delete tumblr. delete myfitnesspal. delete any and all calorie tracking apps. go into your kitchen. right now. get up and walk into your kitchen. now make a pot of pasta or spaghetti. or make a salad with chicken or a smoothie. or make a few eggs with some potatoes. or heat up the leftovers in the fridge. don’t count it. don’t measure it. don’t look up the calories. then sit down and eat the whole thing. don’t cut it up small, don’t wait until a certain time, don’t stare at it for forever before you eat it. cook it, put it on a plate, and eat it. maybe scroll through instagram or watch a tv show while you eat. like a post on your explore page about loving pizza without thinking of the calories or feeling fat. when you’re done eating, don’t go to the mirror, don’t go to the scale, don’t go to the toilet to throw up. then go on with your life without thinking about what you just ate or when you’ll eat next. now do that every time you first feel hungry every single day for the rest of your life.

if you can do that, fine. i’ll believe you. you’re “faking it”.

every other day i restrict. then the next day i eat like a person with no eating disorder. food doesnt scare me. what scares me is the feeling that im alone like this, even though i know theres few of you who feel exactly like me. maybe some day i will understand what you all are talking about. maybe not. but i know im still valid as a person with an eating disorder, even though its not all linear.

delete tumblr. delete myfitnesspal. delete any and all calorie tracking apps. go into your kitchen. right now. get up and walk into your kitchen. now make a pot of pasta or spaghetti. or make a salad with chicken or a smoothie. or make a few eggs with some potatoes. or heat up the leftovers in the fridge. don’t count it. don’t measure it. don’t look up the calories. then sit down and eat the whole thing. don’t cut it up small, don’t wait until a certain time, don’t stare at it for forever before you eat it. cook it, put it on a plate, and eat it. maybe scroll through instagram or watch a tv show while you eat. like a post on your explore page about loving pizza without thinking of the calories or feeling fat. when you’re done eating, don’t go to the mirror, don’t go to the scale, don’t go to the toilet to throw up. then go on with your life without thinking about what you just ate or when you’ll eat next. now do that every time you first feel hungry every single day for the rest of your life.

if you can do that, fine. i’ll believe you. you’re “faking it”.

every other day i restrict. then the next day i eat like a person with no eating disorder. food doesnt scare me. what scares me is the feeling that im alone like this, even though i know theres few of you who feel exactly like me. maybe some day i will understand what you all are talking about. maybe not. but i know im still valid as a person with an eating disorder, even though its not all linear.

Idk if you are gaining weight, loosing weight, eating regularly, eating irregularly, binging all the time, never binging, purging, or not purging

Chá verde: O queridinho, aumenta metabolismo.

Chá de hibisco: diurético, mas meio perigoso. Não pode ser tomado na gravidez, nem a partir de 15 dias. Pode causar infertilidade temporária e até hemorragias uterinas.

Chá de boldo: ajuda na digestão, tira enjôo. Ótimo pra beber depois de uma compulsão.

Chá de carqueja: diminui o inchaço através da liberação de gases.

Chá de sene: ótimo laxante! Mas deve ser tomado com cuidado por causa da desidratação.

Chá de gengibre: perfeito pra tirar o apetite. Também acelera o metabolismo.

Chá de abacaxi: combate à retenção de líquidos. Barriga desincha em 3 dias.

As coisas ficaram tranquilas por quase uma ano quando eles foram hackeados por uma pessoa de meu grande apreço (atualizando os fatos, ela mantia uma conta desde março de 2018 que usava pra stalkear meus amigos e eu, isso foi confessado pelo marido dela. Ela ficou grávida, mas continuava a stalkear. A desculpa: falou que eu tava usando propriedades da familia dela, coisa que supostamente só aconteceu no final de 2019/2020).

Ponto 1: O apartamento em fortaleza não pertence a ninguém, é um beneficio à servidores federais.

Ponto 2: Eu só ia pra lugares da familia com o irmão dela que é muito meu amigo e me convidava.(alguns lugares estão até abandonados)

Ponto 3: eu vou onde eu quiser.)