sun never sets

And it pisses me off because it’s just the same thing ALL OVER AGAIN !!!!!! The same fucking thing, like clockwork. Like I’m fucking cursed to covet life after life after life while you get to be aloof and unaware and so goddamn happy and you have no fucking idea!!! You don’t even know I’m bleeding out every single fucking time I have a word with you!!!!!!

STOP TALKING TO ME LIKE YOU SEE ME

what if I told you how I felt and then blocked you and never spoke to your nauseating ass again I HATE YOUUU LMFAO you stupid FUCK go fucking fuck yourself you FREAK i’m not seeing you while I’m in ****** not on your fucking life in a million years

then, now, it’s all the same. I feel so much and you feel so little. I don’t think I could stomach to sit near you again, my hand itching to reach out for you — especially now, when I know for sure the point is moot and we have obligations to others that we must tend to. but still, like a child, I search for you in the dark

another night, another dream where I’m begging you to turn and see me

Just a stupid little weepy fuck missing his dumbass older brother who he didn’t even like and disliked him in return