Be Yourself. Everyone Else Is Taken.

“My body is my body. Every part of it.”

If all you can do is crawl, start crawling.

“You have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life.”

“Maybe the past is like an anchor holding you back. Maybe, you have to let go of who you were to become who you will be.”

“The world will ask you who you are, and if you don’t know, the world will tell you.”

“Free yourself from the illusion of good and bad days. Labeling time makes us nostalgic of the past and demanding of the future. There is only here and now. Let it be.”

“If you’re happy in a dream, does that count?”

Sometimes we stare so long at a door that is closing, that we see too late the one that is open.

It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.

I just want to heal and not always be counting numbers in my head with this fear that something bad is going to happen if I let go of control. I’m sick of checking and rechecking things when I know in my heart that all is well, but my mind has a difficult time trying to understand that. I’m tired of not living my life and always staying in the dark room of my mind. I feel so much disgust and shame, and guilt. I want to be free from my obsessions and the endless search for them to go away. I want to accept them but let them go at the same time. It’s hard living with this disorder. I have this unbearable desire for perfection, and everything feels fucked up. I wish to be carefree than to second guess everything that keeps me from enjoying life as it is. I need to be present. Be a present for life, my family, my best friends. I still want to marry, write good sentences and dance my way to a brighter future. It starts here. In the here and now. I choose to be better, and that means facing my demons, my compulsions, and my madness. It’s not going to be easy, but it’s going to be worth it. Wellness is worth it, and I’m going to live well. I’m going to put in the work towards recovering. That’s my greatest dream, and I’m going to make it. I’m going to make it.

“Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.”