Chasing A Million Dreams

Dear Me,

I know life has not always been easy for you. There were days you felt tired, uncertain, and overwhelmed by responsibilities, expectations, and the pressure to keep going. Yet somehow, you still showed up. You still tried. And that alone is something to be proud of.

Thank you for not giving up during the moments nobody saw. Thank you for carrying burdens quietly while still finding ways to smile, serve others, and chase your goals little by little. You may not be where you want to be yet, but look how far you’ve already come.

It’s okay if your journey feels slow. Growth is not always loud. Sometimes it happens in the small decisions — choosing to continue, choosing to learn, choosing to believe that better days are ahead.

Please remember that you do not have to have everything figured out right now. Rest when you need to. Celebrate small wins. Forgive yourself for mistakes. And stop comparing your timeline to others.

One day, the prayers, sacrifices, and late nights will make sense. The version of you in the future will thank you for staying faithful and resilient through this season.

Keep dreaming.

Keep growing.

Keep trusting God.

And keep becoming the person you were meant to be.

With love,

Dear Younger Me,

Life hasn't been easy, has it? We haven't achieved all the dreams we had for Nanay, and her absence left a huge hole in our hearts. But remember, you're incredibly strong. Even with a broken phone, you keep going.

It's okay to feel tired. Sometimes the weight of the world feels unbearable. But please know you're not alone. There are still good people who care about you, and their support, though it might not solve everything, shows there's still light in the darkness.

Deep down, that spark you had, the one that made you dream, is still there. It might be buried under layers of pain, but it's not gone. Maybe right now, the fight isn't for your grandest dreams, but for smaller victories – a good night's sleep, a kind word from a friend, the strength to keep going another day. These small wins matter.

I know things seems miserable, but remember, even the darkest night eventually gives way to dawn. There will be brighter days, and when they come, you'll be stronger for having weathered this storm. Hang in there, young one. You've got this.

With love and hope,

Your Future Self

P.S. Don't ever apologize for feeling overwhelmed. It's a sign you're human. And giving up isn't always quitting. Sometimes it's about taking a break, finding a new path, or waiting for the strength to rise again. Never lose sight of your worth.

Dear Younger Me,

Life hasn't been easy, has it? We haven't achieved all the dreams we had for Nanay, and her absence left a huge hole in our hearts. But remember, you're incredibly strong. Even with a broken phone, you keep going.

It's okay to feel tired. Sometimes the weight of the world feels unbearable. But please know you're not alone. There are still good people who care about you, and their support, though it might not solve everything, shows there's still light in the darkness.

Deep down, that spark you had, the one that made you dream, is still there. It might be buried under layers of pain, but it's not gone. Maybe right now, the fight isn't for your grandest dreams, but for smaller victories – a good night's sleep, a kind word from a friend, the strength to keep going another day. These small wins matter.

I know things seems miserable, but remember, even the darkest night eventually gives way to dawn. There will be brighter days, and when they come, you'll be stronger for having weathered this storm. Hang in there, young one. You've got this.

With love and hope,

Your Future Self

P.S. Don't ever apologize for feeling overwhelmed. It's a sign you're human. And giving up isn't always quitting. Sometimes it's about taking a break, finding a new path, or waiting for the strength to rise again. Never lose sight of your worth.

With a grateful heart, I thank You for the incredible career You've blessed me with. As I step into this challenging new phase, I place my unwavering trust in Your guidance.

Empower me with the wisdom and strength to lead effectively. Grant me the clarity to fulfill my duties with efficiency and excellence. May I rise to the occasion, honoring the bigger role You've entrusted to me.

I surrender to Your will, knowing You are always by my side.

The world seems to move faster with each passing year, and sometimes it's easy to feel overwhelmed. For nearly a decade, however, I've been incredibly fortunate. A good job after graduation allowed me to travel to new places and support my family in ways I never imagined.

Looking back, I can't help but be grateful for the incredible people who have guided me. I wouldn't have been able to achieve so much without their support and God's divine intervention. A scholarship, which I never thought I'd qualify for, opened the door to college, and my amazing first job sharpen my English skills. These stepping stones led me to my current, fulfilling position.

Life throws its challenges, but reflecting on where I came from fills me with immense thankfulness. I'm blessed to be in a position to help myself and my family, even in small ways.

Perhaps you're already here, a flicker of recognition in someone's smile, a spark in a chance encounter. Seven years have passed since I last felt this exhilarating pull, this blossoming of affection. Back then, a dear friend from college held that space in my heart. We made a pact, a silent understanding that my education came first. But life, as it often does, took a different turn. Graduation came and went, the words unspoken. She found love in someone who pursued her wholeheartedly, and I, a young man then, found myself heartbroken.

Time, however, has a way of healing. As we worked side-by-side, a truth emerged – our bond was one of deep friendship, not romantic destiny. I was her confidante, a shoulder to lean on during her relationship struggles. It became clear that my feelings were one-sided, and with that realization came a quiet acceptance.

Today, a similar warmth ignites within me. A childhood acquaintance, someone whose presence once filled my younger days with innocent dreams, has captured my attention. We haven't spoken much, haven't delved into the depths of friendship, but there's a spark, a possibility that excites me.

My pockets may not jingle with grand offerings, but my heart overflows with sincerity and the lessons learned along the way. The path to approach her remains unclear, but the journey itself holds a thrilling promise.

Until we meet, dear future wife, this letter serves as a promise – a vow to chase this spark with courage and honesty.

Wishing you peace, and hoping to see you soon,

I see the strength you carry, the relentless pursuit of growth for yourself, your family, and those around you. You've faced battles alone, and for that, I am fiercely proud.

Remember, your faith is a personal journey. Trust in the unwavering presence of the Lord, a constant source of love and understanding. Let not the voices around you define your connection with Him. We are each unique threads in His grand tapestry, and He embraces us all, imperfections and limits included.

Believe in the unfolding of your purpose. Don't let emotions or anxieties build walls that block your dreams. God doesn't desire robotic obedience; He created you to be free – free from manipulation, judgment, and burdens that weigh you down. His love is unwavering, a constant in this ever-changing world.

Life hasn't been easy, has it? We haven't achieved all the dreams we had for Nanay, and her absence left a huge hole in our hearts. Tatay's struggle with gambling has only made things harder. But remember, you're incredibly strong. Even with a broken phone, you keep going.

It's okay to feel tired. Sometimes the weight of the world feels unbearable. But please know you're not alone. There are still good people who care about you, and their support, though it might not solve everything, shows there's still light in the darkness.

Deep down, that spark you had, the one that made you dream, is still there. It might be buried under layers of pain, but it's not gone. Maybe right now, the fight isn't for your grandest dreams, but for smaller victories – a good night's sleep, a kind word from a friend, the strength to keep going another day. These small wins matter.

I know things seem bleak, but remember, even the darkest night eventually gives way to dawn. There will be brighter days, and when they come, you'll be stronger for having weathered this storm. Hang in there, young one. You've got this.

With love and hope,

Your Future Self

Burried my body near to Nanay's graveyard. Use my savings or benefits for my Funeral. Walang sugal during wake. (I know that my benefits will be enough for my Funeral) I don't have enough savings but I know God will provide for everything.

1. I would like the same service to Nanay. Lots of flowers and nice Casscette. Tuxido suod ko with bow tie, ayokonng barong. :)

2. Please walk, from our house to Garden of Love. This will be my last chance.

3. Everynight must have Bible Lesson about Jesus, Praise and worship too (Live sana)

4. Piliin nyo ung nice photos ko, lagyan nyo ng videos wag puro slide lang. (Yung parang edit ko kay Nanay)

5. Puro Christian music patugtugin. Mga hymnals din sana.

Thank you for being the best brother in the whole world. I pray that you'll give your life to Jesus. He will lead you to the path where life is better.

Sorry if I can't provide everything for you. I can't guide you to the right path. Sorry if I'm not there to protect you everyday. Know that I love you and I want all the best for you.

Please study first and do your best to make your dream come true. Don't just be like me, be the best version of yourself.

Guess what? We're still broke. Nanay died early and I was not able to meet the dreams we have for her. I'm tired already and I don't know what to do. Tatay became a gambling addict after Nanay's death. ( now is worst, not just gambling for fun. He became different, he is always mad even to small things)

Life here is taugh. I'm not earning much, I can't even help myself to buy a new phone. (I'm using a broken one now, but it's still managable to use)

Sorry if I can't make it. I did my best, I tried everything. But I'm tired. I can't fight anymore. I'm so sad and I wanna die. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. I've lost everything, the passion in my heart was gone, I don't feel anything, I don't care about my dream, I've lost all of my hope. Nothing I can do about it.

Ayoko na. Sorry kid I'm a quitter. Hindi talaga kaya, pagod na'kong lumaban. Ang hirap dito. Maging masaya kanalang jan.

There are still true people here, helping me but it's not enough. Sana matapos na 'to. 🥺😭 Sorry if susuko na ko. Sorry if I'm a failure. Sorry hindinko kinaya. Sorry kung kailan halos abot kamay ko na doon pa gumuho ang lahat.

Now, everything are still blured. I can't still see the future. I can't vision what I want. I've been pleasing pleople. I don't know who will love me anymore.

I know that life must go on, God is still there watching over me. I believe that one day, I'll be gone too. My life will end too. And we'll meet in paradise.

But since she left, I lose everything. I wanna give up, ayoko nang lumaban. I'm tired.

I pray that God will reveal to me the life He planned for me, the reason why I'm still here. I wanna know my purpose. I wanna live this life fully and freely. With His guidance and full of happiness.

But, I have to be on my own now. I'll help my father, that's for sure. I'll not toleraring them anymore. I am faaaar to my goals and I am drowning in my finances because of my poor decisions and for spoiling them.

Now, I can't help myself. I'm tired and I don't know what to do. I can't do business because I have nothing. I can't travel anymore and do whatever I want. I can't buy myself good stuffs or something.

I can't even eat in resto that before is not an issue to me. Now, I can't help them and they can't help me either. Worst, I can't help myself too now. 🥹 I'm drowning and no one knows that I am drowning. I have business ideas but I can't implement it. I was earning from juay selling small items 'cause I can buy supplies even I can stock it I have money that I can use for myself and for my amall business.

Now, I can't but myself milk tea. I'm waiting for my paycheck just to pay my bills, but before I don't need to wait for that I can pay it right away.

I'm broken. Lord I'm broken and I can't help myself 🥹. Lord, I know this is my fault, I fail You. I truated myself much. Please flrgive me Lord for all my sins and shortcomings.

Guide me now in my next move and please help me to pay everything I owe. 🥹

He's writing letter to my Nanay. He misses her too, he is still sad. He is still longing to my Nanay. He really love my Nanay. I'm a living witness, he never raise his voice over my mother, I never hear them throwing things to each other nor throwing hate words to each other.