What feels like love to me?
How do I feel loved?
When I say I just want to be loved - like it's a simple, easy thing to understand exactly what it is that I mean - What does it even mean to me? I want to be chosen, I want to be considered. I want to be missed, craved, enjoyed. Even when i feel like shit and can't give anything, and when I can give, I would like gratitude. I want honesty and sometimes I want to be lied to if my food is terrible - but make it believable. I want to be held when I feel unlovable, when i cant love myself, I want to be seen for of the all the shit that I am. For everything that I am not capable of bringing to the table - I want to be love through it. For all the things you expect from me that I struggle to bring consistently - be happy when I can, and supportive when I can't. Understand that I may struggle to me your expectations if that is what you decide to place one me. Love me for everything that I am - and make me know it. Force me to know your love for me. Please kiss me and hold me - when you have no idea how to handle me - hold me. Explain to me how you show your love - show me those things as often as you are capable of doing so. Choose me. In the moments that you feel I might need you to - Choose me. Sometimes all I need is the second thought. I will love you where you are - for who you are, and if you are open with me when life is fucking your brain or your heart - I will do my best to support you in the ways that you need. Tell me what it is that you need. I will be here to serve - to ask - to hold - please feel free with me. I want to accept you, I crave to accept everything that you are - as I hope that you will of me as well. I need some amount of special treatment, the same ways that you do from me. I give you more of me than I give to others. More depth, more heart, more acceptance, far more thought and more of my energy. I will be grateful for everything that you gift to me. Maybe I'm cooking and buying groceries - show me appreciation by holding me, kissing me, and gracing me with your touch - recognitions - gifts, special treatment in return(in the ways that are natural for you to present them) What do you need? For all that you give to me - what are the actions that make our union feel balanced? It is natural for me, nay - historical - That I will feel a Cinderella complex as my contribution becomes mainly focused and noted as "household chores, household mental load, groceries, cooking and cleanliness of our shared spaces." My hope is to work together to reroute these negative feelings I have towards these contributions. I want to be enlightened (away from the Cinderella ego), I want to feel that I am an equal part of a balanced team. Not that I serve for you to provide, This is a different feeling if you're able to put yourself into this mindset - you'll understand that it is negative and I am happy to have ideas and ways out of it I want to stand with my Partner, not behind or ahead of. I want to feel that my place is firmly beside you in whatever position I am capable of standing in. This is who I am, and yes, I am absolutely capable of making small changes and adjustments - but my Character, my natural capabilities, my inclinations, and my personality - this is who I am now. Can you accept me where I am now? and most specifically - not accept me with the idea that there is potential for something else, or that there is potential that I am going to be something different than what you have already experienced. Those experiences you have had of me are who I am.









