* 𝓷𝓸 / 𝐠 𝐮 𝐢 𝐝 𝐚 𝐧 𝐜 𝐞 .

𝐬𝐧𝐚𝐩𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐭 ⤷ 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐢

𝐫𝐨𝐱𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐞: I feel so extra with these glasses, kylie jenner extra 𝐫𝐨𝐱𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐞  should I grow my ass too? that way we can be twins

@wydmariana·

there  was  a  big  part  of  east  that  wished  he  didn’t  have  to  see  his  ex  anymore.  it  wasn’t  that  he  hated  her,  it  was  just  the  fact  that  he  hurt  her  so  bad…  and  all  the  stuff  that  had  gone  on  between  her  and  his  girlfriend.  but  here  they  were,  seated  at  tables  about  a  foot  away  from  each  other.  the  musician  eyed  the  table,  awkwardly  chewing  a  bite  from  his  shrimp  cocktail,  before  glancing  back  up  at  mariana.  he  didn’t  know  whether  he  should  say  anything  or  not;  maybe  she  wouldn’t  notice.

mariana  was  in  her  own  world  ,  per  usual  .  plenty  of  substances  rushing  through  her  bloodstream  to  make  her  easily  ignore  &  forget  her  surroundings  .  she  entered  the  bar  early  so  she  could  get  a  couple  drinks  before  the  person  she  was  supposed  to  be  meeting  show  up  ,  so  she  situates  herself  on  the  edge  of  the  bar  completely  unaware  of  her  surroundings ,  sipping  on  her  drink  while  mindlessly  scrolling  through  her  phone  .

closed starter x @wydmariana·

         “ what’s that … uh … . “ cris was lost when he was thinking of the image of the thing he was trying to explain to mari , but instead he came up with blanks . both english and spanish clashing in his mind , he wasn’t sure which one was right . “ i completely forgot what it’s called and the point of even saying it . “ he admits with the lopsided - slightly defeated grin he flashes over to his cousin when he takes a seat on her couch . “ and im starving , so could we order food ? “ 

“  hm  ?  ”  mari  looked  over  at  her  cousin  as  he  began  speaking  ,  brows  furrowing  only  slightly  as  she  tried  to  understand  what  he  was  referring  to  .  she  quickly  gave  up  though  ,  slightly  pout  covering  her  features  .  “  yeah  ,  let’s  order  food  .  i’m  starving  .  what  do  you  feel  like  ?  ”   she  asks  him  ,  before  she  mindlessly  continued  scrolling  through  instagram  .

@wydmariana· * // closed .

       bumps into her on his way out of the studio , quickly forcing him to halt in his steps , rather than head out like he was planning on . he was hoping to catch her anyways , considering the idea that had popped into his mind the previous night . “  you’re not busy or anything now are you ??  ”  daniel asks , hues gazing into hers . “  i was thinking yesterday .  .  . maybe we should work together , like put something out . it’d blow up , i’m serious . ”

mariana  felt  like  it  had  become  too  often  of  an  occurrence  that  she’d  been  running  into  daniel  lately  at  the  studio  .  but  at  the  same  time ,  it  made  sense  .  they  both  worked  there  ,  similar  hours  ,  similar  staff  ,  it  just   happened  .  she  knew  it  was  in  the  best  interest  for  them  to  just  get  along  &  be  civil  .  what  happened  between  them  was  a  long  time  ago  .  “  right  now  ?  ”   she  repeats  ,  biting  the  inside  of  her  lip  as  she  caught  his  gaze  .  “  uhhh  ..  no  i’m  not  busy  right  now  ,   ”   mari  shrugs  ,  before  raising  her  brows  slightly  at  his  next  words  ,  taking  a  few  seconds  to  process  before  responding  .  “  yeah  ,  i  mean  i’ve  always  wanted  to  collab  with  you  ,  you  know  that  ,  ”   she  offers  a  soft  smile  .  “  i’m  down  ,  ”   the  brunette  shrugs  lightly  .

kylie : hello

kylie : what year is it ? lol

kylie : bc apparently i dont know what the fuck is going on i had to steal my phone to figure shit out 😤

𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑖𝑎𝑛𝑎 : kylie omg

𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑖𝑎𝑛𝑎 : hi

      ‘   they’re  exes  for  a  reason  .   noelle  .   ’

the question catches her off guard for reasons she doesn’t quite understand . maybe her immediate answer should be yes– yes she believes it’s for the best . but that didn’t completely feel like the truth … she was so mixed up with her emotions running high . and most importantly , she didn’t want to hurt mari anymore than she already has . so in response to the question she finds herself just looking away and shrugging . as if that was the proper way to go about it . she feels silly for being unable to give a genuine answer . but any direct confirming or disconfirming response felt like a betrayal to either east or mari . and she couldn’t stand the thought of either . her eyes shut momentarily as she listens to the other’s soft words . ‘i know’ she thinks . but she doesn’t dare say it out loud . even if it’s true . she knows if given the chance that mari would’ve loved her right . and she’d have given mari her all . but apparently it wasn’t meant to be . the gaze they’re locked in when mari confirms there’s nothing she can do to fix things feels like it lasts hours . as if time slows down and the weight of the world crashes onto her chest . she has to make the conscious effort to take deep breaths as she tries in vain to calm herself , but she knows the tears will fill her eyes no matter what . she’s can’t fight them off any longer . so with a teary expression , she whispers , “i’m so sorry , mari .” the back of her hand comes up to wipe away at the tears before they get the chance to roll down her cheeks . once her throat is cleared , she tries to speak louder this time . “you don’t know how badly i want there was a way that we end up okay after all this … but i think i just have to … i think i’m just going to leave you alone forever . that way i can’t hurt you anymore .” but forever seemed like such a long time to be without her . friends or more .

when  she  sees  the  tears  run  down  cass’  cheek  ,  it  feels  like  someone  shot  her  through  the  heart  .  she  never  ever  wanted  to  see  her  like  this ,  the  blonde  deserved  everything  in  the  world  ,  and  to  be  happy  .   her  next  words  almost  make  the  pain  worse  ,  having  to  hear  that  this  is  how  things  are  ending  between  them  .  it  was  the  last  thing  she  wanted  ,  but  she  didn’t  know  another  option  .   there  were  reasons  she  didn’t  have  east  in  her  life  ,  &   still  being  friends  with  east’s  new  girlfriend  who  mari  was  practically  in  love  with  ?   it  just  wasn’t  a  good  idea  .   it  was  like  the  brunette  couldn’t  even  stop  the  tears  that  were  now  welling  in  her  eyes  ,  no  matter  how  much  she  convinced  herself  she  could  control  her  emotions  ,  it  was  clear  this  was  just  so  painful  .  losing  cass  was  something  she  never  imagined  ,  it  was  the  worst  thing  in  the  world  .  and  the  fact  she  lost  her  to  east  ,  made  it  worse  .  mari  hadn’t  felt  a  pain  like  this  in  a  long  time  .   she  brings  her  hand  up  to  touch  the  blonde’s  face  ,  palm  resting  just  above  her  jaw  as  her  thumb  moved  along  cass’  cheek  to  wipe  away  the  tears  .  “  i’m  sorry  ,  too  ..  ”    she  whispers  ,   gaze  never  moving  away  from  the  blonde’s  for  as  long  as  she  could  .  once  mari  felt  a  tear  escape  her  eyes  and  run  down  her  cheek  ,   she  brings  her  hand  back  to  her  side  ,  having  to  force  herself  to  take  a  few  steps  back  from  the  girl  .   as  she’s  preparing  herself  to  walk  away  from  the  girl  for  the  last  time   ,   she  stops  for  a  moment  ,  looking  up  at  her  from  a  distance  now  .   “  cass  ,  i  just  want  you  to  know  that  you’re  perfect  .  inside  and  out  .  so  just  don’t  settle  for  anything  less  than  what  you  deserve  ,  okay  ?   promise  me  .  ”

austin: still i shouldn't have been a dick or said what i said

austin: i am sorry ..

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : it's okay

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : thanks for apologizing

𝒏𝒐𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆: i'm fine at a bar obviously

𝒏𝒐𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆: why r u sorry ?

𝒏𝒐𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆: you hurt me on purpose

𝒏𝒐𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆: you broke me

𝒏𝒐𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆: you don't get to say u miss me

𝒏𝒐𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆: why was i not good enough ?

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : i didn't hurt u on purpose

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : because i wasn't ready to get married this is what u think of me ?

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : ok i won't say it .

𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒚: dude? you called me amory before

𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒚: yeah i have a boyfriend but why would that make me stop talking to you?

𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒚: i thought it would be nice to hang out

𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒚: you know like old times

𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒚: unless you're busy or smth

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : 😳 should i say bro instead ?

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : bc ur boyfriend might not like that i can't keep my hands off u

𝒏𝒐𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆: why dotn you ever call me anymore huh

𝒏𝒐𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆: fu ck you for hurting me

𝒏𝒐𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆: i fukcing miss yo u

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : hi noelle

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : are you okay ? where are you ?

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : i know i'm sorry

𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒚: okay mari

𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒚: what's the deal?

𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒚: you haven't texted me back in days, we haven't facetimed in weeks, and i haven't seen you around

𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒚: listen if you want me to leave you alone

𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒚: just say so

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : huh ?

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : dude sorry i'm

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : kinda dealing with a lot right now and i've been working

“ i  heard  um…  i  heard  stuff  about  you…  maybe  having  feelings  for  cassie?…  o-or  her  having  feelings  for  you?  something  like  that.  i  just…  wanted  your  point  of  view,  i  guess.  —  mari,  i  love  her  so  much.  i  don’t  wanna  hurt  her. ”  but  he  never  wanted  to  hurt  mari  either,  and  look  what  happened  there.  he  immediately  regretted  that  whole  last  part,  as  his  brows  furrowed  and  he  stared  at  the  ground.  “ but  also,  great  song. ”

it  all  made  so  much  sense  when  he  brought  up  cass  ,  and  mariana  immediately  rolled  her  eyes  .  “  you  really  had  to  show  up  to  my  house  unexpected  with  some  fake  congratulations  for  this   ?  ”   if  he  wasn’t  on  her  bad  side  before  ,  he  definitely  was  now  .   she  keeps  her  hand   pressed  up  against  the  door  frame  as  he  continues  whining  .  “  you  don’t  need  my  point  of  view  ,  that’s  between  cassie  and  i  ,  ”  she  responds  ,  before  shaking  her  head  in  frustration  .  “  she’s  with  you  ,  so  clearly  you  don’t  have  anything  to  worry  about  .  per  usual  ,  you  get  what  you  want  .  ”

austin: hey...

austin: so i've been thinking..

austin: i should apologize.. i shouldn't have been a dick to you at the party...

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : hey

𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒂𝒏𝒂 : don't worry about it