someday i will learn to forgive myself

(i’ve been lurking here without one forever because i didn’t know what i wanted this blog to be oops)

hi! i’m exie :) i’m nonbinary (they/them is great), and ace! this is a safe space for all my fellow queers <3

this blog functions in a similar capacity as a journal for me

i post about tv shows i like, movies i love, and a whole lot of sleep token among other bands i adore. i also bitch about my life a lot, sorry i’m a miserable creature but venting is proven to make you feel better so. i am also currently deep into my obsession with major league baseball and specifically the toronto blue jays so catch me yapping about them a shit ton too

i currently have a bachelor’s of psychology! i tried to go back to school and decided one degree is enough for now 😅

i’m also a guitarist, although i feel guilty calling myself so because i am extremely mediocre and often find it hard to commit to learning a song. maybe if i start posting about it here it’ll motivate me to practice lmao

lastly, this blog is an 18+ space for my own peace of mind. i may be ace but sometimes shit gets raunchy.

like. not a full blown hoarder, but i love having things. collections. it’s my dragon hoard to preside over

despite not having my turntable nor a cd player, i have been collecting cds and vinyl. now i am itching to start a cassette collection as well

and trinkets!! i love trinkets! and kitchen gadgets. i genuinely cannot walk through the kitchen area of canadian tire because there are so many single-purpose kitschy gadgets that i cannot resist

i mean. he’s still a trigger point for me; the last thing i want to do in this life is disappoint him. but! the last few times i’ve gotten to just hangout with him it’s felt like a lot less pressure

on sunday he was in town so we went for lunch and a bit of shopping and it felt so easy. i felt like we were on a level playing field. i could talk openly about my future plans (or current lack thereof) and i felt supported and understood

start playing kirk and valenzuela 50/50

it was announced the two worst umpires in mlb are retiring at the end of this season so my sister and i are having celebratory beers after she gets off work 😂

got my titty socks, my ace and rainbow pins, and my nonbinary flag i am so ready for this shit