through my eyes.

Why are you so

MOTHAFUCKING

Crazy my guy?

I mean,

LISTEN TO YOURSELF!

It should be pretty easy,

Since you’re smart enough

To think but not say shit out loud

But, my LORD.

I honestly don’t think there is help for you

And I honestly don’t see how

You can postively manifest this

Everytime I open myself up to a woman,

They leave me.

No, not in some oh, “woe is me,”

Type situation,

Riddled with unnecessary self guilt

They real shit,

BOUNCE.

I’ve been ghosted two times

In the past two months

And four times in the past year.

And some of you might be saying

“Oh this is your karma,

Coming back around to haunt you!”

I have literally never ghosted ANYONE

(there was this one time in highschool...)

So I really don’t deserve this shit

Like, really.

Friends say that I “want” it too much,

I want things to work out “too much,”

MY BOY

How the fuck-

Yo...

Am I supposed to approach a woman I want,

With the energy of NOT wanting her?

Or rather, should I just feign that energy?

Lie?

I used to think I was

So better off than most,

Because I already knew

What I wanted to do

With my life.

Not in a condescending way,

But I did feel privileged

That is until I found out

How far behind I was

Developmentally,

Seeing that I never

Learned to love myself.

Sometimes I wish “irony”

Was just the adjective

I think of you way too often

And I know it’s wrong

I think that’s why

I keep on doing it

I have this unhealthy obsession

With not doing what

I’m supposed to

With unavailable women

With unattainable dreams?

This scares me the most

What if I’ve successfully

Convinced myself

To go down

The wrong path in life

Simply because I don’t

Want to do what’s right?

Suppose I should actually

Get a job-job,

Because entrepreneurship

Isn’t for me

And I’m just wasting

All these years I’ve been given?

Like I coulda been on