🍒🧬 Tachyon / Fish 🧬🍒

I should do an intro post probs. I’ll just c+p from my nekoweb

I'm not terribly good at talking about myself buuuuut, I'll try. My name is Tachyon, Fish, Sam, Sammie... wtvr else, call me what you will, I'm an artist first and foremost, might be what you know me from, might be my theories/studies. I'm very analitical and studious so, it could be the later. I'm studying primarily psychology, some art, take Spanish classes. Big on wolves, but that's obvious. I'm a girlfailure, loser, wolfkin dyke (proudly that is). Although I will say, in recent years I've started shedding the loser label? idk. ppl like me recently, and I like them. I'm a bit obsessive, very lovey-dovey to those I adore, upfront about if you piss me off so don't even stress it. I'm not mad at you, I'm probably just being depressing on my own or distracted while texting. Snip at me if I do smth wrong, but be smart and know I can't read minds so literally just tell me.

Having had persistent depression and working towards a psychology based degree, primarily on the treatment of debilitating disorders and disabilities, here is my advice. Take it, leave it, if it doesn't work, it doesn't work, I'm not your therapist.

Stream the music you enjoy moving your body to more, you're already struggling to move I assume, that's your dopamine. You're not "too woke" for being upset by something, but also remember some things are just... worth not paying mind to. You can't fix what internetuser35702 said or some bad take on the internet. Blocking helps a lot more than fighting or calling out to your mental health. You're not a bad person for not subjecting yourself to highly distressing things. Stop caring so much what ppl think, they don't actually. Notoriously they do not. I know, easier said than done. But it's essentially a muscle you gotta train. Do something everyday that scares you. Put on the skirt, the new make up, compliment a stranger (don't know what or who to compliment? Walk around, if anyone grabs your attention for longer than usual, compliment them on the thing. Especially if it's smth you like too), strike up a conversation, ask for their number, buy a new drink at the cafe. It doesn't need to be traumatizing scary, but try to teach your body to trust this anxiety enough to function. People irl care far less than they do online. Online gives people a mask to hide behind, makes them cruel and bolder. Literally touch grass and leave the house, it'll do wonders. Nature is all around you so study it.

TAKE. UR. DAMN. MEDS. Drink some water you walking raisin. And Tachy loves y'all.

I do not respond to post hate/trolling anons/asks or things meant to stir up drama, sorry to break your fun

Check the site for updates and to see what I’m up to! I update it more often.

Also, here’s my strawpage! A sort of “diet” version of Rawulf, if you send an anon it’s exceptionally likely it will only be posted to twt, so heads up!

The weather is beautiful. Why don’t you take a walk, my dear.

Finally got a painting done for Cable Coils, iiiiits Elnina!

Tornadoes are a big thing in CC, they’re one of the biggest environmental threats and a pretty well sized thematic piece, these tornados jumping the unopened darkness is especially horrifying because they figured that it would stay in just the Cyber City fields and Paleo-Cyber City. But whoops, they’re coming straight for the refugee camps in basically all but TV World

Timelapse below

Does Fish Remember Tumblr Exists?

Digi is the most glamorized version of her, pristine and perfect based on Tenna’s perception

Her personality is comforting and warm although dominant and deeply manipulative

Neo is what Spamton desired the most out of herself, someone confident and in total control and freed of pressures and terror. But once it gains consciousness, it is fueled by that pampering and promises Spamton gave it, but wrecked with grief and despair when it realized all it’ll be is a stepping stone for Spamton so its furious and taking everything further than Spamton ever imagined it could because it’s just aware of its power. And True Spamton is still as normal in the games but now terrified and exhausted as Neo had leeched all of her energy and will

She thought she could control Neo or the situation but everything got worse and worse and she lost more and more power, until she turned into nothing but what she would have used Neo for

Neo REVELS in what all it’s done to the worlds and how the infected worship it

Funnily enough it wouldn’t even have been enough long term for Neo to have the entire world infected, eventually it would have grown bored and anxious as a god

When you have it all, what comes next?

Spamton never wanted to have EVERYTHING she just wanted to have relief and payback for the hell she went through, but she never wanted them to die or anything to the extremes that Neo had gone, but it doesn’t know that

Spamton wanted revenge for her life but accidentally birthed a sentient creature, told it it would be a god of freedom and push all her fantasies onto it, and treated it as a puppet just as she was treated

First seen with Tenna, she exists as a hallucination built off of Tenna's memories and desires. The first thing about her is just how warm and comforting her presence is. How perfect she looks.

Everything about her draws Tenna into this fantasy where they host at the Dreemurrs, where they're still in love, where Spamton can reassure Tenna and keep her happy and comfortable

Digi is a sort of fake persona created by Neo in order to keep Tenna oblivious and happy, she looks like a very pristine version of Spamton in her bigshot era, glamorized based on Tenna's view of her in her memories. Digi is very agreeable and doting, yet in control. She is constantly reassuring Tenna deeper into a mindset of helplessness, obliviousness, and euphoria to keep her from realizing the damages shes doing to everyone The one time the allusion entirely shatters is when she hugs Kris as close as she can, accidentally breaking one of their ribs, their arm, and leaving a deep gash from her claws into their skin. Purely accidentally, unaware of their struggling to get away, unaware even Kris wasn't a very small child that would *need* that total body support and wrapping around them. But that blood on her hand and claws caused Tenna to freeze up because the allusion wasn't able to replace the blood with anything, giving her a small glimpse of reality.

She'd end up letting go, dazed and terrified, giving the crew enough time to escape before she found comfort in Digi's lies and reality twisting and delusions.

Hehhe, funny thing about Digi. Her tail is very specific for a reason. Drongos are birds that mimic other birds to steal for food, True Spamton, the Spamton trapped inside Neo, has a similar tail, but notably *not* a drongos. "They feed on insects and small birds, which they catch in flight or on the ground. Some species are accomplished mimics and have a variety of alarm calls, to which other birds and animals often respond. They are known to utter fake alarm calls that scare other animals off food, which the drongo then claims." -Wikipedia on Drongos as a species