(( AUGUSTUS ))

I hate my body. Not in an insecure way but I FUCKING HATE IT

CHRONIC NAUSEA

REALLY EASY ACID REFLUX

SO MUCH EXCESS STOMACH ACID

Vomiting is my worst fear and I always feel like I'm gonna vom but I never do. My own body is taunting and torturing me

God it gets worse everyday too!! Maybe it's bcuz I have trouble remembering to take my. Meds. Maybe it's cuz of what I eat. Or maybe I'm just got really bad karma and this is punishment for something

But I just wanna end it one way or another cuz this is genuine torture that my ownbody is putting me through.

Chronic nausea + emetophobia isn't a good combo.

I'd say I wanna die and that's true but I don't wanna worry anyones

My only wish is for this to be fucking. Gone and I can LIVE A NORMAL LIFE AND I CAN GO TO SCHOOL AND FEEL OKAY FOR JUST ONE FUCKING DAY

Also almost got an ed twice cuz of it!! And I ALSO drink an unhealthy amount of sprite to even slightly sooth it!

Can someone js please kill me I'm too scared to do it myself

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🌹  This little British boy is all about doing things in the right place at the right time, but his reaction also depends on his mood and other outliers. Riddle does enjoy it when you give him physical affection and stick close to him, it makes him feel desired and cared for, however, if you do it too often, he'll feel suffocated. As for flirting… I don't think it matters what time you do it, he won’t take it too well. Riddle feels like flirting is very private and depends on the circumstances; plus, he gets embarrassed in intimate situations due to his love-lacking childhood. However, he does like to feel handsome and desirable to you so he won't complain too much; if you're doing it in front of others or in an inappropriate setting, prepare to have a collar around your neck.

🌹  Remember the collar? You're getting collared, but he's channeling his anger in a non-violent way, right? The only way I believe Riddle would snap at you is if you continuously forgot (or ignored) his warnings and reminders about your behavior and how he feels about it. Keep in mind that he considers three times to be continuous. There will be a lot of yelling, his face will resemble a tomato, and you will certainly cry. While he's not as quick to anger as before he overblotted, he still has a pretty short temper and can hold a grudge for quite a long time, so I hope that collar is comfortable. Riddle will eventually remove it, but while he's avoiding you out of disappointment in himself, it won’t be at the top of the list of things to address. And yes, he will run to his therapi– I mean, Trey, for help to fix all of this.

🌹  Riddle… has never been all that good at apologies or accepting that he's in the wrong in the first place, so it'll take him a while to work up the courage and the maturity to apologize to you. He'd probably go and get you from your dorm and drag you off to his own to sit down for tea and awkwardly beat around the bush for a while. But, if you're silent for long enough, he'll push his pride aside and admit he was wrong with how he went about reacting as well as explaining why exactly he got so upset with you. Riddle will set clear boundaries after apologizing for his behavior and will explain the reasons why your actions were unacceptable to him. While he would prefer that you forgive him, he makes it clear that you don't have to and that he needs to work on expressing his irritation in a less harmful way to benefit both of you.

🌹  After sitting down for tea and discussing your insecurity, Riddle would be both incredibly supportive of you and somewhat disappointed that you don't trust that he loves you enough to think you're worthy of him. It breaks his heart that he subconsciously made you feel like you had to act out the way you did. Riddle makes sure to establish that he loves you as you are, insecurity and all. He sets aside time for you two to spend time together and lets you indulge in giving him as much physical affection as you want.

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“Don't pretend to be someone you're not; I like you jus’ as you are when you're yourself. If you want to touch me that's fine; jus’-! jus' do it in a private place... alright, My Rose?”  

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🦁  Leona does not like being clung to or touched often. He prefers it if he's the one to initiate physical contact and affection, it helps him feel more in control. Most times, he doesn't even touch you and only hangs out nearby (which could be inches away to just in the same general vicinity); he just prefers it that way. So, clinging to him, at all really, is a surefire way to piss him off, since he doesn't like the feeling of being restricted or weighted down; especially when he's just waking up, it makes him feel like he's suffocating. Flirting, on the other hand, is sort of a love language in itself for Leona; although his flirting is more on the low-energy side. Since he wants to make his partner feel desired by him he's bad at thinking of gifts and date locations and is too lazy to do acts of service, words of affirmation are his go-to. He doesn't like to do it too often though, or it doesn't feel as meaningful and genuine as he means it to sound.

🦁  Yikes. If he snapped at you… honestly, didn't you deserve it? You must be blind not to notice his discomfort with your actions which he voiced to you a few times. But, hey, maybe you didn't notice; some people can't read the room or other people well, and I don't blame you for that, because I can't either. As a feline, Leona values personal space and control more than most things, and your clinging to him will piss him off quickly. He can usually keep his mood in check, but all it takes is one bad day and you do that will 100% end in him taking all his pent-up irritation out on you. He'll most likely say some hurtful stuff in his fit of anger and won't see you for a few days. Leona might even ban you from his dorm for those few days if he's pissed enough; he doesn't want to feel like the bad guy, so he won't acknowledge that he is for a bit.

🦁  Honestly? Leona is the type of person who gets over stuff after a few hours to a few days and expects you to do the same. If you don't and you bring it up again, he'll likely hit you with the ‘That was so long ago and you aren't over it yet?’. However, he'll get it into his head that he may have seriously hurt your feelings if he sees any drastic changes in your behavior. Things like avoiding him, not speaking to him, cowering away from him, flinching, ending the conversation when you see him nearby, and leaving the room after he enters. But what gets Leona bad, is if he sees that he made you cry. When I tell you that this man will be on his knees after seeing just the reddening of your eyes I'm not joking. He didn't think he upset you that bad before but now, he's groveling for your forgiveness, because he knows that you're the only person that's willing to put up with his shit on top of loving you more than the air he breathes each day.

🦁  Leona will treat you like royalty after he apologizes, explaining that while he doesn't like being touched he'll indulge you now and then because he knows you just want to show him how much you love him. He'll also do his best to dispel all of your insecurities and remind you that it's not you that doesn't deserve him, but him that doesn't deserve you. Although Leona isn't the best person in Twisted Wonderland, he'll try his best for you.

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“HEY- GET OFF! –Oh shit, no no no, I didn’t mean to make ya cry. M’sorry, I just got startled ‘n’ today has been shit, so I took it out on ya in the end. Nakupenda, Wangu*; ya know that doncha?”  

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🐙  This one's hard… while I want to say that Azul would greatly appreciate your affection toward him and his body; we also have to take into account his issues with his self-image. Going by that– I don't think that he would like it if you touched him very often. The problem wouldn't be that he's uncomfortable, embarrassed, or annoyed, but that he doesn't want you to touch him and then feel disgusted with how his body is shaped. Like you're insecure about whether you're worthy of him, he's insecure about if he's worthy of you. The flirting, though, he wouldn't mind too much. Azul loves your praise, as it means that you find him attractive enough to talk to him that way. This poor man has such serious body issues that it's ridiculous, so if you flirt with him too often, he won't think it's genuine anymore and that you're making fun of him.

🐙  With Azul it's probably just a spur-of-the-moment outburst mixed with his stress and insecurity type of thing. In absolutely no way did he mean to direct this outburst at you, you just happened to be the straw that broke the camel's back, and like a shell on the beach, all his reason was swept away by the tide. He's the kind of guy who bottles all of his stress and grievances and your actions happened to make him reach his breaking point and everything just came out all at once. Azul likely just yelled at you to leave him be and get out of his office; fleeing to his octopot in regretful tears once you left the room and not coming out for days until he could get himself together again. He had to be coaxed into eating by Jade and Floyd due to how bad he felt for blowing up on you.

🐙  This man is distraught; he is beside himself with grief, regret, and shame. It takes all of Azul's willpower and the somewhat aggressive coaxing of the tweels (mostly Floyd threatening to bite off one of his tentacles and send it to you as an apology gift) to get him to finally leave the safety and comfort of his octopot and go to knock on your door. As soon as that door opens, he goes full-on into apologizing profusely and explaining that while what you did irritated him a bit he in no way meant to direct all of his pent-up stress toward you and that your actions just happened to open the floodgates for him. Azul would be in tears by the time he finished speaking, praying that you wouldn't leave him because of this incident. If you forgive him, he cries in relief and if you don't, although he's sad, he understands and promises that he'll do everything in his power to win back your trust in him and make sure that this never happens again.

🐙  Azul will explain to you about his insecurity with his body and his fear of making you dislike him and his appearance. However, once he hears about your insecurities, he's kind of shocked; he was so caught up in his own self-loathing that he didn't even notice yours! Be assured that Jade locked you both in his office and didn't let you both out until you worked out a plan to condole the both of you of your worth to each other. You and Azul had fallen asleep in each other's arms by the time Floyd remembered that you were being held captive in there and opened the door. He took blackmail photos.

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“Øjesten*, I… I apologize for my outburst; I'm just- I don’t like- ahem… ah… I have no excuse. You know how I feel about my appearance, I just didn’t want you to be disgusted with me. I’m sorry.”  

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👑  Vil lives for being appreciated. Whether it's through actions, words, objects, services, or just being admired; he loves it! However… there is such a thing as too much of a good thing. He loves you, but damn, he barely had any time to himself before getting with you, but now? It's not that he won't make time for you, he definitely tries, but he just has so much on his plate all the time. With managing his beauty routine, the dorm and its students, school work, modeling, singing, acting, keeping up his media appearances, and his one-sided rivalry with Neige, this man is BUSY. And that's not even mentioning the overblots that keep popping up out of nowhere; sorry hun, you're just going to have to squeeze in when you can or be okay with stopping yourself at just being near him as a way of spending time until he can fix his schedule. On the subject of flirting, though… yeah, don't even bother, but at the same time, yes, compliment him. Vil, being himself, has heard pretty much every compliment, praise, and risqué remark under the sun; you need to be very creative, or he'll probably just roll his eyes at you. If you do it too often, he'll get annoyed and probably ask if you have something better to do.

👑  Okay— I’m just going to cut this off right here- Vil is the type of person to set his boundaries with you immediately, so, at the very start of the relationship, you would know what to do and what not to do. However, if you end up doing it anyway (which would likely just be you forgetting about it or you're so stressed that it left your mind momentarily), there lies the problem.  If you did it after Vil already initially told you he didn’t like it the first time, he would just stop you, explain why he doesn’t want you to do it, and ask you to remember it for next time. Another thing- this man is a confident king (after his overblot), so he can smell your insecurity from a mile away. It will be addressed by him PERIOD. There is no way out of it- it WILL happen, I'm sorry. Either your insecurity will be gone quickly or your relationship will; it's one or the other, I implore you to just cooperate with him. Vil isn’t playing these games with you right now.

👑  I mentioned it earlier, but Vil will sit you down and address your insecurity with him; he's not the type of person to just let this issue go unsolved. Given his insecurity, however, he'll be very understanding of how you feel. The feeling of being less than others is something that Vil is familiar with, so he’ll do everything in his power to make you feel better about yourself.

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“I’ll make this clear, Mein schönste Liebe*, there’s no need for this little show you’re putting on. I don’t have a lot of patience, so quickly, tell me what the problem is so that I can fix it.”  

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🪲  You're giving him more affection than usual? Sign Kalim the hell up! He loves it when you hold onto him and give him physical affection! Do you want to sit on his lap? Sure! Do you want to hang off his arm or wrap your own around his waist? Okay! Kisses and hugs? Absolutely! As for flirting, I don't think that he is too innocent to understand what you mean, but that he doesn't get it until five minutes to an hour later. A lot of times, Kalim will suddenly realize what you meant when the conversation subject has already shifted to a completely different topic. However, he has no issues with it, since he believes that flirting is just an extension of complimenting him; it's just worded in a more risqué way.

🪲  I’m going to be completely honest with you here, this boy is too kind and non-confrontational to snap at you at all, so it just wouldn't happen. If he did have an issue with your behavior he’d most likely just sit you down and explain what exactly he needed you to change and why. Kalim will leave no room for misunderstandings at all, so there would be no way to hurt feelings on either side. The only person who would possibly be upset in the situation is probably you, but that would only be because you have to find another way to cope with your unspoken insecurity. Kalim isn't the brash type, so I can’t see him losing his temper with you at any point unless you committed a heinous action or something.

🪲  Kalim would probably still apologize even if all he did was explain some things to you, he’s a person who’s very in tune with other people’s feelings, so he’d make sure that your relationship was still good after everything. He’d bring you to his room and cuddle you on his huge plush bed, covered in the smoothest blankets and softest pillows, letting you touch, feel, and compliment him all you want- but only if you let him do the same to you. Probably also ask Jamil (poor Jamil, give him a vacation) to make you both some snacks or something, Kalim won't let his baby be hungry.

🪲  You will not be forced to talk about your insecurity, but Kalim will heavily encourage it for the sake of your mental health and the stability of trust in your relationship. He wants to wait until you're comfortable enough, but he also doesn't want to wait for too long in case there's a repeat of this incident. There's also now a big concern in his heart that he made you feel like you couldn't be yourself or made you feel like you aren't enough at some point. It will eat Kalim up inside, so he'll become overly indulgent with you for some time until you sit him down and talk about it. He just doesn't want you to feel like he's being neglectful of your emotions and well-being again.

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“Aiyah, Rohi*, I wasn’t trying to be mean, I promise. I love you so so so much; but sometimes, even a guy like me needs a little alone time, that’s all. I would never dislike you for such a small thing.”  

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💀  Eh… Idia is a very very insecure guy, but he's also incredibly antisocial and is used to being all by his lonesome besides his little brother. He likes his personal space a whole lot more than he realizes, so, to be truthful, the clinginess isn't something that will sit well with him after he has experienced it one too many times. It's mostly because it'll happen at times when he's preoccupied with something that requires a lot of his attention; like gaming, watching anime, or reading manga/lite novels, and he gets irritable when he's interrupted. On the side of excessive flirting, however, he'll dislike it not just because he thinks you aren't being genuine; but also because the topic makes him uncomfortable. As mentioned already, Idia is not a social person, thus being on the receiving end of something like that is way out of his comfort zone. Doing it excessively will only make him even more uncomfortable, as he thinks that you don't care about his feelings on the matter when it's obvious he dislikes it.

💀  Idia is a quiet, shy, and non-confrontational guy, however, his annoyance can quickly overpower all of that if it builds long enough. Once he's reached the end of his patience, he doesn't bother to be careful and think about what he says. It's most likely that instead of targeting your appearance or status, he'll go for the things that you're most sensitive about. Keep in mind that during all of this, he's absent-minded; his mind doesn't register exactly who he's talking to and what he's saying before he opens his mouth while his eyes continue to stare at whatever he is doing on his monitor setup beforehand. However, once Idia realizes just what he said to you he's in absolute shock at himself; yes, he'd expect himself to behave that way to other people, but to you? He would never do it intentionally… Honestly, though, he'd be more upset that you aren't comfortable enough to act like yourself around him than anything else.

💀  Similar to Azul, Idia regrets his words immediately; he beats himself up about it as well. How the hell did those sparky comments he had in his head slip through his lips? He thought he had more self-control than that! Seriously though, the first thing he does after he realizes that he said all of that outlook is call you. When and if you don't pick up, he sends you a few texts apologizing straightforwardly and explaining that he was upset about a lot of things and took it out as well as the fact that he's on his way to your dorm to speak with you in person. Once Idia's at your door and when and if you open up, he'll hug you and profusely apologize, likely putting himself down as well so that he can hurt himself as he did you. It's up to you if you want to stop him, but just know that the self-depreciation with continue to ratchet up in severity as time goes on; his insecurity and self-doubt will be on full display to you to let you know that you can show him too.

💀  You know how Idia does online classes or stays in his dorm and uses his tablet instead? You can do that too! The both of you can attend class remotely and cuddle while you do your class work or listen to lectures. He can lay his head in your lap while he's watching anime or reading his novels and he can sit you in his lap while he's gaming. Surprisingly though, Idia even suggests going out and visiting cat cafes together or going to a secluded place outside and listening to an audiobook. He's willing to change up his routine and step out of his comfort zone to make sure you know how much he loves you. He would do anything for you– well… almost anything, just give him a bit more time to work up the willpower.

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“I… You know that I know what It's like to feel… like you're not enough. You don't– Y‐you know you don't have to pretend with me right? You can just be yourself when it's the two of us, P-psychí Mou*.”  

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🐲  It depends on the place, the amount of people nearby who those people are, and his mood. As you know Malleus craves to be included, acknowledged, seen, and just to be given affection. This man is touch-starved to the max– but… he is still the prince of Briar Valley and must display a certain appearance to those who aren't close to or familiar with him. He'll allow small displays of affection out of the cover of his or your dorm room; things like holding hands, holding onto his forearm as you walk, briskly kissing each other's hands or cheeks, laying your heads on the other's shoulder, and other small but loving gestures. As long as you keep the more intimate actions away from prying eyes it's fine. As for flirting, Malleus also doesn't mind, but the same rules still apply. So long as you don't repeatedly show too much to those he doesn't wish to show your relationship to, he's happy as a dragon swimming in gold.

🐲  Malleus isn't the type of guy to snap at others, he confronts conflicts head-on if they pose an issue. However, if you do irritate him enough, he'll likely tell you that the both of you will have to take some time apart while he thinks about your relationship and what it means to the both of you. For him, crossing the boundaries that he has set is a violation of trust, respect, and understanding, and he needs to evaluate whether or not you're taking his thoughts, opinions, and feelings seriously. During your break, Malleus will avoid you, he'll greet you in the halls with a nod and carry on, there will be hardly a drop of affection from him until he's thought. He loves you, but for him, relationships are a very serious thing, and if you aren't respecting his boundaries, does he want to stay in a relationship with you?

🐲  He's not apologizing as there was no real wrongdoing on his part. However, if you felt hurt by his actions, he would calmly sit you down and carefully explain why he did them and follow that up by telling you that he felt hurt by your actions and he expects an explanation from you as well. Malleus is a patient and forgiving man, his life will stretch on for centuries and you and the relationship that the both of you have is a small but unforgettable part of that life. He doesn't want memories of a relationship with poor trust and communication between the participating parties; it just isn't worth it for him. Once you and Malleus have everything laid out on the table, he'll ask you to make sure to remember what he told you and that if you ever feel insecure in the future, simply talk with him and he'll talk you through it.

🐲  After you're very civil and diplomatic discussion of the ins and outs of your relationship, Malleus writes up a plan for the both of you. He lists the things that you both aren't comfortable with as well as things that you require and reworks his and your daily schedule around it. He does address your insecurity though, apologizing for making you feel like you aren't enough for him and making you feel like your relationship isn't important. Malleus loves you very deeply, and he wants to make sure that the two of you stay together in a happy relationship for as long as possible. He wants you to be a part of his family for as long as you love him, so he'll compromise as much as he needs to.

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“I have made you feel as though you cannot be your true self at some point in our union and that won't do at all. You are Mon Raison D'être, without you, I do not have the will to carry on, I beg for your forgiveness.”  

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❝𝕴'𝖒 𝖘𝖚𝖕𝖊𝖗 𝖘𝖍𝖞, 𝖘𝖚𝖕𝖊𝖗 𝖘𝖍𝖞-- 𝕭𝖚𝖙 𝖜𝖆𝖎𝖙 𝖆 𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖚𝖙𝖊 𝖜𝖍𝖎𝖑𝖊 𝕴 𝖒𝖆𝖐𝖊 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖊, 𝖒𝖆𝖐𝖊 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖊-- 떨리는 지금도 𝖞𝖔𝖚'𝖗𝖊 𝖔𝖓 𝖒𝖞 𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖉 𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖙𝖎𝖒𝖊-- 𝕴 𝖜𝖆𝖓𝖓𝖆 𝖙𝖊𝖑𝖑 𝖞𝖔𝖚, 𝖇𝖚𝖙 𝕴'𝖒 𝖘𝖚𝖕𝖊𝖗 𝖘𝖍𝖞, 𝖘𝖚𝖕𝖊𝖗 𝖘𝖍𝖞~❞

 *¹ ‘Nakupenda, Wangu’ translates from Swahili to mean ‘I love you, Mine’ with ‘Mine’ being a possessive term of endearment usually accompanying a sentence like ‘I love you’, though it can be used by itself.

*² ‘Øjesten’ roughly translates from old-fashioned Danish to mean ‘The apple of my eye’.

*³ ‘Mein schönste Liebe’ translates from German to mean ‘My Most Beautiful Love’, though if you took off the last word, ‘My Most Beautiful’ can still stand on its own as a term of endearment.

*⁴ ‘Rohi’ translates from Arabic to mean ‘My Soul Mate’; calling someone ‘Rohi’ means that you love them longer than your life as they are your soulmate.

*⁵ ‘Psychí mou’ translates from Greek to mean ‘My Soul’’

*⁶ ‘Ma Raison D’être’ translates from French to mean ‘My Reason for Being’ which is usually used only to express the deepest love and passion.

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━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ You met Silver when you were both sixteen right as summer break began. He had just completed his first year at NRC and was returning to Briar Valley for the holidays

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Silver wandered through the forest that day, basket in hand as he gathered herbs for tea. It was peaceful, soft humming leaving his lips, birds perched comfortably on his shoulders, squirrels trotting behind his boots, and even the breeze seemed to carry the sound of his voice

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ You were riding through the woods on your horse Samson, loyal and a little dramatic when you heard it Silver’s voice Soft, dreamy, drifting between the trees like sunlight through stained glass. You felt it tug at your chest instantly. “I know that voice…” you murmured, leaning down and patting your mount’s neck. “Hup boy!”

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Your horse, eager to please (and maybe hungry for the oats and carrots you promised), bolted forward, weaving between branches. Too fast. Way too fast

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ You yelped as your horse jumped over a branch, which sent you straight into a shallow creek with an undignified splash. Your cape flew off, your boots sank into the mud, and your hat bounced downstream. Your horse sniffed at you apologetically as you swiped water at the horse who took off your hat. “…No carrots” you muttered

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Your cape and hat were laid over a branch to dry, your head resting against the tree as you pulled off your boots, chatting lazily to Samson. The horse flicked his tail, listening right until he suddenly neighed. You glanced up just in time to see an owl, a red and blue bird, a squirrel, and a few rabbits dart forward and snatch your drying things

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ You hurried after them, pushing your way through a curtain of flowers. When you finally reached a small clearing, you stopped short. The owl stood proudly on a stump wearing your cape and hat with your boot propped up by the other animals like it was a royal accessory and just a few steps away, Silver was watching, a soft laugh in his voice as he swayed gently, birds perched on his shoulders as he began to sing “I know you… I walked with you once upon a dream.” Your eyes drifted toward him, a quiet sparkle forming in your own

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Samson stared at you knowingly as you lit up at the sound of Silver’s voice. You stepped closer, slipping naturally into the rhythm of his movements, laughing softly as you spoke. “Sorry- I didn’t mean to frighten you.” Silver blinked, a faint flush on his cheeks. “N–No, you didn’t. It’s just… you’re a stranger.” You couldn’t help teasing, “But we’ve met.” He stared, tiredness vanishing from his eyes. “When?” “Well,” you said with a grin, “like you said once upon a dream.” A breathy laugh left him, warm and light, and the two of you kept dancing as you continued to sing together, lost in the magic of the moment

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ You and Silver start seeing each other constantly after the first meeting even when he went back to NRC ━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ It’s never planned but somehow every time you’re in the woods when its summer break, Silver is there too gathering herbs, feeding animals, or napping in a sunlit patch of grass he accidentally” chose right beside your usual path. He insists it’s coincidence the forest animals know better and so does Lilia

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ You and Silver start texting almost every day, slipping into an easy rhythm that neither of you expected. He tells you stories about NRC about his classmates, his dorm, Malleus’s magical mishaps, Sebek’s volume, Lilia’s cooking “experiments.” And you listen, smiling at your screen every time his messages come in that’s when it comes out

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ You don’t go to NRC. You go to RSA. Of course you do It makes perfect sense the princely charm, the polite upbringing, the steady confidence. RSA practically begged you to attend but the distance? the different schools? that doesn’t stop Silver at all

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ He still texts you good morning, still sends pictures of wandering animals who remind him of you, till falls asleep mid-conversation only to apologize with a flustered paragraph the next day, and when you tell him about RSA life your classes, your professors, the bright halls and the constant singing Silver listens so intently you swear he could draw your entire campus by memory

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ To him, it doesn’t matter that you wear RSA colors instead of NRC’s It doesn’t matter that your friends, uniforms, and surroundings are different. He still enjoys your company just the same more than the same if anything, he likes you even more

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Once Silver starts to fall for you, his affection comes quietly like petals settling on water. He’s not the type to shower you in constant compliments, but his devotion shows in the way he looks at you

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ His auroral eyes get softer around you, even when he tries to hide it behind his neutral expression. Silver is protective without being overbearing he walks closest to the thorny side of the path, he offers his cloak when the wind bites, and he wordlessly brushes leaves from your cape before you notice they’re even there

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ He doesn’t need grand gestures. Simply sitting beside you as birds land on his shoulders and Samson snorts jealously is enough for him. You bring him a sense of peace he didn’t know he was missing

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Lilia watches all of this with an amused, knowing smirk. He’s long suspected Silver has found someone special after all, his son’s “just a friend” is the one he always hurries to visit whenever he returns to Briar Valley for the summer, and the one he messages far more often than anyone else

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Lilia could tease him, could pry, could interrupt… but he doesn’t. There’s something gentle and precious about seeing Silver’s tired smile soften even at NRC, and Lilia would never ruin that for the world

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Malleus is… fascinated by you. A noble person from another kingdom who rides a horse named Samson? who seems to have drawn the attention of his guard (and close younger brother) Of course you catch the prince’s attention

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ He watches how Silver acts around you how his guard lowers, how his smile softens, how he never falls asleep when you’re speaking and he’s genuinely happy “You bring tranquility to Silver. That alone earns my respect,” he said that completely jump scaring you as you grip onto the closest thing shaking at how the prince of Briar Valley is staring down at you...

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Yeah... Silver hasn't told you yet how he was close to the prince of Briar Valley, and that the ex-general is his own father... all in due time of course

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ They all tease Silver relentlessly except Malleus he just observes and smiles knowingly. Whenever Silver comes back from seeing you? they'd go after him instantly “Ah. He glows.” “Indeed.” "SILVER! How dare you leave-” "Sebek" "Yes!" "Let Silver have his moment"

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Dancing becomes your thing your shared language. Whenever the two of you wander into a clearing touched by sunlight, Silver will extend his hand and murmur, “May I have this dance?” Even if he’s sleepy, even if he’s swaying a little, he never denies you

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ He loves the way you guide him, the way your steps match like you’ve both rehearsed in dreams. Silver isn’t a natural dancer, but with you, he never steps wrong. Sometimes he falls asleep mid-waltz, head resting on your shoulder, and you have to gently guide him away from colliding with a tree. He always wakes up red-eared and apologetic, and you always laugh and pull him back into the dance like nothing happened

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Silver loves listening to you talk about your kingdom, your training, your dreams even the small things like what pastries you miss from home. Something in him aches with the desire to protect those dreams. You, in return, become someone who grounds him

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ When he gets frustrated with his tendency to fall asleep or doubts his worth as a knight, you remind him of the strength he shows every day his loyalty, his heart, his willingness to keep trying even when he stumbles. You’re the first person outside of Lilia and Malleus whom Silver lets himself be vulnerable with, and he trusts you deeply for it

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Your 'hangouts' would consist of strolling through forests where the animals insist on following you. Sharing tea, Silver brewed himself, sometimes bitter, sometimes perfect depending on whether he nodded off mid-steep

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 Reading together under a willow tree. Quietly holding hands while Silver rambles about knightly training or asks about sword techniques you learned back home. You introduce him to your world of chivalry and charm, and he introduces you to the quiet warmth of Diasomnia’s family. Even Sebek tolerates you eventually, especially after witnessing you carry Silver, bridal-style, when he fell asleep mid-walk and nearly toppled into a pond though you told him to be silent about your existence, which Sebek surprisingly agreed to taking Silver from your hands as you left back into the forest to find samson

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Silver is shy with physical affection at first, but with time, he grows bolder after trying to start courting you. He kisses you gently, reverently, like you're something sacred never hurried, always soft. He loves kissing your knuckles before a dance, the corner of your mouth after you tease him, your forehead when he wakes up from unexpectedly dozing on your shoulder. And when you kiss him first? His entire face turns pink, his eyes flutter, and he often falls asleep immediately after from sheer emotional overload. You find it adorable

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ In many ways, Silver sees you as his “once upon a dream” come true someone brave, kind, gentle yet fearlessly spirited. You pull him toward adventure he anchors you in serenity

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ Together you create a romance straight from a storybook dancing in the forest, whispering promises under moonlight, sharing sleepy kisses after long days

━━━ ．°˖✧ 💤🛌🏼 ˚₊ ⊹ He may be a sleeping beauty to you. But you’re his 'prince' from what Lilia calls you (male/female/non-binary), his partner, his guiding warmth and Silver falls deeper for you every day slowly, sweetly, like drifting into a dream he never wants to wake from

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