Heart Unheart

i have [gestures vaguely] my tendencies

human ears are such bullshitttttt i cant even emote with these. whats the fucking point if i cant swivel my ears in ur direction or like perk them up when i hear something interesting or point them all back when something scary happens. whats even the point

all of my writing is actually just thinly-veiled fantasy about being seen at your worst and still being loved

if you aren't best friends with your lover and a little bit in love with all your friends than what's the fucking point

"slut era" i say as i rot and decay in my bedroom and watch the years pass me by as i miss out on core experiences other people my age are having while i think about the past

i'm actually very normal if you ignore everything i have ever said and done

it’s my life and i can make as many dog noises as i want and if you don’t like that you can go to another trader joe’s

forget yearning do you ever covet? do you ever crave??? let the temptation of desire seep into your bones forevermore until you are sick with envy???????

god I wish I had a pair of menacing black gauntlets with really sharp fingertip claws I bet it feels good as fuck to have your hands resting palm-down on a surface and then scratch some deep fucking gashes into it as you clench your hand a little closer to a fist when your evil minion delivers some bad news to you

Oh yeah I'm training myself to become nostalgic over nearer and nearer term things. Eventually I'll be able to enjoy the moment I'm living in.

im sure if i move far away from home to somewhere no one knows me my whole personality will suddenly change and everyone will love me and everything will be better im sure im sure im sure