WHATISMYMIND?

FAREWELL TO A FRIENDSHIP

Today my mind has been running wild, it´s like it doesn´t has a pause button. All I been doing since I woke up is think, think, think and guess what… think. I been worrying about the most stupid and insignificant stuff. I know that I should not, but I concluded that is something that I do naturally. Maybe this is the only thing I am good at.

The thing that been bugging me the most is my future. What am I supposed to do now? It has been a year since a graduated from high school and I still do not have clue of what I want to do with my life. I am lost with no purpose. It seems like everyone around me has gotten their shit together and just stuck. I am pathetic. How is it that for others finding their passion and life purpose is so easy? I really wish there was a pause button, so I could breathe and figure my shit out.

Anyways, no one asked but to pretend that I´m not leaving in constant pain, I have been watching anime for the last three weeks. I think it became an addiction, SEND HELP. I have watched by now like ten different animes and there are more waiting to be watch, because guess what… I have a list. This bitch needs a distraction to run away from her problems. When I watched them, I just pretend I´m one of the characters and that I have their lives, I know… my life is sad, but it is what it is.

That is all for today log of my overthinking pathetic and depressing life. I still have hope that everything will get better though.

So... I´m going to start a blog or whatever this is...maybe  it can help me or maybe I can get to meet new people. There is a rumor that internet friends exist, can I have them?

I guess im feeling kinda lonely lately, I feel like i messed up every real relationship i once had. I´m such a burden to deal with, i feel no matter what I do I will never understand how frienships work. I am lost with no purpose in life, and just going day by day cause... well I´m scared of making something drastic.