cruz, beatriz marie d.

Too much love is always bad. Atleast that’s what my mother kept reminding me. She always says that the amount of love I’d give would be twice the amount of pain I’d feel. She says i shouldn’t give it away too freely and I never understood. I can’t understand why people can’t love with all their hearts, why people can’t wear their hearts on their sleeves or why people always try to suppress what they feel. i really can’t understand why people choose to play with the fire of uncertainty rather than just say how they truly feel. It’s really sad that people can’t love freely, that most people aren’t given the chance to truly love and be loved because of how our society twisted the way love works. I hate how love became so feeble, how most people choose to replace the person they claim to love rather than face a difficult and bumpy phase. I hate how they are almost turning love into something meaningless, how most people utter love like a new form of required greeting. They turned love into something toxic, they made it seem like not having love means you aren’t pretty or good enough and thus everyone claims to love for the sake of fitting in, of somehow being complete. Love has become feeble, and it’s feebleness are breaking hearts everywhere. It’s really sad. I can’t understand why people made love so complicamted and then wonder why they feel so miserable.

friendly reminder to write stories for you. you explain your idea to a friend and they're not over the moon about it?? you'd really like to write it just because it'll be fun and someone tells you not to?? you wanna use a concept you know is important to you right now and could really help you cope and they tell you that this "trope" has been overdone??? FUCK IT. write that stuff. do what's best for you. do what you want to. your personal insecurities are more than tropes. what you need to read will never be overdone. if someone doesn't like your idea, it doesn't matter, you like it. you might be the creator but that doesn't mean you can't be the audience and it certainly doesn't mean you can be kept from creating if that's gonna help you heal