나비처럼 날아

hello, here comes the pisces who’s obsessed with change !!! to say i’m excited about this revamp is an underestimation because i loooove changing things up sometimes. ANYWAY. i have two things certain and one still questioning so here they go: 

SUNGHEE; keeping them with nct is a must and i’m sticking to the main rapper, lead dancer and vocal of catalyst for them. 

CHUNHWA; i pondered over it a little bit since both her model discographies are gone and considering the age limit my options were slightly limited but i decided to gun for the lead vocal & lead dancer of andromeda for her. 

JAEYOON; so far, i’m likely dropping him, which is not something i want to do because i love his chaotic ass so much. i’m still going to decide, but at one point i’ll either bring him or one version of him back probably because he just makes me too happy not to keep somehow.

final update to confirm these changes!! those are the positions im going for with sunghee & chunhwa and i’m also dropping jaeyoon at this point in time but!! he’ll be back one day!!

hello, here comes the pisces who’s obsessed with change !!! to say i’m excited about this revamp is an underestimation because i loooove changing things up sometimes. ANYWAY. i have two things certain and one still questioning so here they go: 

SUNGHEE; keeping them with nct is a must and i’m sticking to the main rapper, lead dancer and vocal of catalyst for them. EDIT: ACTUALLY I STILL CAN’T PICK BETWEEN MAIN RAPPER AND LEAD RAPPER DDDDDDDDDD I’LL DECIDE BY THE END OF THE DAY 

CHUNHWA; i pondered over it a little bit since both her model discographies are gone and considering the age limit my options were slightly limited but i decided to gun for the lead vocal & lead dancer of andromeda for her. 

one strike of the other person’s voice — it’s damn familiar enough he’s heard it before. yet, not enough that he recognizes who it is till his eyes fall flat at the hazy memories of california.

a bad memory, that’s for sure. the void of anything positive when his face turns into a sour grimace, an instinct first pulling through his features. “a groupie — yes, now i remember.” gyujeong sarcastically drawls, thinning out his mouth into one of those ‘ah-anywhere-but-here’ grins. “donate money here, think of it as damn charity work. unless you’d rather this be one of those manager to manager transactions.” his eyes curve, his sardonic smile heightened as he drives a quick glance around the room then back to her.

out of all the idols in the entire fucking industry — how’d he end up here?

“seeing as how this is our second encounter, i’m going to take this as you’re either staff with a shitty temper or you’re one passionate sasaeng — which is it today?” it’s a stretch out of the conversation when one quick look of full-makeup and outfits that’s a dead giveaway — oh, and he remembers now:  “nevermind, i remember.” he flashes a dismissive wave. “you’re part of jeonghwa and friends. right? so, you wouldn’t have money to spare for the unfortunate knight member, would you?”

Ever since her trainee years, it had grown increasingly harder for anyone to get on Chunhwa’s nerves. She had once been very easy to irritate, very easy to react, very easy to take the bait whenever someone threw it. Also very easy to initiate at times — Chunhwa just had a bad temper, especially fresh out of high school, having become a trainee with hopes to debut only to go back to the drawing board and have to wait even longer. She was a shitty person and she tried her best not to be it anymore. 

But Gyujeong was certainly testing every bit of her patience. “You’re asking me for a favour and you can’t even be polite to me about it?” Chunhwa narrowed her eyes at him, hands coming to rest on her hips. She didn’t plan on causing a scene, especially because if this got out to anyone she doubted people would take the side of the junior female idol over the side of the senior male idol. A member of Knight, no less. But he was a dick! Wasn’t Chunhwa allowed to get mad at him for it?

While the dramatic changing tides haven’t been easy for her to navigate, Michelle likes to think that she’s adjusting as best she can to the newness that surrounds her. For one thing, she’s not only embarking on a completely different career path than originally planned, but she’s living in a whole new country. Sure, she has genetic ties to South Korea, but for what seems like forever, it existed almost as a figment of her imagination given that she and her mother never had the money ( or the time ) to travel abroad; not even for a brief holiday visit. She recalls the stories that both of her parents used to tell her about living in Seoul and seeing it grow into the city its become today, and she always imagined it to be a place that she’d feel at home in, but so far, she’s sort of had the opposite experience. It’s hard to explain, but she longs to feel apart of it the longer she remains a resident. As far as her contract is concerned, she’s here ( at least ) until it expires, so she has no choice but to adapt.

What’s assisted her so far is her ability to naturally engage in conversation, and while she knows her grasp on the language isn’t top-notch and she still has no idea what social norms she needs to follow, she really tries her best to be pleasant to everyone—even when their response to her isn’t nearly as warm. So, when a bit of chill is found within Chunhwa’s tone, she immediately is taken back to the condescending attitudes she had to put up with as a figure skater. However, as she knows the other is a talented, respected “senior” of hers, Michelle doesn’t want to meet her icy words with even more frigid cool, so she at least attempts to be playful. Though, if this fails and things continue on the somewhat tense vibe they’re traveling down, she’s not going to be afraid to give the other a taste of her own medicine.

That’s one thing she has the most issues with in Korea—the constant expectation that younger, inexperienced individuals must bow down to their seniors whims and words no matter how they treat you. She’ll never abide by that, and hopes that it doesn’t land her scorching hot water in the future. Then again, if it does, it’s not as if she plans to exist in the entertainment industry for the rest of her life. If anything, it would just work as an excuse to get the hell out of it far faster than intended.

“Lucid? I feel like I’ve seen or heard that name somewhere, but I’m the worst when it comes to remembering stuff like that.” She begins, then nods as she takes the seat offered to her; setting her items down gracefully. “I don’t think Lucid’s in BC, but if it is, I’m so sorry… I’d feel so bad for just not even retaining that information.” Slowly, she lifts her beverage and takes a sip, then giggles at the mention of the dessert present. So Chunhwa’s that kind of girl… noted. “Oh, yeah. Well, I’m not going to lie to you, the diet culture here is… pretty ludicrous in my opinion. Like, I feel like I’m on a more rigid diet here than I was when I was figure skating, and let me tell you, that’s saying somethin’…” The younger replies, shamelessly digging into her treat; taking the biggest bite possible. “That, and to be frank,” she begins, then swallows. “I’ve been told that I shouldn’t try to lose more weight. I also sort of refuse to. I’m not about to be driven mad or anything if I step on a scale and it shows a number they do or don’t like.”

Continuing to indulge, she hums at the flavor, then gazes over to the other; offering a smile after dabbing her lips with a napkin. “If you don’t mind my asking, what are you known for in Lucid? I hope this doesn’t sound strange, but I have a feeling that you’re, like, terrifyingly talented. I get a vibe from you that you just kinda have your shit together. It’s… impressive.”

In all honesty, there is some leniency when it comes to the way Chunhwa handles seniority. She doesn’t really expect anyone younger or more junior than her to go the extra mile to please her and, if anything, she just expects the same level of respect she expects from her own younger sister. Chunhwa has heard horror stories within the industry of older idols who would more or less throw a fit if someone younger treated them with just a little bit less respect than intended, and she had been in the receiving end of some of that attitude when she was a trainee, but she just doesn’t see the point in stressing yourself over this sort of thing. Sure, she’ll treat people much older than her with the respect necessary, but she doesn’t expect people around her age to do the same to her. It’s fine, she won’t lose sleep over that. But she would be lying if she said she hasn’t taken advantage of it at times to keep some people around her on their toes. It’s fairly easy for her to put on a resting bitch face, to ditch the smile that shifts her face completely, and stare someone down while demanding they speak to her formally, regardless of the less than one year difference between their ages. And the number of times she’s told someone not to call her unnie or noona? Ah, being a trainee was truly fun when it came to terrorizing others. 

Chunhwa could do this to the girl, but her slight accent tells Chunhwa she’s not from Korea in the first place. It’s not as fun to do this with people who most likely do not care about seniority as much as Korean born and raised people are. If anything, Chunhwa will bet that if she attempts, Rorin will just bite back at her, and she’d like her afternoon not to be tarnished by some bickering with a random trainee. 

It’s only barely that she keeps her eyebrows from twitching at the girl’s words. Ah, Chunhwa can’t really tell if she’s being honest or just trying to pull on Chunhwa’s figurative pigtails with that comment about Lucid. Surely female trainees of all companies at this point have had to practice one of Lucid’s choreography at this point, haven’t they? They are known, within the industry at the very least, and Chunhwa is not willing to believe in ignorance. But she can go with it, if Rorin wants. Fuck if she’s going to lose her composure just to defend her group. “Dimensions. Lucid is in Dimensions. Surely as a trainee you know which groups are in your company, don’t you?”  

Chunhwa watches as Rorin speaks, as she takes another bite of her cake. She chuckles, crossing her legs. Chunhwa was raised by a ballerina — dieting was one of the first things she learned in her life after moving to South Korea. She’s always been a dancer, always been pretty and envied because of her looks, but it has also always been easy for her to gain weight, so Chunhwa can’t afford certain luxuries. “Well, it doesn’t really matter what you think or what you want,” she tapped her nails against the table. “They will cut you mercilessly if you don’t look the way they want you to, especially in BC. Maybe not you, not with that face. I’m sure you could be virtually useless and they would still debut you with that face, but there’s only so much they’ll accept while you don’t make a name for yourself.”

open starter for anyone / hallyu dream concert

if you asked him what he’d rather do, he’d list a million and one damn things he’d rather be doing than be situated at a hallyu dream concert, full-on costume with the makeup clouding his face.

it seems like the shitty loophole of festival after festival, concert after concert — promotions that don’t cease when he’s on a constant relay between knight and knight light. by the time he makes his big breakaway from his members and his manager’s hawk eyes, he’s left by a vending machine and the stack of food to serve his boredom well, hunger otherwise. “this is so shitty if they expect us to eat stale sandwiches.” gyujeong mumbles to himself, taking together a glance over to his right then to his left, catching the sight of another idol.

“nevermind, forget i said that.” his pass at glossing over his brunt words come at another grumble, underneath his breath as he turns a heel over towards the vending machine. one hand slipped into his pocket, damn — he should’ve known. nothing goes right, so he flees back to the idol. “i forgot my wallet — you don’t happen to have any spare cash on you or some shit?”

At this point of the year, after three Lucid comebacks, Chunhwa was functioning with expired batteries. It was all part of the job, of course, and seeing as they were still closer to rookies than to seniors, it was expected of Lucid to have a schedule more fit for a group that hasn’t yet quite managed to cement their name in the industry. It was fine, she signed a contract all those years ago being aware of the obligations she’d have in life, of the schedules she was going to have to attend, of the events she was going to have to perform in. It was just part of the job. Even if Chunhwa at times would half-ass some of the performances, particularly when it came to the dancing, it didn’t mean she wasn’t going to be as present as possible. 

But it also didn’t mean she was going to be stuck in the room with the rest of her group while they waited for their allotted performance time, no. There were other people she wanted to see, things she wanted to do, food she wanted to eat. As it were, though, of course there was nothing enticing about the snacks provided for them and one glance at the vending machine had Chunhwa wincing. Lost in her thoughts, she only truly noticed Gyujeong when he addressed her. 

the look jeonghwa gave lucid’s manager when they suggested she do one of those base livestreams to give advice, was absolutely as incredulous as she felt. everyone in that room, anyone who had suggested it higher than her manager knew how weird of a request that was. jeonghwa enjoyed giving advice, but would it be advice the company would approve of? on a livestream? absolutely not. if she didn’t want to have her ass handed to her, she’d need to try to be at least a little careful.

part of the suggestion was picking out another girl to do the stream with her, which, at the time, she assumed was to have someone to watch after her. either way, the obvious choice was one of the five girls she already lived with, so jeonghwa made a deal with herself that whoever she came across next would be the person she asked.

hwa. hwa was a good choice. jeonghwa enjoyed hanging out with her, and she felt like they had similar thoughts at times. she’d do perfectly well.

when the propped up phone livestream finally turned on, jeonghwa lifted her head from where she’d been resting it on hwa’s shoulder, and broke out into a grin. “hi, hi. i’m jeonghwa,” she slung an arm around hwa’s shoulders, “and this is my bestie chunhwa. we’re gonna answer any questions you guys have about, like, life and stuff, so if you’d like a bit of advice from us, send something in.” jeonghwa leaned in to read some of the comments that finally caught up to her speech, then waited longer until questions came up. not all were relevant, which was to be expected, but the more difficult to get through part was, “guys, please write your questions all in one message so we don’t miss it.” when one short and easy question came all together, an excitement popped jeonghwa straight up in her seat, turned to hwa. “someone asked what plant they should get in their apartment. you like that science-y stuff, right? so this is probably a better question for you. what do you think?”

@fmdchunhwa

Chunhwa thought she was pretty good at giving advice. It came with the territory of being the oldest sister — even when she didn’t know what to say, Chunhwa had to figure something out in order to help Chunhui, who thought of Chunhwa as someone with a good head on her shoulders. Granted, she wasn’t the best at following the advice she gave people, but she didn’t think that being a hypocrite necessarily discredited anything she said. Do as I say and not as I do, right? A good philosophy for anyone who tried to use Chunhwa as a guide or a reference. She wasn’t the queen of good decisions, but her emotional detachment to most things that don’t involve her made it so that she could easily rationalize situations she wasn’t involved in.

She didn’t necessarily want to give the fans advice. For starters, she didn’t think they’d have good questions to ask. Would they even trust her and Jeonghwa to have any advice to give? It wasn’t as if Jeonghwa was known to the audience as someone who was level headed. Chunhwa knew that she was around to act as Jeonghwa’s impulse control more than anything, though she thought that more often than not it was the younger girl who acted like the devil on Chunhwa’s shoulder. 

idol life & career meme (accepting)

10. if you were auditioning for your company today, what would you perform for your audition, or what would you change from your original audition?

“That depends, do I have the skills I have nowadays or do I have the skills I had back then? If I had the skills I had back when I first auditioned I wouldn’t at all because I doubt I would pass also I’m too old now for that. But if I had the skills I have nowadays, maybe I would sing Kim Ahjoong’s Maria? It’s a good party trick, always impresses people.”

tattoos & piercings. headcanon 002. 

In the past few years, Chunhwa has collected quite a few piercings and tattoos. Especially during the nightmare realm promotions, that’s when she feels like she has more permission to have them showing up outside of the stage. This is just a headcanon for reference of the piercings as well as the tattoos and their meanings. 

monthly evaluation. playlist 002. 

It’s a given that every company has monthly evaluation for trainees, so Dimensions of course would enforce those as well. When Chunhwa first joined Dimensions, she originally trained slightly more as a dancer than as a singer, but given her potential, she started doing more vocal training than dance training at one point, which she’s still kinda bitter about, which eventually led to her becoming the main vocalist of Lucid. This is a playlist of some of the songs she sang in the process and a couple of sentences about each of them. 

INT.  LUSSO BARISTA LAB, CHEONGDAM  ●  EARLY AM. *  ♡  WRITTEN, WITH LOVE, FOR ANYONE  →  OPEN !

She’s not going to kid herself, her schedule as of late is exhausting, but thankfully, she’s slightly used to it based on the wild hours she used to pour into her ( failed ) figure skating career. Back then, Michelle was always awake before sunrise, and even as a child, she would inhale mugfuls of coffee in order to provide a much-needed boost before heading towards the rink—her mom often claiming that her daughter was a refined “young woman” even in elementary school, and in a sense, that’s pretty accurate. She was somewhat forced to grow up as quickly as possible. If she didn’t, she would’ve been crushed under the pressure her coaches laid on her shoulders. The weight she had to sustain wasn’t at all what someone so juvenile should’ve been carrying around, but since forever, she’s always been told to push herself—to work hard in achieving a better life; not only for herself, but for her mother, as well. Even though her mom may not fully understand—or even support—her daughter’s decision to pursue a career in entertainment, she hopes that she can make all their dreams come true and be the sole provider for them in the unpredictable future, but until then, Michelle’s working as diligently as possible to make sure that she’s not screwing anyone over by rushing into such unfamiliar waters.

Much like her past, she still rises early in the morning, and like usual, Michelle always starts her day with a delectably sweet pick-me-up, and today, she decided to try a new café she found on the internet—one that’s not too far way from BC Entertainment’s headquarters, thank God. The last time she wanted to try out a new place, she didn’t realize it was an arduous journey through the city to get there, and sadly, she was scolded for arriving extremely late to her training that day. Here’s hoping she won’t end up in the same boat later on… especially since she plans on window-shopping and wandering about for a few hours before she heads back.

Approaching the order counter, she offers a smile to the cashier; eyes peering over the menu for a few seconds until she finds what she wants. “I’ll take an iced Earl Grey honey latte, and a slice of that totally delicious looking cake…” A delicate laugh reverberates from between her lips—ever charming and forever kind to service staff. When she pays up, she turns and looks for a table to take a seat at—finding an empty one in the corner. Though, on her short jaunt over, Michelle thinks she sees someone that she recognizes from the industry, and in order to network and get to know more people, she decides to approach them because… why not?

“Forgive me if this sounds strange, but I feel like I’ve seen you somewhere…” She begins, her tone donning a soft sultriness to it without intention. “Are you an idol or a trainee? I don’t know if I’m supposed to say anything, but I train at BC. My name’s Michelle, or Rorin. Whichever you like best.” It’s then whens she offers her hand for a shake, hoping that her small intrusion didn’t catch them too off-guard.

“This place is cute, isn’t it?”

On the rare occasions that Lucid has a bit of a looser schedule, Chunhwa tends to spend the night at either Andy’s or her grandparents’. Her boyfriend’s place is preferably for a multitude of reasons but especially for privacy and not having to share an apartment with a bunch of other people even if it’s just for one night, while she enjoys going home to her grandparents’ so she can meet up with her sister more easily and spend most of her time nagging at the younger girl. This time around, it was Andy’s. She had missed her — theirs — animals as it’s been a while since the last time she got the opportunity of spending the night. With another comeback just around the corner, it means her time is going to be even further shortened and she grabs onto every opportunity possible. 

But Chunhwa had been too lazy to cook breakfast, especially with Andy already gone when she had woken up. Her best alternative was to find a café, one that wasn’t as annoyingly busy as the biggest chains, where she could sit down, eat some food and drink some decent coffee without worrying too much about being approached. The place she goes to is one she’s been going to with her sister for years. It is indeed not too crowded when she arrives, easily finding herself an empty table after she grabs her order. Just as Chunhwa is about to dig into her cake, she’s approached by a girl.

Lately, it’s been more common for Chunhwa to be recognised around. She’s not being full of herself when she says she’s someone easily recognisable because of her looks — she is a very beautiful person, and everybody around her is constantly reminding her of that. With Lucid increasing popularity, their faces being in more places lately, it’s inevitable that more people know who she is. More often than not she gets approached for an autograph but today, specifically, Chunhwa was hoping for a quiet breakfast. 

Yet before Chunhwa can let her down gently, the girl continues speaking, introducing herself as a trainee. Chunhwa would consider luck if she recognized so much as a trainee from Dimensions, much less a BC one, but she does have to give it to the girl that she has balls to randomly approach someone like this just to try to strike a conversation. Chunhwa is equal parts annoyed and amused, so she reaches out to take the girl’s hand. “Rorin, you said?” It’s not particularly a struggle for her to say Michelle, but a petty part of her latches onto it being the first name offered, which must mean it’s the girl’s favorite, so Chunhwa might as well call her by the other one. “I’m Lucid’s Bom. Or Chunhwa. Don’t call me Bom, no one calls me that.” Not even the fans. Stupid stage name. 

Andy and Chunhwa’s relationship was one that Daisuke was very much aware of, as well as most of the idol industry. Even though it wasn’t public knowledge to the fans or the general public, it was quite difficult to hide relationships amongst idols. Even his relationship with Sung, while it wasn’t as common knowledge between idols as his group member and his girlfriend, still wasn’t a complete secret within the industry. It didn’t bother him too much though. It wasn’t like any idols would out them, or any other set of idols that were together romantically. There was a silent understanding amongst everyone in the idol industry; mind the business that pays you. Everyone dated, even if they weren’t supposed to. Outing one idol for dating meant opening yourself up to the possibility of being outed for dating too, which was something that everyone wanted to avoid as much as possible. 

However even though he was still aware of the romantic relationship between Chunhwa and Andy, they aren’t really all that close with one another. Which wasn’t that surprising at the end of the day. It took Daisuke quite some time to warm up to people enough to consider them to be a friend of his, and most of the time he had seen Chunhwa it had only been for small instances or she was too busy with Andy for him to get to know her. Which he understood - they were idols after all, and CHARM could be exceptionally busy. Andy and Chunhwa would’ve wanted to spend as much time with each other as possible, without being interrupted by group members. “A mistress? I find that highly unlikely..” As much as Daisuke cared about him as a brother and friend, he couldn’t see a woman putting herself in the predicament of being the other woman just to sleep with Andy. Then again, his group member was attractive and apart of a popular group. That could be enough for some people. “I’ve been alright. A little busy.” He shrugged, before sighing. “Sung’s doing as well as he can right now. He’s still dealing with what happened and it’s tough, but he’s making it through.” He paused for a moment. “I’ll tell him you asked about him.”

Every bit of her apprehension when it came to how public hers and Andy’s relationship was came from a place of being worried about Andy, not so much about herself. Sure, if their relationship got outed, it would fall mostly on Chunhwa. She was still under a dating ban, technically, would be until early the next year, so there would be consequences with the company, ones that would probably lead to her being punished in some way. Chunhwa would also become target number one of Charm’s fans’ rage, which could not be fun considering they were probably top five in the rabid boy group stans list. It wouldn’t be a walk in the park for her, but Chunhwa wasn’t known for making wise decisions and neither did she care extensively about people who hated her. Andy relied on keeping his image as clean as possible for as long as possible, though, especially with his new ventures, so that was where her concern fell mostly on. 

Alice didn’t have any particular issues with remembering birthdays - the five girls who she made up Lucid with, managers, even people she barely knew. It  helped that she was the type to go out of her way to deliver well-wishes, though, and she loved feeling like she had some influence over the coming year for the person whose birthday it was.

“I did! I thought I’d donate the leftovers to the soup kitchen. That way I’d still get to try everything, and make a nice gesture, too!” she smiled brightly. “Ah, we had a busy day, so I thought you’d want to rest. I was going to pick a cake to bring home to everyone, though, I promise.” She giggled, following along as Chunhwa led the way. “You’re so cute, unnie, I can tell you care.” Chunhwa wasn’t one of the Lucid members Alice was closest with, but she had a feeling she was softer inside than she let on. 

Keeping a certain level of distance between herself and her members had come as an inevitability for Chunhwa. By now, she was at a point where instead of simply considering them her colleagues, they were… almost friends. People she trusted to a certain extent, especially due to their shared experiences. She respected them as people and co-workers, so long as they didn’t start bothering her for her choices, and Chunhwa believed that was a healthy enough relationship to maintain. But with that said, she couldn’t help the inevitable desire to take care of the younger ones a little bit. 

andy laughed, careless to the seizing of his chest it took. belated, he rubbed a hand over where she slapped him, and pouted. like many things in life, it was only a show, one that faded as she kept speaking and the path of his fingers slowed to a lazy pace.

being naked together more than dressed may have been a truth in their past, nowadays more of a stretch, but chunhwa wasn’t entirely wrong. they sure as fuck saw each other naked often. which was part of why he’d been so annoyed she wouldn’t let him watch her get her tattoo -not like he hadn’t seen her tits before, or like anyone deserved to see them more than he did.

andy would have argued it, pressed on further that he could be petty enough to hide it from her even all of those other times, but her chatty ass kept on going, until she got to a point he found intriguing, worthwhile. his fingers stopped in place, and his tongue came out to wet his lips before he said, “alright, go on then.” and as she did, andy’s eyes followed exposed skin, from the piercing stupidly red from her dumbass messing with it, up the expanding ribcage, to… was that a bee? this was what she wanted to hide from him? couldn’t have been his name at least? his brow raised as he thought over his never-to-be-answered questionnaire, until it clicked. boob bee. when it did, his features softened, and his eyes rolled. “you’re so fucking dumb.”

nerve endings in his hands shot off, desire to reach out and grab her, but instead, eye for an eye. his tongue clicked off the roof of his mouth, then he shimmied further down the bed, so his hips were flatter. as often as he could with her tit half out, andy kept his vision on her face, wanting to gauge her reaction. andy flung his shirt up towards himself, one of their matching pairs on display first, then opened his already loosened belt, and with his thumb, hooked and pushed down his jeans on his left side, just enough to expose his hip, and the word newly inked onto it. one breath, two, then, “now get the fuck over here.”

The thought process behind getting the tattoo was a very simple one. Chunhwa was allowed to get them within reason, nothing that would stand out too much, nothing that would be too difficult to hide with make up or under her clothes. She knew she was lucky she had that permission in the first place, that other idols weren’t allowed to do so much as that, and lately she had been wanting to utilize that as much as possible. The piercing was a stretch though. Chunhwa got it knowing that Dimensions would be on her ass for it, ass it wasn’t something that could be easily hidden depending on the outfit, and that wasn’t the image she was supposed to have. With the piercing in place, she decided that the tattoo had to be something tiny, something that was mostly for herself and, well, Andy. And whoever they fucked together, but she didn’t care about what they thought. She only cared about Andy’s opinion. 

So as much as he called her dumb, Chunhwa knew him too well not to notice the shift in his face, the slight softening, the fondness in his eyes that Chunhwa wasn’t sure Andy was even aware he threw her way at times. Her smile widened, letting out a chuckle at his words, amused at this reaction that she was already expecting. “Made you laugh, though,” which was what mattered the most to her, wasn’t it? She let the shirt fall, covering the tattoo once more, as she watched him wiggle out of his jeans a bit and show her the tattoo he got. It was Chunhwa’s time to grow fond of her boyfriend. Very little filled her with as much satisfaction as seeing Andy proud of something he had done, or at the very least happy enough about it to ink it on his skin. 

idol life & career meme (accepting)

1. what is your favorite single you’ve released?

“I think the obvious answer for me here would be something from the nightmare realm concept, wouldn’t it? But actually I really like Fingertip. I like the retro vibes of it, and I like that it’s still very normal realm without having to pander to a super innocent concept. If I had to pick one from the nightmare realm though I’d say You and I. I love the song and the choreography the most out of everything we’ve released so far.”

famedkrp idol life & career meme

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time: late afternoon, July 11th summary: alice wants to share birthday treats. for: you?

alice was exceptionally excited. it was her birthday, after all! she’d spent the majority of the day at a fansign, which she’d enjoyed immensely, but it was nothing compared to the sheer joy of hitting several bakeries in search of the perfect birthday treat. there were many strong contenders outside the cake family, but if she went by tradition, it had to be some sort of cake, right? she thought so, at least.

so one, two, eight, twelve stops later, her tiny frame could be seen lugging as many bags as stops she’d made, a dozen cakes there for the tasting. spotting a familiar face in the street, alice approached with a smile. “hi! do you wanna taste test cakes with me? i’m trying to find the best birthday treat in seoul!” the explained enthusiastically. she didn’t really want to be alone today, after all, but she couldn’t justify a visit to her family. 

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As a rule, Chunhwa didn’t keep track of her members’ birthdays. She could add to a calendar, sure, but usually someone who wasn’t her would congratulate whoever had their birthday before her and Chunhwa would just follow suit. Plus in her head she thought if she couldn’t remember one of their birthdays she might as well not remember any, you know. In case that inevitably made someone upset with her or something. She was sure Jaein kept all their birthdays written down in her journal or a calendar… Surely. And that was enough by her. 

love whisper was nothing new to lucid’s discography. if anything, she thinks the song blends in very well with their current releases which is what dimensions was most likely going for. the less positive response they’ve gotten from fingertip as well as their nightmare realm releases must have rung a bell in their heads because love whisper was a mash up of everything they’ve let out. it’s like if me gustas tu and glass bead had a baby or something. jaein doesn’t dislike the song, but she expected the positive charting as well as the criticism about how all their songs were blending together. but whatever sells, sells. right? 

she’s in the middle of returning waves and giving smiles to the crowd of fans as she waits for her turn in the fansign when she can feel chunhwa’s presence getting closer to her. jaein leans in to hear what she has to say, focusing her eyes towards the direction of the two men that chunhwa was talking about. unfortunately, she was aware of who they were and their behavior when it came to her member. “i thought so too,” she responds before looking behind her shoulder in hopes to find one of their managers. her search ends without much luck and she tries her best not to let out a groan. “i’ll let our fan manager know when he comes behind me. he’ll usher them past as quickly as he can,” she says with hopes that it’s assuring enough for chunhwa. “just smile and wave.” it’s terrible advice, but it’s all she can give at the moment with how many fans they’re sitting in front of.

The sentence Chunhwa has been forced to internalize the most in the past three years since she’s been an idol is it’s part of the job. Whenever she voices a complaint, there’s always a tiny voice in the back of her head reminding her that it’s just part of the job. The shoes that don’t fit and force her to either dance with too big or too small shoes? Part of the job. The diets that make sense to absolutely no one? Part of the job. The outfits that are always a mix between showing too little and too much? Part of the job. Much older men who think they are entitled to your attention and will go the extra mile to make sure you always acknowledge them no matter how uncomfortable you are? Part of the job. And listen, Chunhwa is not here to judge anyone for liking what they like. But she’s still allowed to not be particularly happy about a couple of forty year old guys who will go around and try to get into every single event Lucid has just to speak to her.