Vee🌻

I get out of bed because I don't have an option, I exercise because if i don't my brain will be against me double, I work, come back home , watch to block out my thoughts, I put away my phone.... spiral in my thoughts,shed a tear or two then sleep.

Cycle.

God isn't my time up yet?

It's my 2 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Writing random thoughts, reading back for nostalgia, I have lived, loved, cried, laughed through tumblr. I like the fact that no one knows me, it's just me and a few random strangers who interact with my posts once in a while.

My Faith that God has something great planned for me keeps me going.

I was falling in love with you, (I'm still stuck in that state, my brain can't let go of what I had imagined; how would turn out to be) and I felt like you were just you and I didn't really know you but it also felt like I did. I can't really explain it, but anyways after that night you kissed me in the morning twice!! I was so on top of the moon but with what had happened the previous night my own worries lingered and that's why I went back to my place. I had promised myself my next person... is gonna be with someone I'm serious with, so I had to have a check in with myself. Then we didn't talk about it, you never called not once and your check ins were brief almost in passing. And that's when I knew you were serious about wanting a casual thing and I was the one over in my head thinking this could be something serious yk.

These are my unsaid words in its truest and honest form. All in all maybe one day I'll look back at our "almost" story and not feel how I feel right now, (hurt, confused, I'm not it, or I'm not gonna find love, too much, too little).