Fenrirs Crown

I really need to get into counseling soon. I can only hope that this is some sort of seasonal depression kind of deal or something. It’s just really weird like I just don’t know exactly know to describe it, but I just know that I shouldn’t be hurting the way that I do. I need someone I can talk to these feelings about so that I don’t feel crazy. I don’t know if that’s the correct way to even put it because I know I’m not crazy for feeling the way that I do, I just know that it’s not right. Things that are affecting me should not be affecting me. I need to get them out and I need to release them. I need to just put down this big bag of stuff that I’ve been dragging around for no reason . I just don’t know why my brain is like this but I know normal people shouldn’t feel this way.

I think it’s finally time to stop waiting for the shoe to drop. I think the walls are finally coming crashing down and it feels great.

Laying down with her and Ellie is literally the best. Hopefully Ellie will eventually want me to actually read the books instead of just looking at the pictures lol I really do like reading. God I’m still so happy she framed a picture of me that’s so awesome. I don’t think anyone’s actually done that besides maybe this girl I dated when I was in high school like sophomore year.. then again I think I was the one to actually frame the picture… either way I’m so excited about it. It seems like things are going well every step of the way here and I’m really grateful for it.