the apostle that fits you—
—if you're bold, if you're uncertain though. if you're needy. peter
—if you're overlooked, if you're fishing for things. if you're in the garden in the night. andrew
—if you're zealous. if you're committed, committing. james greater
—if you're only a kid. if you're lost to love. if your cheeks run with tears. john the beloved
—if you're in carthage. if you're collecting things, collecting others. if you're only into the meaningful. philip
—if you're flirting below fig trees. if you like to not be right. nathanael
—if you're counting, counting, counting. matthew
—if your questions feel bigger, girthier, leakier, than the rest of you. if you never touch, through touch only. thomas
—if you're curious. if you're lost in things. lost to others. thadd
—if you're nationalistic, revolutionist. brash. lost to others, too. simon the zealout
—if you're in love. if there's conflict in the love. if you know the color of your loneliness. judas
—if you're neglecting the fishing. if you're rich in heart. if your big, moony eyes leak on lilac flushed cheeks. miriam of magdala
—if you're neglecting yourself, but you remain in the cross's cross nonetheless. miriam of clopas
—if there's myrhh on your fingers. if you like it like that. joanna
—if you're mothering, rearing, nursing, loving. if you're known through your relations. salome
—you're not her. no one is her. miriam of nazareth
—if you're not on the list but you feel it's right to be. paul of tarsus