hi. yeah, this is one of those blogs.
My name is mara. I'm 26 years old. 5'9 if that matters and I have a dead end job and I hate my life.
i’m a shut in that feels like the world has abandoned her. I have hebephrenic schizophrenia and bpd. I switch between having anger issues and feeling sorry for myself. this isn’t a self-help redemption arc or a “healing femininity” i'm addicted to porn. I drink alot. I love yaoi. My hygene is bad.
Just think of your "loser fujoshi" and yep thats me.
i’m not here to be palatable.
i’m not here to fix myself into something dateable. I'm also fail at being masculine bc I'm just a cis tomboy girlfail amd I fail at everything
this blog is about:
being undesirable without apologizing for it
gender failure as resistance.
resentment, loneliness, and rage sometimes
attraction, power, envy, and the politics of being overlooked.
i don’t hate women who are loved. i hate the system that made love a reward you earn by behaving correctly.
sometimes i’ll be cruel. sometimes i’ll be vulnerable. sometimes i’ll contradict myself. that’s intentional.
if you’re:
too much or not enough
unwanted and aware of it
tired of “just work on yourself”
drawn to dominance, sharpness
you’ll probably understand me.
DNI if you like masculine men in your yaoi. Or are obsessed with men I find masculine. I will freak out. I only like femboy content. It sounds weird, but trust me, It will trigger me and cause an episode.
