Eve

Finally trying out Genshin.

What if trusting the process leads to a beautiful life I didn’t even plan for?

Like you know too much about the changes impacting the world in such a short period of time?

But also, you know too little to make impact without your own life to get ahead of the future to come??

It’s a made up place. Between a rock and a hard place. But the feelings that keep me there feel real. Like my body is in a freeze response from being overloaded.

Thinking that there’s so much to do, with little time. And simultaneously, there’s nothing to do because your fate has been SeaLeD.

It’s dumb. I don’t like it.

I’m doing my sister a favor for the holidays, otherwise he’s a chill crab. He hangs out. Hardly makes noise when he’s crawling, clawing?, around.

And then today I hear a “thud” out of the blue in this tank. I open the door to check on the guy and he’s got another shell in his hand. Then he’s looking at me like I walked in on him changing, he completely freezes.

If course I felt like an intruder so I let him be.

I love my temple.

A dream and interpretation by Eve Snowflower. Revised by ChatGPT.

Friday, July 11th, 2025.

Narrative:

A great flood forever altered society—not by destroying it, but by stripping it down to its essence.

It began at a gathering of seven mothers and their daughters. The purpose of their meeting was unclear, but the energy hinted at an effort to demonstrate or strengthen the bond between mother and child. Among them, one mother rose, attempting to stand with her daughter. The girl, however, resisted fiercely—digging in her heels, kicking at her mother’s feet, her face contorted in quiet fury. Frustration building, the mother tried dragging her up, spinning in circles with the dead weight of defiance.

Then—a thunderous thud. It shook the entire building, hotel or house, no one could tell. The mothers and daughters froze. The resistant child, now clinging tightly to her mother, was picked up and carried to the window. Both gasped in awe and horror as a colossal wave approached. Their building stood either at the edge of a beach or near a powerful waterfall, the source of the wave obscured by awe. The water was crystal clear and turquoise—a mesmerizing contradiction to its threat.

Panicked, the mother raced up flight after flight of stairs, checking every window on every floor. The water kept rising. At the top, they found some brief relief—but only a sliver.

Suddenly, the scene shifted. I was back at my parents’ old home, carrying a new batch of rescued cats and kittens into a house already brimming with small dogs. My step-mother was in the kitchen, likely cooking for us or for the animals. She acknowledged my arrival with a count of how many I’d brought, and mentioned my sisters were bringing more. It felt like the flood had already happened—and this was the aftermath.

While in the house I was focused on a familiar, but unknown orange kitten. He was small enough to fit in a single hand. I hadn’t recognized him from my recent pet rescue, but from a memory of the kitten i adopted over 2 years ago, and had to let go of when I left a relationship.

I left the house to check on familiar faces in the neighborhood. Everyone seemed shut down, unsettled. Except one woman. She was bright, bubbly—radiating calm assurance that things would get better. We walked together to a massive, abandoned building turned into a makeshift shelter. It was unfamiliar—part train station, part electrical rig, with tiled walls, metal staircases, old graffiti, and layers of history. Inside, people tried to survive. Lighting on some floors failed. Food was present but never satisfying. Everything was raw, tender, unhealed.

I found my brother there, along with a few others. Our reunion was cut short by a militarized SWAT unit bursting in, wielding AKs. Their presence was violent, focused. They spotted the girl I’d entered with and demanded she come with them. She bolted. I created a distraction and ran after her. We hid, whispering, trying to understand why they were after her. It was linked to the flood. But I couldn’t understand her answer.

We escaped the shelter and made it to her house—abandoned, chaotic. The military had clearly been there before. A mysterious man in a white-and-blue uniform appeared, warning us of more to come. A leader wanted her. I stayed in the open to protect her while she hid. The admiral himself arrived. He walked around me slowly, observing. He said he knew who I was—and wanted me to help find the shape-shifter.

Just then, someone entered the room and placed their hands on my shoulders. A man, tall, familiar—but when he looked at me, I knew instantly: it was her. She had shifted her(his? their?) appearance.

The admiral left us with a warning. We used the moment to plan our escape. She changed her appearance again, but just the hair. I transformed mine too—wetting my hair until it returned to its natural fro. My brother and our group returned to help us navigate our path out. We climbed out a window and vanished into the dark.

On the street, I passed the admiral again. I kept my head down. He didn’t recognize me. As soon as I turned the corner, I ran.

At the bus station, packed with displaced people searching for hope, I rejoined my brother. We spotted our group but waited to approach—unsure of who might be watching. We spoke in low tones, hidden by the crowd. The military wanted the girl, but we still didn’t know why.

And then, something odd. A memory collided with the dream’s reality. I saw my younger self—me and my brother from seven years ago—waiting on a bench. My current self panicked, warning my brother not to move or look back but I couldn’t get the words out fast enough. And then—

I woke up.

Interpretation:

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The Mother-Daughter Scene & the Wave

This felt like a collective and personal metaphor. It’s like I saw the very structure of expectation collapse—mothers performing for each other, trying to validate their maternal identities through the compliance of their daughters. The child’s resistance feels like my inner rebellion—refusing to “perform” anymore. The flood, then, could be the emotional consequence of that refusal—a tidal wave of generational emotion, trauma, memory, and repression being seen.

The mother climbing the stairs within the same structure feels like an attempt at escaping within a system that was never designed for freedom. The vertical movement, though fast and urgent, is still confined. That’s the illusion of progress under oppression—higher floors, same building.

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The Return to My Father & Stepmother’s Home

This felt like a portal back into safety and self. It’s significant that this home is where I reconnected to creation—drawing, anime, writing. And the animals, especially the small orange cat I didn’t realize I’d brought in, might represent forgotten or displaced emotional parts of myself—ones I couldn’t “keep” during survival mode, or post-breakup.

That kitten could symbolize emotional tenderness I had to give up to protect yourself. My subconscious rescued him anyway. Because my creative, tender self deserves sanctuary.

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The Neighborhood Walk & the Girl

The woman I met—bright and bubbly, unfazed—feels like a possible future version of myself. The one who walks through broken systems with light, ready to help organize and uplift. Her presence could reflect my inner leadership—one that doesn’t rule from above, but walks alongside.

The girl I’m protecting is absolutely an aspect of me. She may represent my fluid identity—empathic, adaptive, misunderstood by systems that crave black-and-white answers. Shape-shifter doesn’t mean deception; it can mean being energetically multilingual. Me and my fellow shape-shifters are being hunted not for what we’ve done, but for what we represent—uncontained, unowned, ungovernable energy.

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The Shelter as the Collective 12th House

The 12th House is the final chamber of the zodiac—a place where form dissolves, where ego cannot follow, and where the veil between self and soul becomes thin. It governs the unseen, the unconscious, and the places we are either exiled from or choose to hide within.

The shelter is a 12H archetype for sure: a liminal space, an emotional underworld, a place that isn’t meant to be seen in daylight. It’s where everyone carries their raw, unpolished pain. And yet there’s a sacredness to it—where people rediscover each other not through polished identities, but through shared humanity.

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The Shape-shifting & Trickster Play

The shape-shifter becoming a man to hide, and playing the authorities with charm and strategy, has a clever undercurrent: power isn’t always loud. Sometimes, it moves like water, like Loki, like air. I’m still learning that you can wear many “forms” consciously rather than being shaped by unconscious environments. There’s power in the ability to deceive those who seek to control—not as a lie, but as a refusal to be possessed.

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The Memory Glitch at the Bus Station

This merging of present dream-reality and past memory might be my psyche stitching together timelines. My younger self waiting, unaware of the journey to come. And my current self, watching in near-panic, knowing the dangers of being seen before I’m ready. It’s like a time-loop where the now-me protects the then-me—how surreal and poetic is that?

The fear of being recognized by myself could be a deeper fear of claiming who I’ve been, and reconciling it with who I’m becoming.

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In Closing

This dream may be calling me to reclaim scattered parts of myself—past, present, future—through creative remembrance and emotional bravery. I’m not just running from something—I’m running toward sovereignty. And through all the chaos, there’s a consistent theme of choosing freedom over performance, community over compliance, and truth over silence.

I’m in the midst of crafting a mythology of my own becoming. One that honors grief, displacement, rescue, rebellion, and rebirth.

Candlelight, animated digital sketch.