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Thanks for Sweetening My Day

Myself: I've gotten so salty recently. (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

My Friend: ┬─┬ノ(º_ºノ) Here, have some sugar.

#howsweet #haha #thanksforbrighteningmyday

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Schedule: May 5

Time Posted: 5:56PM

Tasks to do:

Study for tomorrow’s Vector quiz.

Study for tomorrow’s French quiz.

Answer French Revolution questions.

Work on Data presentation.

Work on Short Story.

Goal: Top three tasks are priority. Although my Data and Short Story projects are due next week, I’ll be missing several days of school and weekend days due to track and some other events. Therefore, I need to chunk them tonight, even if its just a small chunk.

Big night ahead. I got this.

BRING IT ON

#schedule #dontgiveup

I really don't like where I'm going. I'm underperforming in my activities, I'm not hitting my goals, and it's so ridiculously frustrating. I want to spend my time by sincerely refining my skills, but as each day progresses, my energy and tolerance is just diminishing and I can't sustain my enthusiasm. My grades are above average, but that's clearly not enough. I can play the violin and trumpet, but I'm not good enough to play for a band or ensemble. I can run long and fast, but it won't win me scholarships and still isn't enough to get me to OFSAA. I can't even keep up with my friends with video games anymore. With so many bloody things I need to keep up with, I'm sleeping less and less each night, which results in me not being able to focus on things I need to be focusing on. Yet I have to keep everything buoyed, so I still end up having to force myself through each night. The worst thing, I guess, is that there's no one I can really connect with. I'm surrounded by so many incredible people that are just so skilled and disciplined on the things that they're truly passionate about. I'm close to being on the same level as them, but never close enough to really connect. And I wonder sometimes that if I just didn't attempt so many things at once, if say grades and music didn't matter to me, I probably could have had regular friends and just go out to the mall and movies and Starbucks and just have regular fun. But no, not even that. I read online that being "all-rounded" is great. I used to believe that. But now I think the proper way to describe myself is someone who just "half-asses" everything.

#salty #ridiculouslysalty #neversosaltybefore #frustrated #iwishihadsiblings #maybethenicouldhavesomeonetorelateto #iguessitechnicallyhadfive #ohwell #lifeisntafairplace #theyknowthatbetterthanido #soalone #ifeelbetternow #homeworknow #itwillworkout

9:33 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Cereal cereal cereal cereal cereal ~~~~~~~~~~

Why in the world did I wake up so early today...

Cereal ~~~~~

After a wonderful night performing several pieces of vocal music - several of which were jazz arrangements - I can’t stop thinking on how people used to think jazz was a savage and ridiculous type of music. I remember my band teacher even telling us how they used to try and market “jazz-proof” furniture. Silly ducks.

Long live jazz, long live music, long live freedom of expression.

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Beautiful day and beautiful night. Will sleep well tonight ~

#mood

Schedule: April 26

Time Posted: 11:33PM (April 25)

Tasks to do:

Finish Writer’s Craft descriptive scene assignment. 2:01AM

Calculate theoretical probabilities for Data game project. 6:00AM

File taxes.

Study for Calculus exam.

Goal: I need to complete these tasks in this order. Those assignments will be done by Monday, and I have to force myself to study for Calculus this weekend, because I won’t have time on Monday.

Mm, I suppose this is what I get for taking a midday sleep. Nevertheless, I am awake and alert. I will complete my objectives!

6:22PM: There are some things more important than homework. I’m incredibly glad I stayed to watch The Lemon Bucket Orkestra. Am I behind on homework? Yes. Was it worth it? Yes.

5:07PM (April 27): My leg may or may not be blown from track training. My first track meet is this coming Wednesday, and to make matters worst, I’m a leg in two of my relays. Actually the worst time for this to happen. Not pleased at all. Oh well, gotta push onward.

FEAR MY PEN

#schedule #dontgiveup

"Everything will be all right in the end. If it’s not all right, it is not yet the end."

Patel, The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel

#quotes #foryou #andforme #behappy #smilelots

A better day today.

Seven hours of sleep is 2.3 times more sleep than the average amount of sleep I’ve been getting each night for the past week. I actually feel terrific today. I am totally good to take on this calc test or anything else that gets in my way today.

SEIZE THE DAY

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Schedule: April 21, 2015

Time Posted: 12:10AM

Tasks to do:

Finish Chapter 4 Calc assignment. 12:53AM

Finish Writer’s Craft character creation assignment. 1:36AM

Finish Writer’s Craft atmosphere and mood handout.

Study for Data test today.

Study for Calculus test tomorrow. 9:30PM

Study for Calculus exam next week.

Learn choir songs. 1:56AM

Attend Choir.

Attend makeup Track training.

Goal: At least finish three tasks before I go to school and up to five by the end of the day. Math takes priority.

It’s like the world and everything hates me right now. I’ll take my vengeance by overcoming it all.

4:46PM: Alright, here’s the game plan. After dinner, will take two and a half hour nap after drinking tea. Will study until midnight, then sleep.

5:30PM: A knock on the door. It turns out my new instrument finally arrived...

7:04PM: Out of a nap. No biggie, still got this in the bag...

9:30PM: TAKE THAT MATH. Man, I’m actually feeling so accomplished today. Now I just have to bank a lot of hours of sleep and I’ll be completely set. This calc test is gonna get DESTROYED by me.

COME AT ME

#schedule #dontgiveup

It's not about the cards you're dealt, but how you play the hand.

Randy Pausch, The Last Lecture

Always make the best out of whatever situation you can with whatever you have. Thank you for your lessons Mr. Randy Pausch.

#quotes

Holding on to anger, resentment, and hurt only gives you tense muscles, a headache and a sore jaw from clenching your teeth. Forgiveness gives you back the laughter and the lightness in your life.

Marianne Williamson

I’ve found out why my friends have been acting strange recently. I swear that I will do my best to ameliorate my bonds and not get angered by their insincerity, whether or not I was at fault.

Friends deserve to be forgiven. Anger brings no joy. Let this post serve as a self-reminder to not give in.

#self-reminder #ipromise

Adjectives: Capable

Capable - /ˈkāpəb(ə)l/

~ To be able to achieve efficiently whatever one has to do.

Despite it all, I’m still standing, tall and proud.

#definitions

#music #spotify

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Late Night Rambling

So what do I do when I know there’ll be a calc test on my first day back from break?

Play philosophical-tagged games on Kongregate.

Think of interesting plots I can use for short story writing.

Learn a new coding language.

Study chess openings.

Listen to the same album that I’ve been listening to for the past week.

Ponder about myself, the reason of my existence, and how I can better myself to face the future.

Know what I don’t do when there’s a calc test right around the freaking corner?

Study calc.

#to you #late night rambling #do you even ramble #bro #i feel isolated too #but there's a bug beside me #this one has a lot of legs #also has wings #did you know i don't like bugs #it's coming closer #OMGITSCOMINGCLOSERRR

Behold the turtle. He makes progress only when he sticks his neck out.

James Bryant Conant

#quote #courage

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