Wishing On A Wavelength Of Celestial Intent

A night in some AU, on the run, taking shelter in an abandoned motel. Dean can't sleep. Cas wakes up, because he just knows <3

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I was finishing up Supernatural when VGen dropped challenge with a theme WIngs, so I knew exactly what I should do...

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“The Empty?”

“No,” Sam says. “No, when…when I was dead. In the Cage. What was–what was Dean like? I know you were watching him.”

“Oh,” Cas says, clearly surprised at this topic of conversation. “Well he was very sad, obviously.”

“Obviously,” Sam says. “But I mean–was he drinking? Was he crying himself to sleep? Was he being stupid?”

Cas frowns. “He drank, but he had a job with a construction company so he usually reserved that for weekends. He didn’t like to talk about you.”

“But he had a job?”

“Yes,” Cas says. 

“Did he like–go to Ben’s PTA meetings?”

“I don’t know,” Cas says. “He certainly drove him to baseball practice and went to his games if he wasn’t working.”

Sam exhales. 

“You have to understand that he was a shell of himself,” Cas says. “Trying very hard but he didn’t have any passion.”

“Right,” Sam says. “Of course.”

“It was, I assume, very similar to how he acted the last few months,” Cas adds. Except the thing is that Cas is totally wrong. The thing is that Dean had a whole life with Lisa while Sam was in the Cage, while Sam was soulless. The thing is that when Cas was dead….

Sam’s not jealous. He’s not upset. He’s glad Dean was able to move on. His time with Amelia proves that he can move on, too. It’s just…

Interesting, that when it was Cas who died, he couldn’t. 

Sam looks at Dean, who hasn’t moved. His eyes are wide open, and he stares at Sam. Cas doesn’t know he’s awake. Dean shakes his head minutely, and Sam sends his gaze to the ceiling. 

🍂Suptober - Day 21 | Ladies Of SPN🍂

cas has no idea what his words mean. he was not there with cain in 9x11 when he told dean the story of his wife. only crowley was there, and it's not like he's going to share any of this information with cas. so when cas asks dean to stop, he's not saying it in the hopes that dean will remember what cain said and be moved by that. he's only asking, in the most heartbreakingly gentle voice, for dean to stop. to walk away from this path that will lead him into darkness. and the only reason he's saying it is out of his love for dean.

but DEAN. dean knows the story behind that word. he knows that "stop" was what cain's wife, who loved him unconditionally, who forgave him, said in an attempt to save him. to dean, this would sound like an expression of love.

i think this is why dean walks back toward cas and hurts him so much more violently than he did the first time and then tries to kill him. because he understood cas' words through the lens of unconditional love and devotion. and maybe he realised that he also loved cas enough that he would stop if cas asked him. and the mark couldn't allow that - the mark was driving dean to kill anything that stood in his way, and while it didn't interpret cas, an angelic warrior, as a threat, a loving, forgiving cas brokenly asking dean to stop - that was a threat.

look at dean's reaction here. he was on the verge of leaving, he was walking away because he didn't think cas could physically do anything to stop him. but when cas simply asks him to stop, he turns back. he realises that, if cas begged him, then he would stop, that the part of him still clinging to humanity loves cas enough to do that. and that love frightens the part of him that has been taken over by the mark. so the only solution is to kill cas, to remove someone who could actually stand in his way.

and during this second beating, the most gentle of supernatural's themes, the jay gruska dean's family dedication theme, is playing in the background - it starts right after cas asks dean to stop. the theme that specifically reveals dean's gentler, loving inner self - that's the theme they chose to play while he's trying to kill cas.

but of course, in the end, despite what the mark wants, despite it seeing cas and his love for dean, as a threat, it still cannot make dean kill cas.