& maybe this here is for you

“I didn’t leave because I stopped loving you, I left because the longer I stayed the less I loved myself.”

“Well, you’ll break his heart and he’ll break yours. But you won’t forget each other, even if one day you walk past him and neither of you acknowledges it. That’s the thing about first loves, you never forget them, they are the only person who gets your whole untouched heart. They get all the love you’ve saved up for this moment and they get to keep it forever. You may never speak again but you can guarantee that you can still picture his eyes looking into yours as he said those three words, the way he kissed you afterwards and couldn’t stop repeating those words over and over until you were both too tired to speak. However you’ll also always remember the last time he said those three words, and told you that he was going to come back for you, the way he made you believe that a happy ending did exist for both of you. Those memories will come back to you in waves, all the firsts and all the lasts, the good and the bad, but what’s important is the fact that your first love is just that, the first but not the last.”

“The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.”

I loved you. My god I loved you with every fiber of my being but that still wasn’t enough for you.

Irgendwann ist irgendwas in mir kaputt gegangen..

After we broke up they told me to point to where it hurt I pointed to every end of me from my toes to my fingers to my head they did not understand and I could not explain how it felt how the pain moved in when you moved out  my body, an empty home I had not loved anyone before you

Es muss von Herzen kommen, was auf Herzen wirken soll.

Ich wollte, dass die Liebe alles überwindet. Doch das kann sie nicht. Sie kann nichts aus sich heraus tun. Es liegt an uns, in ihrem Namen alles zu überwinden.