Letâsssssssssss dive into what Bluhenâs quest description saysâŚ
Itâs nothing surprising or âwhoa where did that come fromâ because we all kind of knew that he would choose the path of âI want to stay with the El Search Party even if I canât be with them foreverâ but letâs just take a moment to appreciate
Bluhenâs,
Erbluhen Emotionâs
Lofty: Anpassenâs
Ainchaseâs journey
and what he went through to finally come to this resolution. When Ain was given his mission by the Goddess Ishmael and first arrived in Elrios to, now, say it with me, restore the energy to the unstable El, this was him:
Hear me, O creations of Ishmael:
I was nothing but a single mass of light,
before the will of God had reached me.
Divine were the words that granted my form,
and sacred was the mission my eyes opened to:
âThou shalt bestow energy on the weakened El.â
To be born in the realm of God is to live by the words of God;
I shall heed the call and accept the mission,
to fulfill my purpose and return to the heavenly realm.
I say again,
By the sacred mission I have descended upon this land;
My will is Godâs will, and my existence is Godâs wish.
âIm getting the fuck out of here as soon as I do my job, which, the Goddess herself has given me, ehem, okay?â
And this mentality rings clear throughout the early stages of the Epic Quest in Ruben and Elder. Ain is eager to restore the shattered El and just get this shit done with as soon as possible. At first Ain couldnât really understand why the ESP was helping the ungrateful human so much, and why they bother going through the trouble instead of focusing only on the objectives: restoring the El. Much to his dismay, everyone is a little too slow with the El Restoration business, and heâs beyond frustrated.Â
Executor basically noped the fuck out of the party because they are too slow and he couldnât stand humanâs humanness (greed/incompetence/stupidity), Wanderer had a breakdown from all the lack of progress they were making with the mission. But Anpassen stayed, perhaps because he was fascinated by why and more importantly, how the El Search Party was finding the reason to do things for others without expecting anything in return.Â
What he discovered was altruism.
Ain becoming Lofty: Anpassen wasnât because he was like âOh cool so this is what human emotion isâ or Lofty: Anpassen becoming Erbluhen Emotion wasnât âI totally get human emotions now; so this is anger and this is happinessâ
If you read his job descriptions carefully, youâll learn that Ain was able to manifest Elâs energy with something else; it wasnât simply âhuman emotionâ but compassion. Anpassen and Erbluhen is the product of Ain feeling compassion for his friends. The more he saw them helping each other even in times of hardship, he felt something within him. He was beginning to understand what itâs like to help someone and not expect anything for it. For Erbluhen, the ESP was in trouble and Anpassen desperately wanted to save them. It was something he never felt before. With his sincere desire to help his friends, he gained ability to control Eids even more effectively. So his entire character concept revolves around positive human social interactions like compassion, camaraderie, friendship, and such. Itâs not âOh yay I learned what sadness is today, I am so strong now.â
Now if this is a bit confusing from the way KoG throws around the word âemotion,â I understand. Sometimes I get the feeling they donât know what theyâre saying. This isnât me saying I know their character more than them; Iâm saying they blurred the line between compassion and âemotionâ that it now all sounds really confusing and really what the f
Iâm guessing theyâre trying to say compassion and altruism are something only humans experience so a Celestial being such as Ain feeling altruistic is truly very âhumanâ of him but we all know thatâs not true; even animals can be altruistic and feel compassion for others. (See Elephants and Dolphins)
And they do try to draw a very distinct difference between Arme who loses even more âemotionâ when he becomes Richter (reminiscent of Harnier losing herself as she becomes part of the El; Illuminos phenomenon, I guess itâs an effect of becoming more âGod/Celestialâ-like and less human), and Erbluhen Emotion becomes even more âemotionalâ when he becomes Bluhen. I guess being emotionally invested in others and helping each other is the concept KoG was trying to grasp. But simply saying âEmotion is Bluhenâs source of powerâ is really dodgy and confusing because malevolence and feeling murderous are also emotionâŚ
Ain: I am going to finish my job and go back home to where I used to be a ball of light because humans are stinky
Anpassen: I donât know why theyâre wasting time; this is amusing. I wonder what motivates them to go out of their way to help each other. Oh hey what are these things theyâre kind of cool; how do I use them???
Erbluhen Emotion: I am unsure exactly why but I want to help the party when theyâre in trouble. I can control Eids however I want to and I can use them to make sure everyone in the party is safe⌠I want to be with themâŚ? But they will forget me once I complete my mission and disappear. Whatâs the point of my existence, I wonder⌠Was I not created to fulfill an important mission? Am I allowed to care about my own well-being? For my own sake? Iâll leave my fate up to Elsword.
Bluhen:Â I thought I was going to disappear forever but I have been given another chance by the grace of Elia. I had fears and doubts about my future, as Henirâs influence weakened me. But my friends have not only saved me but also helped me find out who I am and what kind of future I want for myself. I want to be with the party as long as I could, even if the only thing left for me is regret because the times I have shared with them and will share with them is more important than the fear for my future.
I have skipped over a lot of Epic Quest existential crisis because I think weâve all seen it before but⌠Man, Ain has come a loooooooooong way. I canât wait to see how angsty Apostasia 3rd story is going to be.