"It wasn't my love for Louis, Daniel.

but also transfem supremacy in the sense that I still want her when she learns she doesn't have to comptop anymore. that I help her explore new ways to get off now that hrt makes her struggle to stay hard. that I learn all the ways I can help her feel good and watch her eyes roll back as her body melts into soup in my arms.

The craziest, most brutal bitch you know is at the Barnes & Noble sale getting an extra 25% off of the vinyl original cast recording of Sunday at the Park with George. She has no rizz, she's freak nasty, she got a job in healthcare to watch people die more.

The most violent girl you know is going to start looking for a cage to put herself in and if that's a husband and kids so be it and sometimes she kills a rabbit or a squirrel to feel something, to slip into a chili or a stew and wonder what it would feel like to let her family know the wife or mother they take for granted was forced to be a butcher and chose to be a hunter just to have some semblance of control. The taste of her own desires turns bitter in her mouth as she absent-mindedly cuts out coupons.

The smartest woman you have ever met who is so painfully beautiful that it feels insane she bothers to get smarter and smarter is using rationale and logic and political conquest as methadone for the heroin that is her Id, her ego, and her appetite for destruction. She's eating dirt and dreaming of wolves and dying underneath it all.

They both feel like they aren’t at the top of high school hierarchy

Shauna lived in Jackie’s shadow her whole life

Misty was diminished her whole life and didn’t really have any friends and was like a rat in the sewers in the hierarchy

Misty did not want to leave the wilderness because for once the girls actually needed her and she didn’t feel invisible anymore and when she went back she would be a nobody again

Shauna did not want to leave the wilderness because she knew that when she went back she would continue living in Jackie’s shadow even if she was dead and she would not be her powerful self anymore

Spike thematically represents morally grey areas. He’s not the simple black and white worldview that Buffy has as a young teen. It’s not good vs evil. It’s not Angel vs Angelus. Spike truly is evil, and sometimes he truly is good. Canonically he has done countless reprehensible, immoral, disgusting things. But he also supports Buffy. He cares for Dawn. He would sacrifice himself for either of them in a heartbeat. He tries to do better. Some of that is rooted in selfish reasons and some of it isn’t.

My main point is that Spike isn’t simple. That is the entire point of his character. He’s a representation of Buffy growing up and having to face that morality is a lot more complex and confusing than you want it to be.

When people defend him so much that they pretend he hasn’t done anything wrong, it erases why he’s a good character. It erases everything he represents and all the work he puts in to grow. So many of the opinions I see on Spike are “he’s done nothing wrong” or “he’s purely evil no one should like him”. It’s ironic that people have very reductionist views of him. The whole point is that he forces Buffy, and you as the viewer, to think about moral grey areas. To make you uncomfortable. Because we want morality to be simple. The older you get the more you realize it isn’t.