Fear and Loathing in the Rust Belt

I wish I knew why some autistic/ADHD people love weed but can't handle alcohol. I want to know why some are the other way around. I want to know why there's rarely middle ground. (I know weed's legal in some places, but it should be legal everywhere, let's be real.)

I want to know if coke treats Brachycardia/Chronic Fatigue if used regularly, or if it's just duct tape on a bleeding wound. And if it can be dosed to be more sustainable/regulated.

I want it more circulated that Molly is not your friend when you're on SSRI's.

I want a chart of what drug you take, and how you ingest it, and after what time period you're safe from fent/overdose. And I want this to be WIDELY circulated.

I want to study people who do illegal drugs in moderation, and people who had to abstain and what their reason for quitting was.

I want to know which drugs have never been done successfully in moderation. (Opiates seems to be the main one.)

I want to know what psychological disorders will crave which drugs. I want to know which can be helped by a moderate intake of illegal drugs. (Besides ADHD)

I want to know why alcohol dulls my autistic symptoms.

I want to know why some people have never come back from an acid trip. I want to know if psychosis or schiz runs in their family, and if psychelelics triggers what's already there or causes it. I want to know if that has even happened or if it's just a myth.

I want to know what substances have a statistically terrible sustainability likeliness and which is possible to dose, prescribe, and moderate.

I want informed consent, not stigma.

I want it globally understood that people can and will consume illegal drugs, and for programs like safe use sites and hotlines to be widely available and advertised.

I want to Google which are safe to mix without getting a message saying that I'm obviously in a dangerous place and need rehab.

I want to know if certain traumas correlate with craving a certain drug.

I want clean needles supplied to anyone who injects.

I want people to realize that alcohol is also a dangerous, addictive drug is right up there with some illegal stuff. Sometimes even worse.

Some of these substances have been outlawed because of racism, Prohibition logic, or pure Nixonism. If they've been studied (besides MK fucking Ultra), it hasn't been made regulated enough to make usage safe.

And you're wearing eye contacts

Make sure to wash your hands

Before removing

I know it's swanky because it's the first bar (besides mine) I've been to all weekend without a "please do not use coc@ine" sign on the restroom door.

Sober:

Get up off cough

Walk to bathroom

Use bathroom

Wash hands

Lay on couch

Shroom Tasks:

Loading body awareness

Calibrating movement

Absorb that it feels like you can control this body

Whoa

Sit up

Brace self

Calibrating balance

Stand

Understand that I am taller now

Adjust to this new world

Teeter and balance towards bathroom

Omg there's an intruder

No it's a coat

Where was I

Where am I

Hold on I gotta go find me

There i am

Bathroom! When did that happen?

Why am I here?

Oh yeah, Qtips

Ear feel goodOMG A TOILET

Pull down pants

Deep breaths

I'm a shy pisser.

It doesn't matter that I'm home alone, not to me, I'm not

Relief

Deep breath

Standing

Understanding that you have to put on pants

Rinse hands with water

put soap on hands

Wait wrong order

YOU DID IT WRONG

Oh there's a sink

Hands washed

It's time that I returned to my kingdom

All along, we should have been singing love songs to them."

He found that one drug was quite far ahead of all others. It had a harm score of 72.

The next most harmful drug was heroin---and it had a harm score of 55, just ahead of crack at 54 and methamphetamine at 32/

It wasn't even close. The most harmful drug was alcohol."

But then I interviewed Dr. Carl Hart, one of the world's leading experts on this question, at his offices in Columbia University, and what he showed me was so surprising I had to keep going back to see him repeatedly over the course of a year before I really accepted what he was saying. He talked me through the best scientific evidence, which he later expanded on in his book High Price. He showed me the evidence is that, of the people who have tried crack, just 3 percent have used it in the past month, and at most 20 percent were ever addicted at any point in their lives."