after hours

he let himself be nudged, his body swaying slightly due to her force but at the moment he didn’t really feel up for being playful. still stuck in his thoughts and the events of earlier. normally he’d have just went home and done a few lines until he forgot but he didn’t wanna do that anymore. he knew it wouldn’t be good for him and he was trying to stop harming himself in that way. “then why does no one love me?” he asked softly before he turned to look at her with sad eyes. “even the fucking gossip sites say i deserve to be happy with just my hand. and i know that it’s just a dumb loser behind a computer but it starts to hurt after a while, ya know? to continuously be told that you’re not worth anything more than a one night stand.” he ran a hand over his face before he continued. “everyone loves ‘gabriel imani’ but no one cares about gabe.” except for her, she always cared about him and he knew that. “except for you.” he turned to face her, his eyes connecting with hers. “you’ve always cared about me.”

when he felt a presence near him he lifted his head to see devin plopping down beside him. he didn’t mean to drag her out of her apartment but he also knew he wouldn’t have been able to stop her either. “i just feel really shitty.” he admitted, he’d learned very quickly that it was hard to get things past devin. she was very observant and won’t take no for an answer. “i kinda poured my heart out to carolina and she said she didn’t think it was the right time.” he explained as he stared out into the distance. “but then she said that you did wanna try again and then she didn’t... it was just confusing so i said we should just be friends cause i’d rather have her in my life then not. but i just feel... hard to love, ya know?”

gabe knew even after all these years that she wasn’t telling the whole truth. that this whole thing was just something she was saying and that she probably didn’t actually believe it. but he’d decided very quickly that he wasn’t going to call her out on it because it was obvious that she was uncertain and confused and he wasn’t going to force her into something she didn’t want. so he stood with a small sigh of his own and moved to sit beside her, his hand gently resting on her knee as he avoided her eyes for a moment before finally meeting them. “then we won’t do this.” he started softly, a small smile making it’s way onto his lips to reassure her and himself that he’d be okay. “we can just... chill, be friends.” he chuckled softly at how bizarre that would be for them. “and if and when you end up deciding what you want then you just let me know.” he nodded once before he removed his hand from her thigh and placed his hands in his lap. 

gabe knew he shouldn’t be here this late but he didn’t know where else to go. and honestly, he doesn’t even remember driving here. it was almost second nature to him at this point and while he should be a little alarmed by that fact he pushes it out of his mind to shoot her a text as he sits on her front steps.      ‘hey... r u up? i’m outside and i could really use the company.’  he set his phone down beside him as he rubbed his face and held his head in his hands. he was trying not to think about getting high. @outspokens​

gabe: what’s up? gabe: got those tour shirts u wanted. @hqlena​

gabe: geez, does everyone know this? gabe: well if you make it a story it can be fun gabe: like ‘the hills’ was about a random hook up but when u add story elements it seems deep gabe: that the compromise tho gabe: once you get through the sadness it can be really beautlful gabe: if u want i can help

gabe: i don’t lol gabe: they just make me remember my ex gabe: then i write emotional lyrics about her gabe: tho sometimes it can be fun to write about randoms gabe: just make it a story ya know?

ice cream date? r&b singer gabriel imani was spotted out grabbing ice cream with friend and rumored girlfriend, devin bahar. the two strolled through the streets of new york sharing laughs and enjoying their sweet treat. when asked if they were dating the pair remained quiet and continued on their stroll. @outspokens

gabe: thanks! means a lot. gabe: take ur time would b my advice. gabe: when i have writers block i usually fuck someone and then write a song about it lol

gabe was nervous about putting his heart on the line like he just had. he usually isn’t as honest as he had just been, he’d have just shrugged the whole situation off and called it a night. but this was carolina, he couldn’t just shrug her off and part of him hated that. hearing her words had him feeling a little bit of hope as she began to express that she too had felt what he’d been feeling but all of that hope was beginning to crumble as she continued. “not the right time?” he pondered that as he looked anywhere but at her. he really didn’t wanna pressure her or do what he usually did in these kind of situations because he knows that if he were to leave that’d be the end. “i don’t get it. what does that even me? the right time? is it ever the right time for anything?” he didn’t understand how you could want someone and have them right there in your grasp but decide it wasn’t the right time so part of him was starting to think that maybe she was just trying to spare his feelings. “if you wanna say no you can just say it, caro. you don’t have to disguise it with this time thing.” his tone wasn’t harsh or filled with anger, more just soft and tired. it felt as though they’d been going in circles since they’d reunited and he really wasn’t looking to waste their time if this wasn’t what she really wanted. “i can handle it.”

gabe: for sure gabe: things are going well gabe: just stressing on getting the rest of the album done gabe: how’s yours coming along?

gabe honestly couldn’t tell you why he always seemed to find himself at lux’s place other than the fact that her thirst traps were some of the best he’d ever seen. but once she opens her mouth he starts to go soft. “and how exactly am i suffering exactly?” he furrowed his brows in confusion as she spoke. “i actually didn’t know that because i don’t really sit around all day stalking your life but cool, congrats on actually finishing a project. or is the bigger success that you actually found people to work with you?” he gazed at her with a smirk forming on his lips. “more successful huh? i’ll let you have your success but just know that my albums almost done as well.” at her last question he stepped forward with a small shrug. “you’re hot and you’re easy.”