you think you’re faking this? ok. prove it.
delete tumblr. delete myfitnesspal. delete any and all calorie tracking apps. go into your kitchen. right now. get up and walk into your kitchen. now make a pot of pasta or spaghetti. or make a salad with chicken or a smoothie. or make a few eggs with some potatoes. or heat up the leftovers in the fridge. don’t count it. don’t measure it. don’t look up the calories. then sit down and eat the whole thing. don’t cut it up small, don’t wait until a certain time, don’t stare at it for forever before you eat it. cook it, put it on a plate, and eat it. maybe scroll through instagram or watch a tv show while you eat. like a post on your explore page about loving pizza without thinking of the calories or feeling fat. when you’re done eating, don’t go to the mirror, don’t go to the scale, don’t go to the toilet to throw up. then go on with your life without thinking about what you just ate or when you’ll eat next. now do that every time you first feel hungry every single day for the rest of your life.
if you can do that, fine. i’ll believe you. you’re “faking it”.
but if even one step of that sounds like your own personal hell, shut up because you’re absolutely not fake and your problems are beyond valid and you deserve to recover right now right where you are.
Will never not reblog this! You are valid and deserve recovery
this is so powerful! read it!!
Me: I’m deeefinitely faking my ED
Also me: *nearly having a panic attack from just reading this*
this is something i definitely needed to read! makes me realize that you don’t have to be a specific weight to have an ed. It’s a mind game.. your body is the result of whatever your mind has controlled you into believeing and doing. stay safe 🖤
this got me and my overthinking good
i know this makes most of you feeling validated and thats so amazing. but its the exact opposite for me. everytime i read this i feel more and more like im faking it. i could go to the kitchen to make some pasta and just eat it. it makes some people tear up, they really feel like its their personal hell, but for me? it feels normal.
every other day i restrict. then the next day i eat like a person with no eating disorder. food doesnt scare me. what scares me is the feeling that im alone like this, even though i know theres few of you who feel exactly like me. maybe some day i will understand what you all are talking about. maybe not. but i know im still valid as a person with an eating disorder, even though its not all linear.
"An eating disorder is a mental disorder defined by abnormal eating habits that negatively affect a person's physical and/or mental health." -Wikipedia, the description of an eating disorder.




























