erin lecount

#music #arcane #silver spoon

love u like the safety pin on my rosary

i suppose it’s a good time to say this song is about loving a girl that you call your best friend. you worship her like a God. you are cynical about religion but you would like to be saved and you would like to believe in something so you believe in her. maybe you grew up together and saw each others grazed knees and you were the shoulder she cried on about boys. maybe you loved her more than anything and simultaneously envied her and you couldn’t understand why it made you sick and bitter. you try to weed out the root of your jealousy and your admiration and infatuation but they are intertwined. when people talk about religious experiences they talk about a force of nature that moves them and evokes huge emotions in a way they cannot explain - that is the only thing you can compare it to. which is funny because you think a holy book would condemn the way you pray to her. there is an unspeakable cult that exists just for the two of you that nobody else could understand not even you so you spend your life writing about it and trying to intellectualise it