"my perception of skill is influenced by elo but also inflated by my ego" I love my fucking life so much. love my beautiful chungus life

Sorry to bring this back but its so beautiful when u say something abt someone that is basically extremely obvious but you're still going around like oh fuck have i got their whole deal completely wrong. and then they just come out and say it in the most direct way possible

a girl without tummy is an angel without wings. so feed her more wings.

incest world gemtho mommy-daughter road trip to catch up with each other. and gem is driving because she wants to get hours for her license. and gem tells etho to bring a lot of waterbottles because it's hot and she should stay hydrated. and even though she's not really thirsty gem tells her to keep drinking every ten minutes or so. and they're hours away from their next stop and etho has to pee soooo bad but gem tells her to just hold it. gem is driving and she doesn't want to break her focus :( and also she keeps telling her to drink more. and etho's squirming in her seat like crazy and begging gem to pull over but gem just keeps pressing on the gas..... ^^ and eventually etho just pisses herself right there in the car. and she goes all quiet and embarrassed. and gem just passes her the waterbottle again and by the time they're at the motel they're stopping at for the night etho has to piss so badly that she can't make it to the toilet and she pisses herself in the hotel parking lot. and gem texts cleo a picture like "mom really doesn't have any self control XD" and cleo scolds her for it. but they do save the picture.

and over the course of several days of this etho runs out of all her unsoiled clothes she had packed for the trip, and instead of letting her stop at a little coin-operated laundromat, gem tells her that she actually packed some extra clothes and etho can borrow those!! ^^ and it's all super sheer basically lingerie stuff. but like, you know, etho didn't have to drink all that water. or hold all that piss. or ruin all those clothes. really if you think about it she's asking to wear those clothes? why else would she have done all that. and gem's been looking forward to this trip for so long, mom, she doesn't want to take a detour for several HOURS to do laundry, that'll put them so far behind schedule! can't you just make things simple and put on the clothes gem had the foresight to pack? and then gem makes her drink until she pisses herself again. and this time it's REALLY visible when they stop at the gas station. and gem makes etho get out of the car and buy the gas because she's been driving the whole time and she's tired :( and everyone sees her like that ^^

It is kind of messed up when i think about it how i didn't do literally anything outside school for the last 2 years of high school and then i haven't had a single close irl friend for the 4 years since and i just hang out in my bedroom touch starved all day and if anyone tried to actually make friends with me id have no idea how to act and just run away. But it's fine

the most fucked thing abt it is ive moved past even wanting that like i don't even want people to talk to me and create beautiful friendships with me any more because i lowkey don't even believe it can happen to me or that id be good at it i just want ppl to take advantage of my loneliness/emotional vulnerability to get me to do whatever they want LOL