KINGS. he barely knows what that means anymore: to be KING, to be a leader. to be royalty. he has slipped so far from those days, and he feels he is only scarcely hanging on to any thread of who he used to be.
( he’s not who he used to be. this, he hasn’t quite come to terms with yet. he will, in time. )
for now, though, all of that is far, far away, and he holds on to her — oh he holds on to her — like she is his most desperate lifeline. she was gone for what feels like eternity, and his sense of resolve is crumbling, crumbling, falling.
asgard is not a place, no. for him, he has found: asgard has been her.
she leans into his touch, and relief he didn’t even know he was hoping for floods into his very bones. and, her words make him laugh, though it’s more an exhalation of something that’s almost wild with relief and wondering how he could be so fortunate all at once. ❛ and thank the gods it is not. ❜ he sounds so desperately vehement.
before he can say anything else, though, her lips are on his and despite the fact they have been been apart for seven long years it all comes flooding back like it was yesterday. to them, seven years is NOTHING. a blink. a hiccup in time in their great eternal lives. and yet, it felt like the longest years he had EVER lived.
❛ i have missed you more than you know. ❜ he kisses her back, levering a foot under him to rise once more, smooth, cloak stirring ‘round them. when it breaks, those odd-eyes match hers, and he leans in and presses his forehead to hers. ❛ i never want to lose you again. ❜ there’s a promise brewing in those words, desperate and unformed and a quiet oath that he’s not even quite sure he knows what means yet, but oh does he mean it.
there is so much to catch up on, so many questions and words that she longs to spill from her tongue but her emotions are far too caught up in the moment to voice any of them. all she longs for is to wrap herself around him, curl into him just as she used to on those cool nights where the breeze found its way through large open windows.
she finds she not only misses him... she misses it all. this life, the world.... ASGARD. the longer the lady is here the more she is merging herself with the reality that she was gone, possibly for YEARS. the dust has settled, the battle is over and now she’s going to have to cope with the aftermath. sif is NOT the warrior goddess that he once knew but the thunderer is also not the same.
a time and place will be suffice enough later to ask where he’d been all this time, it’d be easy to be bitter considering that the betrayal still felt fresh. but his face, the way he prays to her as if she were his own god, and the longing in his voice makes all the worry wash away. the circumstances must have been dire for him not to come for her. THE ONLY EXPLANATION. for she knows that he would if he could have.
his lips on hers make the pain vanish, and it brings a feeling of warmth and comfort back to her. when she stands, sif is reminded of how magnificently tall he is and it causes a breath to catch in her throat. her hand comes hesitantly to press against armored chest, as if he still might disappear. please... please not now. the words he speaks comes from a place in his heart that makes her laugh, but its messy and choked with so much emotion.
oh she wishes she could say that he won’t lose her. but promises as such should not be made. not with what happened. they thought they had time. thought that they could bounce around and be patient and then it exploded in their face. “I waited for you... i waited for so long.” there’s no accusation in her tone. just a statement of how hopeless she was at one point. now may not be the time but if she’s learned anything what if its the ONLY time?