✨stargirl interlude✨

Something about Rafe feeling like he has to inhabit a caregiving role. To dole out his wealth as a reward…for what?

And yk Barry acts like he has any real reasoning to go after John B when really, it just helps Rafe to go after him but I get the need to act selfish rather than an absolute simp to him, like when he comes to him about John b being back he’s all in acting like John b is his personal problem (while mind you, explicitly never asking Rafe for any help with his JJ issue in return, if anything, diverting attention) but…JJ was there the entire time and what did you do about it?

He knows it was JJ and not John B who stole from him and John B dying literally doesn’t change a thing, JJ is right there, stole 25k and beat him twice and I’m just trying to understand why you’d burn poor little Rafe’s wrist over max 1-5k debt if even but when JJ Maybank steals 25k directly out of your own private home, your bedroom even, where is your problem solving initiative? How are you fixing your shit, exactly (and if I may dare to ask, why aren’t you)?

And you gotta imagine them coming off coke, sun coming up, (comparatively) tiny amount of probably shit quality gold depending on what the cross was made of in front of them and Rafe promised Barry half a gold cross for his efforts and instead he got half of some fucking bullshit…it slowly setting in then. I mean, okay, you literally wanted 50% and not a payout serves you right, but, really gonna swallow it like that? (Don’t answer that we know Barry)

Rafe talking about Barry: scary bad man!

Additional note: Rafe being convinced that Barry would treat the pogues and his sister the same way Barry treats him….but that not even being the case...

Barry’s too chicken shit to actually threaten all of them. He has to communicate his threats through Rafe, because Rafe is the only person who’s scared of him.

And even when Barry tries to intimidate the pogues, he’s masked up, armed with a whole ass shot gun, too much of a pussy to just take want he wants, like he does with Rafe. And Rafe’s too much of an idiot to see through that veneer Barry puts on.

Their perception of each other is so warped!

the collab stages

the chorus

In s3 DD, he mirrored Julie for a little bit, but when he was working for Fisk, I noticed he took on Fisk's cadence. It's subtle, but it's there, in the way he says "we are not done".

In s2 DDBA, when he was on his "time to help matt (by killing fisk)!" bullshit, I noticed sometimes he leaned into Matt's tone of voice, to the point where their voices were blending in my head.

The few times he spoke in ways that didn't feel influenced by others, was when he was talking to Karen in that beautiful shirtless gun scene.

And not to promote my Dex fic, but he also regurgitate what other people say to appear more human, which is why in my fic I emphasized his desire for honesty, which derives not from his own self but from Dr. Mercer telling him from a young age "Be honest, we like honesty around here."

He learned honesty from Mercer but he never actually applied much honesty to his life because he was too busy pretending to be normal.

But what does honesty truly look like to Dex? Honesty is rarely words. It's an exchange of silence, it's violence, and it's admitting he likes violence.

I'm certain he feels like an animal, and that he's uncomfortable with it to some degree, which is why he asked Matt in DDBA S1 E8:

The most genuine he felt was actually when he wasn't speaking. That scene of him killing his copycat, with the wordless grunts and low chuckles. That right there is Dex.