gaileen

candles. clouds. cats. dogs. horses. horse riding. jackets. autumn. music. books. fictional universes. taylor swift. blankets. tea. romcoms. christmas movies. academic success. cute outfits. heels. blush. lipstick. skincare. animal crossing. zelda. walking aimlessly. sunsets. the moon. decorating. baking. cookings. brownies. chocolate. cookies. peanut butter. apples. nectarines. traditional dishes. dancing. designing. talking with my mom for hours. feeling alive. cold air on my face. gloves. boots. fuzzy socks. praying. fairy lights. drawing. sleeping. going out. success. journaling. stickers. jewellery. cute bags. pancakes. hedgehogs. frogs. mushrooms. pizza. disney. love. 2000´s tv shows. my mom. my dad. my brother. my family. my friends. God.

i can’t ask you for love letters, or flowers, or small walks, or texts when i’m asleep. i can’t ask you to do what i read about in romance books, or see in romance movies. i appreciate everything you do, and i’ll always say it’s enough. and it really is, enough. but the romantic in me wants more. more that i will never ask you.

what if you find me annoying ? or that it’s too much ? what if you think that i’m too binding ? what if you feel stuck with me ?

and then you won’t feel as happy with me as you are now. you will think it’s too much work to be with me, to ease my fears and calm my overthinking, to reassure me all the time.

this is why i never ask for anything. and the worst thing is that if you’d do all that, from your heart, without me asking, i’d feel bad.

« - i don’t want to ask for too much.

-  you can ask anything you want.

- as long as I have you, that's enough for me. I will never ask for anything extravagant.

- you deserve everything there is in this world, know it.

- maybe. but i don’t want it to be binding for you.

you’re asking which one am i ? im the admirer, and your soul is the art i need and i want to protect it.