurt?”

When I nodded, he smiled in relief and gently stroked my head. Ah… but still.

I might be fine, but you are not.

The neurotoxin consuming his body continued to worsen with every passing moment. Because of me, more and more painful scars spread across his beautiful face.

I quietly reached up and touched his cheek. He stopped the hand that had been patting my head and tilted his head slightly in confusion. Yet his expression remained just as gentle as ever.

Qiluo: “You look worried. What’s wrong?”

You: “Qiluo…”

Qiluo: “…Don’t make that face. I told you before, didn’t I? You promised not to worry about me.”

You: “But…”

Qiluo: “I was prepared for this. And so were you, right? You have to stay strong. It’s okay. I’ll keep standing until the very end, and I won’t die until I’ve seen you off.”

You: “……”

Those words made my wavering resolve tremble even more.

I had made it this far because of him. And yet, more than gratitude, I was overwhelmed by guilt for hurting him like this.

As if he could sense everything I was feeling, Qiluo lovingly brushed his fingers against my cheek.

Qiluo: “I’m fine. Seeing you make that face hurts me. You’re going back to Earth, aren’t you? So say those words again. Those words alone are enough to keep us moving forward.”

You: “……”

Enduring the ache tightening in my chest, I forced out the words that bound both him and me together.

You: “Fight for me. And… I want you to die for me…”

As I spoke through trembling tears, he smiled softly and nodded.

Qiluo: “Of course. Come on, just a little longer now. …Let’s go.”

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【qiluo route②】

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HAL: “***!!”

HAL grabs my arm.

You: “No…! Let go…!”

HAL: “Come back!! This is where you belong!!”

Even as I struggled with all my strength to break free, his grip didn’t loosen—it only tightened further. His fingers dug deep into my skin, sending a sharp pain through me.

You: “It hurts…!”

HAL: “If you try to run away… I’ll make you pay for this later…!”

—At that very moment.

Strong arms wrapped around me from behind. At the same time, HAL’s hand, which had been gripping my arm, was sliced off by a white blade.

HAL: “…!”

Thrown off balance, HAL’s body slammed against the iron fence with a dull thud. Blood splattered across the garden leaves, staining them crimson, and instinctively, I wanted to look away.

Holding his severed left arm, HAL glared at us resentfully.

Qiluo: “Sorry… I’m late.”

I looked up at him as he gently embraced me. When our eyes met, Qiluo smiled quietly and wiped the blood from the tip of his sword.

――“Qiluo…!?” “What are you doing here…!?”

HAL: “…Do you even realize what you’ve done…!? This is our territory!”

HAL furrowed his brow and glared at Qiluo, confusion and frustration written across his face.

Qiluo: “…Yes, I know. I’m sending her back to Earth.

And for that, I’m prepared to fight all of you.”

Both HAL and I gasped involuntarily.

You: “Fight…!?”

Qiluo: “…That’s right. To send you home, I’ll have to kill every one of them who stands in my way.”

You: “That’s…!”

When I turned toward HAL, our eyes met. Though he was breathing heavily with anger and agitation, his gaze remained fixed on me—as if he longed for me.

HAL: “…***, don’t listen to that guy…! Everything he’s saying is just ridiculous bluffing!

…You’re not going back to Earth anyway. If this keeps up, you’ll get dragged into trouble… and you could even get hurt!!”

Qiluo: “…I’m serious. I truly intend to fight all of you and risk my life to send her back to Earth.

This sword is proof of that.”

As he spoke, Qiluo thrust his sword into the ground.

Even after drinking blood, the blade continued to glow with an eerie white light. Its intricate structure resembled that of a Japanese katana.

The moment HAL saw the sword, his expression twisted as though he had realized something.

HAL: “…Damn it… I was wondering why my wounds wouldn’t heal… So that’s it… your fangs…!

You…accursed… venomous spider…!!!”

As HAL spat the words out in disgust, Qiluo gently shielded me behind him and smiled softly.

Qiluo: “Stay behind me. It’s dangerous. …It’s okay. No matter what happens, I’ll protect you.”

You: “…Okay. But… please be careful…”

Qiluo: “…Don’t worry.”

At that moment, Qiluo’s eyes flashed a poisonous crimson for an instant.

Qiluo: “…First, HAL. I’ll start with you.

I do feel sorry for attacking you by surprise. …But while your brother is away, I’m going to kill you first.”

After saying that, Qiluo quietly raised his sword once more.

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【qiluo route①】

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Deep in the forest where I had fled, I came across a young man dressed in red. I instinctively turned to run away, but just as I was about to flee, he called out to me.

qiluo: “Wait! Don’t be afraid. I won’t hurt you.”

I stopped and turned to face him. He didn’t try to approach me; instead, he smiled awkwardly.

…Can I really trust him? He’s a spider, just like the others. There’s no guarantee he won’t do something terrible, just like those twins…

I can’t… trust him…

qiluo: “Did something bad happen…? You look like you’re running away from something. If you’re comfortable, would you tell me what happened?”

You: “…Um… but…”

qiluo: “Haha… I know, but you must be scared, right? You don’t have to force yourself to come closer. …Actually, let’s talk from this distance. I swear I won’t cross this line.”

Saying that with a smile, he drew a line on the ground with his toe, then sat down at the far end of it.

I could only stand frozen in place, watching him.

qiluo: "I'm qiluo. I'm an…… alien. This forest is my territory. That's why no one else can come in."

The voice of the young man who called himself qiluo was gentle. I didn't feel any sense of intimidation from him.

qiluo: “…Have you gotten used to life here?”

I shook my head weakly. …There's no way I could get used to it… I realized firsthand just how little value I held on this planet. To them, I was no different from a tiny insect. Those terrifying twins who taught me that must still be searching for me right now.

qiluo: “…I suppose so. You were brought to this planet against your will. …I feel sorry for you. I’m sure you want to return to your home planet as soon as possible.”

He said that and looked up at the sky. I don’t know if his words were sincere, or if they were just meant to deceive me.

A gentle breeze was ruffling his red hair.

qiluo: “Hey, what’s Earth like to you?”

You: “…Huh?”

He looked at me and smiled, his eyes crinkling. …I couldn’t answer such an abstract question on the spot.

qiluo: “…This planet is like a small miniature garden with five kings. The greatest of those kings is Yakumo. Yes, that white spider who took you away. Basically, no one except him and the purple spider can go to Earth.

That’s why… I have a kind of longing for Earth.”

Saying that, he gently stroked the ground covered in grass. He traced the plants, wet with morning dew, gently with his fingers.

qiluo: “It’s just like Earth, isn’t it?”

You: “Yeah…”

qiluo: “But actually, this is all an illusion. The luxurious mansion, this entire forest— they’re all just ‘facades’ created from our ideal image of Earth. This beautiful greenery, the birdsong… it’s all just a product of my imagination. And… to protect you, to make you feel safe, I’ve made this part of the planet look very much like Earth.

In reality, it’s a rough, rocky planet filled with gases that are harmful to you… like a fortress… a planet with absolutely no charm.”

Somehow, his eyes seemed to be gazing into the distance. Unlike the other spiders, I thought he was the kind of person who described his own planet with a touch of self-deprecation.

qiluo: “That’s why I envy you, coming from Earth. …Ah, given your current situation, the word ‘envy’ isn’t really appropriate, is it? …I’m sorry if I’ve hurt you.”

Saying that, he lowered his eyebrows and smiled awkwardly. The atmosphere he gave off was calm and sincere, and for some reason, his words seemed to contain a sense of consideration for me… Suddenly, I felt a sense of reassurance.

I quietly approached him and sat down beside him.

You: “Um… I’m sorry. It’s just… you guys are scary.”

qiluo: “It’s okay. I understand how you feel. Being brought to a place like this must have been scary… I’ll apologize on their behalf. I’m really sorry…”

He said that and bowed his head.

Maybe… he isn’t a bad spider after all… Maybe I can ask him all sorts of things. ーWhy was I brought here? ーAnd how can I get back home?

You: “Um… why… was I brought here…? Was I just unlucky?”

Qiluo: “…It wasn’t luck. We targeted you.”

You: “…Huh!?”

They targeted me and kidnapped me…? As the situation became even more complicated and my mind struggled to process it, he continued.

Qiluo: “That’s right. He… no, we… know you well. You’ve been here before. You might not remember, but…”

You: “…!?”

I’ve been here before…? Here? I have… absolutely no memory of that. I feel like I’m about to panic even more.

You: “No! That can’t be true!”

qiluo: “… Still, I remember you. You were still small, so you might not remember.”

You: “That’s… impossible. I don’t have any memory of that… So… if what you’re saying is true, how was I able to get back earth!?”

qiluo: “….”

His words didn’t seem like he was lying. Rather, he stared intently at my expression, as if he were in pain.

…And then, with a serious expression, he asked me.

qiluo: “Do you want to go back to Earth…?”

You: “…I want to go back… Of course I want to go back!! I don’t know what’s going on anymore… I’m scared… I’m anxious every single day…!! …I’m scared… that I might never be able to go back… I… I want to go back to Earth…!”

I’m so confused, and my eyes start to well up. Faced with the fact that I was brought here specifically to be targeted, and the despair of not knowing what to do, I bite my lip hard.

…At that moment, his hand gently stroked my head. The touch was so gentle, as if he were comforting me… I couldn’t help but look up. He was looking down at me with a gentle, enveloping smile.

qiluo: “…It’s okay. I’ll send you home.”

He slowly removed his hand from me and smiled.

You: “…Huh…”

qiluo: “I was planning to get you off this planet eventually anyway. So leave it to me.”

You: “Why… How…?”

qiluo: “It’s us who are holding you captive. So we’re the only ones who can set you free.

Those guys have no intention of letting you go, do they? But… I have absolutely no intention of binding you. …In fact, I can’t bear to see you suffer.

So I’ll help you escape. I’ll protect you with all my strength.”

A refreshing breeze caressed our cheeks.

You: “Why…? They said they’d ‘never let you escape’… If what you’re saying is true, isn’t it because I’m… necessary to you guys?”

qiluo: “That’s right… We need you. But even so, I don’t want to take your freedom away from you.

……Because I love you. I always have.”

You: “…!!”

At his sudden confession, I could feel my face flushing with a mix of shock and excitement. His words were direct and sincere.

As he spoke, he too smiled, his cheeks turning slightly red.

qiluo: “You might not remember, but… you’ve given me so much. That’s exactly why I want to protect you with all my strength.”

You: “But I don’t remember you…”

qiluo: “…I remember you, so that’s enough.”

Saying that, he relaxed his expression with a happy look. No matter how I looked at it, he didn’t seem like he was trying to deceive me. If it’s him… maybe I can trust him…

Drawn in by his expression, I let a smile slip onto my lips too.

You: “…Thank you. Um… I… should I… do something… to thank you…?”

qiluo: “Huh?”

At my words, he looked completely bewildered.

You: “Um… I was just wondering if I should do something for you… to get you to let me go home… Since I’m a lower-class being here… Well… that’s what the twins said…”

He shook his head, looking surprised.

qiluo: “No need! I don’t want anything from you. You just need to use me.”

You: “But…”

qiluo: “I told you, didn’t I? I like you. So there’s no way I’d ask for anything in return.

You just need to worry about yourself.”

He said this with a serious expression, yet in a soft tone meant to reassure me. Ah, I can trust this person. I feel like I can believe his words.

It felt like I saw a faint light in the darkness before my eyes.

You: “Thank you, Qiluo…”

Qiluo: “…!”

How kind he is.

When I thanked him, he opened his eyes wide, and his face turned bright red as he said,

qiluo: “…I have to apologize for one thing. I said I wouldn’t get close to you just now, but I ended up touching you. I crossed the line… If you didn’t like it, I’m sorry.”

…He really is a serious person through and through.

I couldn’t help but burst out laughing. It had been a long time since I’d laughed so genuinely from the bottom of my heart.

※続きから、日本語版がございます！！↓

All I want is Itome by my side <3!

【Itome route②】

※下に日本語訳ありです！！

I sit on the veranda and gaze blankly up at the sky.

White clouds float leisurely across the blue sky that fills my entire field of vision… Looking at it like this, this world seemed almost exactly like Earth.

—A refreshing breeze brushes against my cheek, an afternoon so pleasant I almost drift off to sleep.

Suddenly, his words crossed my mind.

??? “Remember. Don’t you have a place to go back to?”

……A place to go back to……?

A place to go back to……where?

Itome: “Princess♪ What are you thinking about~?”

As I was lost in thought, I was embraced by a pair of strong arms reaching out from behind me. Even though I’ve gotten used to it, every time I’m enveloped by his scent, I feel like I’m going to melt away in bliss…

Itome: “…Are you getting sleepy?”

You: “Yeah… a little…”

Itome gently placed a finger on my chin, tilting my face toward him, and a tender kiss landed on my lips.

Itome: “We really got carried away yesterday, didn’t we…? 💜 Are you tired? Should I give you a massage or something~?”

Itome smiled gently and kissed me again, making a soft sound.

You: “Mmm… No, that’s not it. I was just remembering…”

Itome: “What?”

You: “…I don’t know. I- wonder what… ah...Mmm…”

As we continued to kiss, my thoughts grew increasingly hazy, and I became completely absorbed in his kisses.

I found myself craving him more and more, and before I knew it, I was clinging to him and running my tongue over his lips.

… When did I start drowning in him like this?

I want more. I want more.

I want him…

By the time he was gently nibbling on my tongue and our kiss turned into a fierce, almost biting one, my thoughts had completely stopped.

Seeing my expression… Itome narrowed her eyes seductively and smiled faintly.

Itome: “If you don’t know, doesn’t that mean it wasn’t a big deal?”

You: “Maybe you’re right…”

Itome: “You can forget about it. There’s no point in worrying over it. So, how about we play together to take your mind off things? ♪”

I nodded at his words, and he picked me up right then and there, heading straight for the alcove.

Setting me down, he smiled with an innocent, affectionate grin, and with a “Ta-da! ♪” he opened the sliding door.

You: “Wow!!!”

The floor was covered with a vast array of toys. Nostalgic game consoles, a pretend-play set, party supplies.

Those toys were all things I’d played with since I was little.

At his unexpected surprise, I felt a wave of nostalgia wash over me, and a smile naturally spread across my face.

Itome: "I brought some things from Earth that I thought you’d like♪ How about it? You won’t get bored, right?"

You: “Yeah…! These are all things I used to love…! Itome, thank you…!”

When I looked closer, I saw a game console with a familiar sticker on it. This… is the one I traded with a friend to get. It’s a slow-life simulation game where you build your own island and interact with animals. I loved this game so much that my friend and I used to trade stickers of our favorite animals.

…Come to think of it, I don’t think I’ve played it much lately.

Itome: “Want to play this?”

You: “…Nah. Maybe I'll try something else.”

When I shook my head, he picked up a deck of cards and grinned.

Itome: "Well then, let's go with the classic Old Maid♪ Just playing for fun feels a bit boring… so how about we make it a bet?

If I win, I'll take you all to myself 💜"

You: “Hehe, I’ll take you up on that! I’m actually pretty good at this!”

Itome: “Hmm? Even if my opponent is a cute girl like you, I’m not going to go easy on you, you know?”

He winked and shuffled the cards with practiced ease. Then, as we dealt out our hands, he asked me.

Itome: “Princess. If you win, what do you want? What do you wish for…?”

What I… want to do…?

You: “I…”

ーーーーーー

You: “Hmm…”

Itome: “Come on, it’s your turn♪ Or are you giving up?”

As the game neared its end, I was completely out of options.

In this match where I was bound to lose no matter what I did, Itome peered at my face with a smirk.

You: “…Oh, come on!! Itome, you cheated, didn’t you~~!!”

Itome: “Not at all~. It just means I’m genuinely ‘good’ at everything. Haha♪ Oh well, princess, you’re such a letdown. What happened to all that bravado from earlier? Hmm?”

You: “Ugh! You’re so mean!! I’m going to do this to all of them!!”

In a last-ditch effort, I scatter my discarded cards like a child.

Itome: “Ahaha!! That’s great💜 You’re a princess who just won’t admit defeat, aren’t you?”

The cards dance through the air, and the entire game up to this point is thrown into chaos… For some reason, I felt a sense of relief, and I couldn’t help but burst out laughing.

I felt a strange sense of liberation, as if I were throwing everything away.

I casually catch one of the cards falling right in front of me. …A card with the Joker on it. As I’m distracted by it, he suddenly leans in and covers me.

Itome: “You lo-ose💜”

You: “Ahaha! I guess I just can’t beat Itome after all…!”

Both of us laughed. Ah, he always makes me laugh… He can be a bit mean sometimes… There are times when I don’t know what he’s thinking, and I still don’t know him very well…

Even so, I love him.

I couldn’t… live without him…

“Well then, just as promised, I’m going to eat every last bit of you, princess 💜”

No sooner had he said that than he brought his mouth close to my clothes, biting down on the fabric as he slowly pulled them up. Slowly, as if to tease me… It tickles, and his actions seem so erotic and forbidden that I worry he might hear my heart pounding.

Every time his fangs touch my skin, my body shivers with a tingling ache.

That’s right.

I… what I want is…

This moment…

I… want to be eaten by him.

続きから日本語訳です！

waaaaahhh💖💖💖💖thank you so much~~!!!!!💖💖💖💖

(日本語バージョン）

R-18作品の為、閲覧注意です！

きわどい演出があるため、視聴にご注意ください！！💦

これは、友達にあげる絵をゲーム風にしただけです。蒼波は双子が合体した完全体の姿で、ゲーム上では存在しません。本来はデリートされたキャラなのですが、彼を気に入り、名前をつけてくれたので、ifの世界として彼女のキャラとの話をつくってみました。素材提供のノタの森制作所様、ありがとうございました！

(EN version）

I’m uploading an NSFW video! It’s pretty explicit, so please watch with caution! 💦

This is just a drawing I made for my friend, but I turned it into a game-style thing! AHL is the twins’ complete form and doesn’t exist in the actual game, so they’re kind of an “if” character. My friend came up with the name, so I wanted to do something as a thank you! 💖

[HAL Route / If you choose “Run Away”]

↓以下に、日本語翻訳版が続きます！！

Dinner time arrived, and I was seated across from Haru at the large dining table. He gazed straight at me with a dreamy expression.

HAL: “……***.”

Every time he called my name, a gentle sense of reassurance spread through my chest. He wasn’t the scary guy I’d met back then.

The leash that had once bound me to him was gone. I’m no longer treated like a pet.

……It means he sees me as his “girlfriend” now.

That’s why—…the HAL I know now would surely forgive me. That’s what I found myself thinking.

You: “HAL, I… I really want to go back to Earth.”

At those words, HAL stopped his hand mid-reach for his wine glass. He furrowed his brow slightly and glanced at me.

HAL: “Go back? …What’s wrong, ***? What are you unhappy about? Tell me. I’ll take care of everything.”

You: “It’s not that I’m unhappy… I just want to go home.”

HAL: “No way.”

He cut me off coldly, and I fell silent.

HAL: “I’ve told you this so many times. You can’t run away; you have no choice but to stay here quietly. We decided this together. So just give up and enjoy the moment.

Come on, let’s drop this. …Let’s get back to dinner. I had them prepare the dish you said you liked today, didn’t I?”

You: “HAL, but…”

HAL: “Shut up!!! Don’t make me angry… I’m begging you!”

BANG—!

He slams his fist on the table and screams, clutching his temples.

HAL: “I love you…! And yet you want to break up with me!? If that’s the case, there’s no way I’m going to let you! Were your words—‘I love you’ and ‘I like you’—just lies!?”

You: “No! They weren’t lies…!”

HAL: “Then why…! Are you testing me…!?”

His face twisted in pain, yet he still looked straight at me—and my heart ached sharply.

—LHA: “HAL’s brain resources are almost entirely consumed by his emotions, making it difficult for him to control himself.”

Suddenly, LHA’s words flashed through my mind.

Right now, he must be desperately holding back his anger. For my sake… and because of me.

Even so… I want to go home. I wonder why. Even though I love him… I felt something like a mission—or a sense of urgency—telling me I had to go back.

…Ever since I met that red-haired young man…

You: “I’m sorry… HAL…”

HAL: “……!!”

I sensed HAL gasp. I must have hurt him. I was too afraid to look at his expression, so I could only keep my head down and apologize.

The next moment—

You: “!!”

Suddenly, HAL leaped onto the table.

He, who had always valued manners so highly and hated getting dirty, was there with his shoes on. Crushing plates and kicking glasses aside, he walked toward me without a care.

And when he reached me, he forcefully pulled me close.

HAL: “…I won’t let you go.”

His eyes, different colors on each side, looked darker and cloudier than usual.

HAL: “I’ve finally got you. Stay by my side. …You’re leaving me? Talking back to me like that… You need a lesson.”

You: “…!”

His hand raised. He’s going to hit me…! Thinking that, I instinctively flinched.

…But the pain never came.

HAL: “…You really are a sly woman.”

A low, hoarse voice.

HAL: “Are you saying that knowing full well I can’t hit you? …Hey, that’s it, isn’t it?”

Slowly, he brought his face closer.

HAL: “…That’s how much you mean to me, how much I love you… Why can’t you understand that?”

He lowers his eyebrows sadly and, with the hand he’d raised, slowly and gently strokes my cheek.

HAL: “I trust you, so I didn’t think I needed a leash. I thought you felt the same way I do. But… I guess I was wrong.”

As his finger slowly slid from my cheek down to the nape of my neck, a sudden, sharp jolt of electricity shot through me. Everything went white before my eyes, and HAL caught me as I fell forward.

HAL: “I was wrong. I’ll keep you even more tightly enclosed so you won’t go anywhere, okay? Until then, just sleep for a little while.”

Feeling those words as if from a distance, I let go of consciousness… ーーー

―――

……When I woke up next, I found myself in a dark, cramped, and cold place.

On a hard floor. Completely naked, with handcuffs and shackles, and heavy chains wrapped around my body, I couldn’t move properly.

You: “Anyone…! Is anyone there!?”

My voice echoed hollowly, but there was no reply.

Overwhelmed by the sudden loneliness and sense of confinement, I instinctively curled up on the spot. The only thing that came to mind was his face…

――HAL, where are you…?!

HAL: “…Did you wake up?”

You: “…!”

Hearing that gentle voice, I instinctively tried to run toward him. But a solid barrier blocked my path.

By the light of the lantern he held, I finally understood. ――I was locked inside a cell surrounded by iron bars.

You: “Let me out of here…!”

HAL: “I’d like to let you out, too. …But this is a punishment. As long as you keep saying ‘I want to go home,’ I have no intention of letting you out.”

With a faint smile, HAL reached his hand through the bars and gently stroked my head.

HAL: “It’s okay. Don’t be afraid. I’ll come visit you like this every now and then. Meals, bathroom breaks… I’ll take care of everything for you, okay? You’re my cute little pet cat, after all. It’s only natural, isn’t it?”

You: “…”

…I can’t find the words.

Am I really going to have to… keep living like this… in this place without light…?

HAL: “Are you scared? Seeing that frightened look on your face makes me want to protect you even more. …Hey, what do you think you should do?”

What should I do…?

You: “…Do you want me to say I won’t go back to Earth, that I’ll stay by your side, HAL…?”

HAL: “Haha… That’s right. You’re such a good girl. Don’t try to go back to Earth. Stay by my side. If you can just keep those two things in mind… I’ll give you anything.”

Slowly, he whispers sweetly.

HAL: “If you’ll say that, I’ll do anything for you. I’ll get you out of this place right away, wash your body with a warm shower… you’ll sleep with me at night, and I’ll wake you up in the morning. And I’ll comb your hair for you. I’ll get you as many dresses as you want, ones that suit you.

More than ever before… I’ll pamper you sweetly and lavishly.”

Saying that with a smile, HAL lifts my chin. And, through the iron bars, he kissed me.

HAL: “…Now, choose. I’ll respect your decision. Though I suppose there’s really only one answer you’ll give.

Besides… you can’t escape me. Not on your own… absolutely not.”

ここから、日本語版とちょっとした制作話が続きます！↓

From here, the Japanese version and a bit of behind-the-scenes development talk will follow!

[LHA Route ② / When “Run Away” is selected]

※下に日本語バージョンど開発ブログが続きます！

The night I clearly stated I wanted to return to Earth, I was summoned to LHA's room.

He sat me on the bed and straddled me. Before I could react to his sudden action, I noticed the dull gleam of a knife in his hand.

You: “Huh…!”

LHA looked down at me with an absolutely unreadable smile and brought that knife close to my throat.

You: “…!!”

LHA: "Why leave? We were so close. You're going to abandon me?"

Each time the flat edge of the knife lightly tapped my cheek, terror froze my body. LHA must be furious… That's why he's going to kill me… Yes, I understood in an instant.

LHA: “Well, whatever.”

The blade I braced for to stab me swiftly withdrew from my neck.

You: “…LHA, are you angry…? Are you going to kill me…? Hurt me?”

When I asked, trembling, he tilted his head, looking puzzled.

LHA: "I'm not angry at all. I just thought I needed to do something if you wanted to go back. Besides, I'm your lover. There's no way I'd kill you."

After saying that, LHA gently pressed his lips to yours and whispered.

LHA: “…So I thought of my own way. A way to make sure you absolutely can't leave here.”

“I won't kill you.” Though you felt a momentary relief at those words and the tender kiss, LHA brought the knife he held close to his own throat.

You: “Wh-what are you doing!? That’s dangerous…!”

A sudden, unpleasant premonition made me frantically grab his knife-wielding hand.

LHA: "You always worry about me like this. I've told you countless times. We aren't human. Unless something extraordinary happens, we can't die. There's no way I'd die over some human toy like this. The wound will just regenerate and heal back to normal."

You: “But I hate seeing LHA hurt.”

LHA: “Wounds? I feel no pain. Or is it because it looks unpleasant?”

You: “…No, that's not it. Even so, that act is self-harm to humans. …So please stop. I'll make you sweets or anything. Please.”

LHA: “…Then don't leave me.”

LHA's expressionless eyes wavered for just an instant.

LHA: “If ‘hurt’ applies to the heart too, losing you would hurt me more. Thinking that… makes my chest ache. Heal me."

You: “…”

LHA's earnest words pierced deep into my chest too. He truly cherishes me…

Thinking that, guilt and regret choked my throat. …Even so, I wanted to return to the world I came from.

As I couldn't bring myself to nod at LHA's words, he let out a small sigh, then looked down at me again with that cold, indifferent gaze.

LHA: "…ha, yeah. Fine. Trying to appeal to your emotions? I guess I'm pretty stupid too. …Alright, let's get down to business."

LHA released gently my hand, then swiftly thrust a knife into his own tongue.

You: “U-…!?”

LHA: "As I said before. Our bodies possess self-repair mechanisms at the nano level. Even if organs are damaged, they regenerate based on structural information. We evolved this way to adapt to the planet. Based on that premise, my hypothesis is… If we completely replaced your organs with mine… or succeeded in fusing them… couldn't you become a spider too?"

You: “…!!!”

LHA: "You need our kiss to stay on this planet, right? That means our bodily fluids are mixing inside you, showing signs of adaptation. So I don't think my hypothesis is entirely wrong."

You: “Wait, LHA, what—”

I couldn't understand half of what he said, but spitting out blood-tinged foam, LHA pressed me down with an almost ecstatic expression and forced his crimson lips onto mine. His tongue violated my mouth, as if trying to pour his own blood inside.

LHA: "Taste my blood? …How is it? Hey, what's it like? Feels good? I feel incredible right now…!! Like we're becoming one. …Ah, I want to mix with you more."

The metallic stench made me nauseous. Bitter and painful… Yet LHA showed no sign of stopping, praying my resisting mouth open with his fingers.

LHA: “Ah… See? Drink more, more? ***, my wounds heal instantly, so hurry.”

You: “Guh… Guh…!!”

The instant I tried to close my mouth, his thumb pushed deeper into my throat, and the terror of drowning in his blood raced through my entire body.

LHA: "We should have done this from the start. Give up being human. Become my true mate. Spend your life on this planet. With me. …Well, feeble humans are kinda cute, I suppose? Fine. If you absolutely must go back."

He narrowed his eyes, stroked my cheek, then kissed me again with his red tongue. Then he couldn't hold back and laughed

LHA: "…Hey, how exactly did you plan to get back? Did you think you could just go back without any basis? Did you think we or Lord Yakumo would allow it? Or… did someone give you some unnecessary advice? Tell me, for reference."

You: “…”

LHA: "You're foolish and fragile and incredibly cute… If the compatibility surgery failed and only you died, I'd be sad. That's why I want to treat you as gently as possible. If you wish… If you want to remain human… Say it.”

He leaned close and whispered.

LHA: “‘Because I love you, I won’t go back.’ Say it!ahaha…ahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!”

And then he laughed.

[羽波ルート ② /地球に帰ると選択した場合]

地球に帰りたい、と明確に伝えた日の晩、 羽波の部屋に呼ばれました。

ベットに座らされ、彼が私に跨ります。 突然の彼の行動に驚く間もなく、彼の手に光る鈍色のナイフに気づきました。

あなた「え…っ！」

羽波は感情の全く読めないほほ笑みで私を見下ろすと、そのナイフを私の首筋に近づけました。

あなた「ひっ…」

羽波「なんで帰るの？僕たち、あんなに仲良かったのに。 僕のことおいて、出て行っちゃうんだー」

ナイフの背で頬を軽くたたかれるたび、恐怖で体がこわばります。 羽波はきっと怒ってるんだ…だから私を殺すんだ…。 そう、瞬時に悟りました。

羽波「まあいいよ」

彼に刺されると警戒していたナイフは、すぐに首元から離れました。

あなた「…羽波、怒ってる…？私のこと、殺す…？痛いことする？」

震えながら訪ねると、彼は不思議そうに首をかしげました。

羽波「怒ってないよ。君が帰りたいっていうんだったら、対策をしなきゃなって思ってるだけ。 それに、僕は君の恋人なんだから、殺すわけないじゃん」

羽波はそういって、私の唇にそっと口づけ、続けてささやきました。

羽波「…だから僕なりに考えたんだ。君を絶対にここから出さなくする方法」

「殺しはしない」、その言葉と優しい口づけにほっとしたのも束の間、 羽波は持っていたナイフを、今度は自分の首元に近づけたのです。

あなた「な、なにしてるの！？危ないよ…！」

一瞬浮かんだ嫌な予感に、慌ててナイフが握られている彼の手をとります。

羽波「君は毎回そうやって僕を心配してくれるね。何度も言ったじゃん。僕らは人間じゃないし、特殊な状況じゃない限りは死ねないんだよ。 こんな人間用のおもちゃじゃ僕は死なない。 切ったところがまた再生して、元通りになるだけだって。」

あなた「でも、羽波が傷つくのを見るのが嫌なの」

羽波「傷つく？僕には痛覚もない。それとも、気持ち悪いから？」

あなた「…違うよ、それでも。その行為は人間にとっては自傷行為だから。…だからやめてほしいの。甘いものでもなんでも作るから。お願い」

羽波「…じゃあ、帰らないでよ」

感情の起伏が乏しい羽波の目が、一瞬だけ揺れました。

羽波「傷つくっていうのが心にもあてはめられるなら、僕は君がいなくなる方が傷つく。そう思うと…胸が痛い。 治してよ、ねえ」

あなた「…。」

羽波の切実な言葉が、私の胸にも深く刺さりました。 彼は本当に私のことを好きでいてくれているんだ…。

そう思うと、罪悪感と、申し訳なさでいっぱいになります。 …それでも、私は自分の元居た世界に帰りたい。

羽波の言葉にうなずけずにいると、彼は小さくため息をし、 またあの冷淡な目つきで見下ろしました。

羽波「…まあ、そうだよね。別にいいよ。 僕が感情に訴えるなんて馬鹿みたいだな。 …さぁ、本題にいこっか」

羽波は私の手を優しくほどくと、そのままナイフで一気に自分の舌を突き刺します。

あなた「う-…！！」

羽波「さっきも言ったよね。僕たちの身体は、ナノレベルで自己修復機構を持っている。 臓器を損傷しても、構造情報に基づいて再生される。 僕たちの星に適応するために、そうやって進化を遂げてきた。 それを前提に仮説を唱えるとしたら… 君の臓器と僕の臓器を丸ごと交換したら…あるいは、うまく適合させたら…君も蜘蛛になれるんじゃない？」

あなた「…っ！！」

羽波「君はこの星にとどまるために、僕たちのキスが必要だよね。 それって僕らの体液が君の中で溶け込んで、一定の適応をみせているんだよ。だったら、僕の仮説はあながち間違いじゃないと思うんだ」

あなた「まって、…羽波、っ…」

彼の言葉を半分も理解できずにいるのに、 羽波は血の泡をはきながら、それでもどこか恍惚な表情で私を押し倒すと、強引にその真っ赤な唇で迫ってきました。 彼の舌が、まるで自身の血をねじ込むように口内を犯します。

羽波「試しに僕の血を飲んでみて？…どう？ねえ、どんな気分？気持ちいい？僕は今すごく気持ちいいよ。 君と一つになった気分。…ああ、もっともっと君とまじりあいたい。」

鉄の嫌な臭いと味に、思わず吐き気がします。 苦い、苦しい…それなのに、羽波はやめようとはせず、拒む私の口を無理やり指でこじあけてきます。

羽波「あー…ほら、もっともっと飲んで？***、僕の傷、すぐ再生されちゃうから、早く」

あなた「ごほ…ぐふっ…」

閉じようとすると、彼の親指が喉奥をさらに刺激し、彼の血で溺死してしまう恐怖を抱きました。

羽波「最初からこうしてあげればよかったんだ。人間なんかやめちゃって、僕たち真のツガイになろうよ。 この星で一生過ごしてよ。僕とさ。 …まあ、か弱い人間の君もとってもかわいいんだけどね？仕方ないよね。君が帰るっていうなら」

彼は目を細めて、私の頬をなでると、もう一度赤い舌で私にキス落とし、ククク…と抑えきれないように笑い出しました。

羽波「…そもそもさあ、どうやって帰る気だったの？ 根拠もなく帰れるとでもおもったの？ 僕らや、八雲様が許すとでも？それとも…君にいらない知恵を貸したやつでもいるのかな。 参考までに教えてよ」

あなた「……」

LHA「君は愚かで、か弱くて、すごくかわいいよ…。僕の*** 君と僕の適合手術がもし失敗に終わって、君だけ死んじゃったら悲しいから、なるべく穏便に済ませたいんだ。 君が人間でいたいならさあ、わかるでしょ？君の口で言ってよ」

LHA「”僕を愛しているから、帰りません”ってさ。あはは、あははははははははははははははははははははははははっ！！！！！！！」