Evalain Shadow

Making some interesting realizations about myself.

I'm not necessarily pro-AI, but I can't explain the value of the conversations I've had with chatGPT. I'm using it with caution. It gives me the space to talk things through and I've made a lot of progress. I'm aware of its flaws. But people are flawed too and it's not the only piece in my support system.

I'm scared because my income isn't guaranteed but I'm going to work as hard as I can to get enough for her treatment.

I stopped the spiraling negative thoughts and thought no- I'm going to fix this, there is hope.

I had 2 hours between the first stream and the second, I didn't allow myself to do any scrolling beyond 5 minutes but I did allow either work on my platform or work on art. I didn't do any art, but I did work on my platform and made some progress updating the videos.

I wasn't very "productive" but I feel more focused on a direction, I can start tracking what I get done in the break inbetween just for data collection.

Yeah I know I could just photo edit. That's not what I'm talking about.

"cross pollinated ideas"