Ganbatte Therapy

Setelah setahun lebih tidak mengisi blog ini, kali ini saya menulis artikel tentang idol-idolan di tahun 2016 ini. Dimulai dari isu yang entah bercanda atau serius, beberapa akun di timeline saya mendoakan JKT48 bubar tahun 2016. Ya saya sih nggak ambil pusing, mungkin bercanda atau sekedar mengais retweet & likes saja. Selain itu, tahun ini rasanya cukup berbeda dibanding tahun-tahun sebelumnya. Di tahun 2016 ini saya merasa lebih aktif ngidol sampai dibilang “dah gak ketolong”, “pensiun :)”, dll. Ya, memang tahun 2016 ini saya masih aktif di fandom JKT48 ini, tapi entah kenapa rasanya nggak sebahagia waktu awal-awal ngidol (2013). Kadang saya merasa saya terlalu serius, sampai harus membisikkan ke diri sendiri, “ini kan hobby kamu, enjoy aja, gak usah terlalu dipikirin.”

Jujur, tahun 2016 ini saya mulai merasa jenuh walaupun nyatanya kehadiran di teater malah makin banyak (hadehhhh). Karena itu saya mulai iseng mencoba motret-motret member JKT48. Siapa tahu dengan ini saya bisa enjoy lagi. Hasilnya, di luar dugaan. Saya jadi ketagihan dan bahkan menambahkan fotografi sebagai salah satu hobi saya. Ya, walaupun asal mulanya cuma buat motret oshi, sekalian nambah ilmu, atau cari waro mungkin (?) Hahahah, ya begitulah. Walaupun pada akhirnya saya bisa merasa enjoy lagi, tapi tetap saja ada sedikit perasaan resah. Apa lagi kalau bukan karena oshi (Beby) belum sama sekali senbatsu tahun 2016 ini, sampai akhirnya di penghujung tahun, dipercaya manajemen JKT48 sebagai salah satu member senbatsu Saikou Kayo. Happy ending, alhamdulillah :)

Mungkin ada diantara anda yang bertanya, kenapa resah? Kan member nggak mesti masuk senbatsu terus kan? Oshi gue aja jarang senbatsu, tapi gue enjoy aja. Dll. Dst. Namanya juga manusia, pasti beda-beda, nggak bisa dipukul rata. Terlebih lagi, saya tipe fans yang cenderung peduli dengan karir seorang member, terutama oshi. Sejak single Beginner, Beby memang declining alias meredup. Saya sempat khawatir dia nggak dipercaya lagi sama manajemen untuk jadi senbatsu. Di dua kesempatan dimana manajemen JKT48 tidak campur tangan pun, Beby tidak berhasil masuk senbatsu (sousenkyo & janken).

Saya jadi berpikir, apa yang bisa saya lakukan untuk oshi supaya dia tidak terus-terusan meredup? Berhubung waktu itu lagi senang motret-motret, jadilah saya fokus memotret oshi dengan harapan dia dapat exposure lebih. Maklum, mayoritas idolgrapher lebih prefer memotret member di posisi depan dan center, karena lighting yang lebih bagus dan tidak terhalang member lain. Bisa dimengerti sih, kalau lighting jelek, hasil fotonya juga biasanya jelek. Saya pun mengalami ini hahahah. Inilah sebabnya, member yang terkenal makin terkenal, yang tidak terkenal lama-lama dilupakan. Kejam memang, tapi ini terjadi.

Sebagian fans berpikir, kekuatan fans bisa membuat seorang member menjadi di posisi depan atau bahkan center. Memang, terbukti di beberapa member semisal Veranda. Tapi ini langka. Menurut saya, yang lebih sering terjadi adalah manajemen JKT48 mendorong (push) seorang member terlebih dahulu, baru dia dikenal fans. Jadi, terbalik. Manajemen tentunya punya penilaian tersendiri tentang member mana yang layak didorong untuk menggaet fans baru. Nah, penilaian ini yang banyak faktornya. Misalkan karakter, attitude, atau performa.

Dari sekian banyak faktor, kelihatannya faktor karakter yang paling diutamakan. Coba tengok member-member yang sedang atau pernah di-push manajemen JKT48, semuanya punya karakter yang kuat. Faktor attitude juga penting. Beberapa member yang pernah di-push namun tidak konsisten (seakan manajemen ragu) kemungkinan punya masalah di faktor attitude ini. Faktor performa? Penting, tapi nggak sepenting yang dua tadi. Dari 16 member senbatsu, mana yang lebih banyak: yang performnya bagus, biasa saja, atau bahkan jelek? Silakan nilai sendiri. Ini subyektif karena nggak ada alat ukurnya hehehe.

Di tengah tahun, saya sempat ada feeling, kalau misalnya ada shuffle tahun ini, kayaknya oshi bakal kena nih. Dan benar saja, waktu janken ada pengumuman kalau bakalan ada grand shuffle alias shuffle besar-besaran pada tanggal 11 September 2016. Well, sometimes I hated it when I’m right lol. Walaupun begitu, saya menerima hasil shuffle ini dengan lapang dada. Toh di K3, Beby dapat spot lebih di depan daripada waktu di J. Maklum di Team J sudah terlalu banyak “reserved spot” untuk beberapa member god-tier. Member yang hampir pasti masuk senbatsu kecuali di janken atau kalau ada yang aneh-aneh (anomali) di SSK. Nggak perlu saya sebutin lah ya, udah pada tahu pasti hehehe.

Di penghujung tahun, saya sempat ngetweet soal faktor-faktor yang saya jabarkan tadi, bahkan kesannya kayak curhat ke oshi hahahah. Tadinya saya nggak mau ngetweet begituan. Saya mikirnya, ya sudahlah biar Beby sendiri yang berpikir dan mengambil keputusan soal karirnya di JKT48. Tapi ternyata ujung-ujungnya ngetweet juga hahahah ya sudahlah nggak bakal dibaca ini.. Begitu pikir saya saat itu.

Eh ternyata di bulan Desember, tepatnya tanggal 22, Beby nggak sengaja ngelike tweet saya yang waktu itu sedang sedikit menyampaikan unek-unek. Lalu Beby langsung menulis di g+ soal dirinya dan karirnya di JKT48. Jujur aja saya sampai bingung mau komentar apaan :’) Di satu sisi senang (horeee tweet gue dibaca horeee), di sisi lain khawatir karena isi postingannya bikin baper :< Fakta bahwa Beby tidak ingin stuck di situ-situ aja tapi dia bingung harus bagaimana, itu cukup mengkhawatirkan bagi saya. Namanya udah ngefans bertahun-tahun sampai udah kayak teman dekat padahal kenal-kenal banget juga nggak.. xD pasti bakal ada perasaan ikut sedih kalau dia sedih. Manusiawi kan? Waktu itu saya berpikir lagi, terus kudu piye? Oke, akhirnya saya putuskan untuk lanjut support dia seperti biasa, nggak perlu ngatur ini-itu, giring opini macam skymen atau apalah. Saya cukup support lewat foto, kehadiran teater, dan vote.

Itu saja cukup.

Akhir kata, terima kasih 2016. Tahun yang menakjubkan. Penuh suka-duka.

Well, Semoga tahun 2017 Beby lebih bersinar di team K3.

Gon has graduated from JKT! She announced in April~ so I’ve been waiting for her official grad for a while.

Honestly I’m proud of Gon like she’s my daughter (lol). She’s one of 48G’s success stories imo. One of the frontgirls of ori B/3rd gen, even manged to get voted to senbatsu in SSK. Transferred to Team A, and even as a junior member she managed to befriend the top senbatsu of Team A, to the point of practically living with Acchan, and was one of Mariko’s favourites. She maintained management interest and never fell below UG-level in group popularity.

Then despite her close ties to the group/members/management, when she felt her place in AKB was slipping, she volunteered to transfer to JKT. And when she did, she through herself into everying 110%. Just the effort she put in  learn Indonesian… This fandom, I’m sure there are many who have tried to learn JP/KR/CH, and we all know how hard, just how much effort is required, to become half-way decent. Being multi-lingual is such a ‘real-world’ skill that pays off in so many ways…

On top of that, the friendships she’s developed with the JKT members, especially Melody. Totally breaking the idea of the overseas sister groups having nothing to do the the JP groups in terms of interest or culture.

And still managed to not alienate the JP fans, managing the two fan groups at once, tweeting in JP & Indo, following 48JP events, keeping contact with the JP members, all while juggling her career in Jakarta… She’s a superstar istg.

She clearly joined JKT with the knowledge that if she put 100% into JKT, it would be hard to remain a JP celebrity, but she went ahead despite that, leaving her family. friends and career behind. Akicha struggled with the culture, didn’t know the language well so couldn’t make real friendships with the JKT members, and most importantly she wanted to one day return to Japan. JKT was just a detour for her, although in the end she lost her way.

AKB48 (19) - 2015 total: 13 (+6)

January 31 - Uchiyama Natsuki (Team B, 14th Generation)

February 23 - Takajo Aki (Team K, 6th Generation)

March 14 - Iwasa Misaki (Team B, 7th Generation)

March 15 - Iwata Karen (Team A, 12th Generation)

March 19 - Nagao Mariya (Team K, 9th Generation)

March 31 - Kobayashi Kana (Team B, 2nd Generation)

April 3 - Fujimura Natsuki (Team 8 - Aichi)

April 3 - Iwasaki Moeka (Team 8 - Nagasaki)

April 8 - Takahashi Minami (Team A, 1st Generation)

May 7 - Yamamoto Ai (Team 8 - Mie)

May 17 - Ishida Haruka (Team K, 5th Generation)

August 10 - Shigefuji Fuyuka (Baito AKB Paruru Selection)

August 10 - Hinode Yuka (Baito AKB Paruru Selection)

August 24 - Hirata Rina (Team A, 12th Generation)

August 29 - Maeda Ami (Team A, 7th Generation)

October 8 - Kita Reina (Team 8 - Ishikawa)

October 8 - Kondo Moeri (Team 8 - Nagano)

December 22 - Ogasawara Mayu (Team A, NMB48 1st Generation)

December 31 - Shimazaki Haruka (Team A, 9th Generation)

SKE48 (10) - 2015 total: 12 (-2)

January 25 - Isohara Kyoka (Team E, 2nd Generation)

February 23 - Koishi Kumiko (Team E, Draft 1st Generation)

February 24 - Umemoto Madoka (Team E, 4th Generation)

March 15 - Yamashita Yukari (Team KII, 4th Generation)

March 31 - Miyazawa Sae (Team S, AKB48 2nd Generation)

May 29 - Kato Rumi (Team E, 2nd Generation)

August 31 - Shibata Aya (Team E, 4th Generation)

September 19 - Murai Junna (Kenkyuusei, 7th Generation)

September 28 - Miyamae Ami (Team S, 5th Generation)

December 27 - Kawasaki Narumi (Kenkyuusei, 7th Generation)

NMB48 (12) - 2015 total: 9 (+3)

January 27 - Kondo Rina (Team M, 1st Generation)

February 4 - Kotani Riho (Team N, 1st Generation)

February 29 - Kadowaki Kanako (Team BII, 1st Generation)

March 31 - Umeda Ayaka (Team BII, AKB48 2nd Generation)

April 11 - Nishimura Aika (Team N, 4th Generation)

May 3 - Shibata Yui (Team M Kenkyuusei, Draft 2nd Generation)

August 9 - Watanabe Miyuki (Team BII, 1st Generation)

September 30 - Ueda Mirei (Team BII, 3rd Generation)

October 11 - Matsuoka Chiho (Team BII, 4th Generation)

October 15 - Kishino Rika (Team N, 1st Generation)

October 21 - Kinoshita Haruna (Team BII, 1st Generation)

December 4 - Kurokawa Hazuki (Team BII, 3rd Generation)

HKT48 (4) - 2015 total: 3 (+1)

February 29 - Ito Raira (Team KIV, 2nd Generation)

March 22 - Okada Kanna (Team KIV, 2nd Generation)

July 4 - Anai Chihiro (Team H, 1st Generation)

July 22 - Otoshima Risa (Kenkyuusei, 4th Generation)

NGT48 (0) - 2015 total: 0 (=)

JKT48 (18) - 2015 total: 8 (+10)

February 1 - Nina Hamidah (Team T, 3rd Generation)

February 1 - Alycia Ferryana (Trainee, 3rd Generation)

February 1 - Farina Yogi Devani (Trainee, 3rd Generation)

February 1 - Putri Farin Kartika (Trainee, 3rd Generation)

February 1 - Triarona Kusuma (Trainee, 3rd Generation)

March 18 - Delima Rizky (Team J, 1st Generation)

April 3 - Elaine Hartanto (Team J, 3rd Generation)

April 22 - Martha Graciela (Team T, 3rd Generation)

April 27 - Sofia Meifaliani (Team J, 3rd Generation)

May 29 - Chikita Ravenska Mamesah (Team T, 3rd Generation)

June 27 - Anggita Destiana Dewi (Trainee, 5th Generation)

September 9 - Helma Sonya (Trainee, 5th Generation)

September 9 - Rissanda Putri Tuarissa (Trainee, 5th Generation)

September 13 - Rezky Wiranti Dhike (Team J, 1st Generation)

September 27 - Jennifer Hanna (Team KIII, 2nd Generation)

November 20 - Ghaida Farisya (Team J, 1st Generation)

December 1 - Sendy Ariani (Team J, 1st Generation)

December 30 - Nakagawa Haruka (Team J, AKB48 3rd Generation)

SNH48 - prior to June 10, 2016 (4) - 2015 total: 5

January 6 - Li DouDou (Team HII, 3rd Generation)

February 2 - Shi YuJie (Team XII, 5th Generation)

March 26 - Liu ShiLei (Team NII, 5th Generation)

May 16 - Cheng WenLu (Team XII, 6th Generation)

Nogizaka46 (2) - 2015 total: 1 (+1)

March 20 - Nagashima Seira (1st Generation)

June 16 - Fukagawa Mai (1st Generation)

Keyakizaka46 (0) - 2015 total: 2 (-2)

TOTAL: 69 (2015 total: 53)

Graduating in 2017 (by date of announcement) - 11

June 18 - Kojima Haruna (AKB48 Team A, AKB48 1st Generation)

October 18 - Jonishi Kei (NMB48 Team N, NMB48 1st Generation)

October 20 - Hashimoto Nanami (Nogizaka46 1st Generation)

November 10 - Aigasa Moe (AKB48 Team K, AKB48 13th Generation)

November 14 - Umeta Ayano (AKB48 Team B, AKB48 13th Generation)

November 29 - Owada Nana (AKB48 Team A, AKB48 15th Generation)

December 9 - Yabushita Shu (NMB48 Team N, NMB48 3rd Generation)

December 14 - Nishino Miki (AKB48 Team 4, AKB48 14th Generation)

December 19 - Wakatabe Haruka (HKT48 Team H, HKT48 1st Generation)

December 25 - Yoshino Miyu (AKB48 Team 8 - Oita)

Translation: Jurina SSK 2016 Speech

投票してくださった皆さん、そして応援してくださった皆さん、本当にありがとうございます。 To the ones who voted and to the ones who supported me. thank you so much.

私はこの1年全力を尽くしてきましたが、まだやっぱりこの山は高かったんだなと実感させられたような気がします。 This year, I put all my effort but as expected this has made feel that the mountain is still high. 嬉しい気持ちもありますが、悔しいなという気持ちもあります。 I have the feelings of happiness but I also have the feelings of frustration.

でも、これは皆さんからいただいたエールだと思います。 But I think this a loud cheer from everyone. まだここで立ち止まってはいけない、まだまだ登っていけるぞというメッセージが込められている順位だと思います。 I won’t stop here, I believe that this ran is a message for to me that I can continue to climb higher.

なので決めました！ SKE48松井珠理奈19歳、まだまだ上を目指していきまーす！ That is why I have decided! SKE48′s 19 year old Matsui Jurina will still aim for the top!

ありがとうございます。 Thank you.

本当に沢山の方が支えてくださって応援してくださったからこそ、私はこうしてこのステージに立っているんだなと思うと、本当に本当に感謝の気持ちで一杯です。 I have so many fans who support and cheer me on and because of the I am able to give this speech. I really really have lots of feelings gratitude.

最近では皆さんの支えもあり、7月からスタートする連続ドラマで初めて主演を務めさせていただける事になったり、しかもその主題歌がSKE48の楽曲になったり、本当に一歩ずつ夢がかなっていっています。 Lately, I have the fans support, got to be a lead in drama and furthermore the theme song will be by SKE48, one by one my dreams are coming true.

なので次の夢はこの選抜総選挙で1位をとる事です。 That is why next dream is to get #1 in the general election.

来年私は20歳を迎えての総選挙になります。 なのでそこで皆さんと一緒に1位になりたいという夢を叶えたいです。 Next year will be an election where I will have become 20 years old. That is why there, I would like to fulfill that dream with everyone in next election.

皆さんこれからもSKE48そして私、松井珠理奈への応援よろしくお願いします。 Everyone, from here onward please support SKE as well as me.

来年こそは名古屋に1位を持って帰るぞー。 Let’s return to Nagoya next year with that #1.

[Summary : only Jurina and SKE related]

1. She wants SKE to become like Chuunichi Dragon (Nagoya famous pro baseball team) like… Everyone supports Chuunichi because it’s hometown team.There’re many people from hometown area that never watch SKE’s shows before.She wants hometown ppl will know more about SKE’s charm. 2.This year she didn’t say even once that she wanna become No.1 but the feeling is conveyed.There are many fans come to see her and said ‘This year surely you will become No.1!’

(Note : The reason she didn’t say it because she doesn’t want fan to come to meet her and only apologize while they already did so much to support her like last year)

3. *They talked about how Sasshi has the power that can persuade staffs with her plan and power* .’while SKE has such passionate fan that can fill up even Nagoya Dome and Toyota Stadium but 48G still doesn’t prioritize SKE’

Jurina ‘Right….That’s really frustrating…’

‘May be because there’s no one who has such power in Tokyo at Nagoya’

That’s why Jurina think getting No.1 in sousenkyo is important. If she got that No.1,may be she can persuade staffs and media like how Sasshi did.And, She said SKE has the most passionate fans and members,she wanna convey this fact to others.

4.After Aya,Sae and Kaotan left out from ssk.There’re only Churi and Jurina left from last year 5 SKE senbatsu.Jurina expects Dasu to be back and wants Nao to be in,as Jurina and Nao are comrade from when they held concurrent position in AKB.There’re also Ryouha and Rara who she expects to carry SKE in the future.

5.when asked ‘How many SKE members you want in senbatsu’

Jurina wants all top 16 senbatsu in sousenkyo to be all SKE members…and changes the event name to SKE senbatsu sousenkyo . lol

Lastly,she wants ssk event to be held at Nagoya next year since Nagoya has the most passionate fan and she wants to show it off nationwide.

I MEAN WHAT THE FUCK MAN ?!

WHAT.THE.FUCK ?!!

Seriously, just because there are some posts containing porn in it doesn’t make Tumblr a “porn” site…