โ i am a frequent swearer. please be cautious of that, i use swear words to express things. i do not use trigger warnings for most posts.
โ my ao3 + my masterpost of hcs
โ lesbian + non-binary
feel free to give me art or writing requests or ask me about my headcanons, no guarantee they will all be answered. i do not write smut nor ___ x reader, however i do write fluff and angst.
please do also note I will not frequently respond to tag games, but i do appreciate you thinking of me and tagging me.
my interests include:
เนเฃญโญ the outsiders ๐๐ช
เนเฃญโญ enola holmes ๐บ
เนเฃญโญ red, white, and royal blue ๐
เนเฃญโญ conan gray ๐จ
เนเฃญโญ dead poets society ๐ชถ
เนเฃญโญ project hail mary ๐
เนเฃญโญ last night at the telegraph club โค๏ธโ๏ธ
เนเฃญโญ the song of achilles ๐บ๐ฟ๐ถ
+ many, many more
lots of love towards my siblings, sage and wyatt, found family even across hundreds of miles <2
some of the ships i like:
โช pb+j/johnnyboy (i post about them a lot, a lot of my fanfics are about them.) (wtf im being called the ceo and the parental figure of the johnnyboy community okay???)
โช tally (tim x dally. severely thempilled right now)
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ponybutt this is twobitty why are you a sandwich๐งฒ
Uhmโฆ oh! Yeah well because ponyboy like PB peanut butter and then Johnnyโฆ my hot, sexy, amazing, strong, wonderful, beautiful, pretty, gorgeous, did I say hot? Boyfriend Johnny is J like jelly so itโs peanut butter and jelly or pb&j
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YAY OKAY !! i told someone else about it but now i get to yap twice ehehโฆ also btw this does involve self harm and suicide, i forgot to mention that in the ask
so basically how it started is that i was writing on my wrist because i already had something drawn on my hand, so i was thinking about ponyboy doodling/writing on his hands/arms, and then my brain decided to be evil โ๏ธ
i started thinking about like,, him writing down something on his wrist and then cuttinf it ?? and then that led me to think about him writing down a list of things to do on his last day before he kills himself on his arm and cutting himself to cross it off and he writes the last item on his wrist so when he cuts/crosses that off he yโknow um dies, and i wrote this in my notes
the first note is โit is 4:20 in the mornind so if this makes no sense shut the fuck up ๐ฅฐโ and the last one is โhe kills himself by johnny and dallyโs gravesโ
i decided iโm going to write this (and i already started in my notebookโฆ. thank god i donโt have govโt finals so i could do that lolll) and i think if i post it iโd do it like one item on the list per post/chapter but yeah i wanted to yap heh
original draft for the theatre au chapter 9 pb+j argument for those who wanted it :) this is like. a more aggressive version of the argument??? like theyre hollering at each other bam bam
the * is representing where I was supposed to italicize (this is from my Google messages I wrote it late one night) and -- is em dashes, for clarification
"What's the *matter with you!? All I asked was if you were alright!" Johnny hollered as the front door closed behind him and his partner.
Ponyboy (this was originally pomegranate, my phone autocorrected it ๐) didn't respond, shaking his head, and started heading towards the room they shared. Sodapop's head popped out from the kitchen, followed by Darry stepping out. Johnny noticed them, but said nothing as he followed. The younger greaser plopped his school stuff onto his desk before sitting down, practically glaring. "You don't phrase it like 'what's wrong with me,' 'cause there's a lot, Johnny, so lay off," he said as the door closed.
The older shook his head, leaning against the door. "I'm not layin' off, you're worryin' me. You worry a lot of people when you're... like this," he muttered. "What's wrong?"
"Like what!?" Ponyboy exclaimed.
"Don't yell! C'mon--" Johnny sighed.
"No, don't shy away from the topic, when I'm like *what? I'm not a fragile kid, I'm a man, just tell me!" Ponyboy interrupted.
Johnny hesitated, tilting his head. "You're acting real sad and it's affecting everyone around you. You're actin' like a kid right now, too," he tried to keep his tone civil.
"I'm a good actor then, ain't I?"
"That's not what I'm trying to say!"
"So I ain't a good actor?"
"You're takin' this too literally."
Ponyboy let out a self deprecating laugh and shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know what you want me to say!"
Johnny stared at him before groaning and moving to pace around as he spoke. "I want you to tell me what the fuck is going on! You're ruinin' my mood and Cherry's worrying about you and *I'm worrying about you. You hurt everyone around you without even realizing, Pone!" He snapped, gesturing with his hand. "We're dating, and you promised to tell me when somethings going bad! So tell me what's going bad!"
The door swung open. "Can y'all stop yelling!?" Sodapop exclaimed.
"Stay out of it!" The two yelled. The middle Curtis brother scoffed and walked out, muttering 'why do I even try.'
"Look, just 'cause you're my boyfriend, doesn't mean I've gotta be a whiny *bitch to tell you what I'm feelin'," Ponyboy hissed.
"Then drop the boyfriend act or something! Go be with another guy, maybe Curly, he won't worry about you now would he?!" Johnny said out of nowhere, not really knowing where those words came from. "If you don't want me worrying 'bout you, then just *leave me, or something."
The silence in the room was deafening as the two stared at each other for what felt like hours. The words stung. Ponyboy thinned his lips and looked down at the floor, tapping his foot. "...maybe a few days apart could do us soms good," he admitted.
Johnny opened his mouth and closed it a few times before dropping his shoulders. "I didn't mean to say it like that," he whispered.
Ponyboy shook his head. "It's fine, Johnnycakes. Just-- give me a few days." He stopped tapping his foot.
Johnny frowned and nodded. "Okay," he whispered.
and thats about as far as I got :') I think i fell asleep after this because it was written at one in the fucking morning??? anyways yeah I scrapped that because I think I felt it was very ooc and "too angsty," so now you have the lighter version of the argument!!!!
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i think about johnnyboy so much now it's evil. i will find a way to connect it to everything in my life I do this with every single ship and fandom I get into. i usually spend months if not years obsessing over something i like (a movie, tv show, or book) and the people around me can get annoyed but it's okay
