♡ / #TASTE

i have experienced members leaving groups such as wonho from monsta x, hoya from infinite, b.i from ikon, sungchan/shotaro/lucas from nct and many more.

i have experienced groups disbanding like 4minute, sistar, gugudan, wonder girls, gfriend, b.a.p, clc, pristin, weki meki, i.o.i, iz*one and many more.

i grieved for sulli from f(x), jonghyun from shinee, hara from kara, eunb and rise from ladies code and moonbin from astro.

i haven't been stanning new groups for a while now, not just because of these reasons, but because of life. i grew up, and while i listen to new songs and groups, i don't have much time to invest in them like i did when i was younger. i really thought i was over this, the pain and heartbreak of being a kpop stan, and that maybe i got used to it.

i didn't. because after all, it's not something you can get used to, especially when it comes to someone you like and admire so much. they always say don't get attached. i always fail to do so, just like many of us do.