Empty

It's strange being in my 30s.

I have no goals, no dreams, I don't work, I don't have any kids. I was not supposed to be here for this long. So I feel perpetually as a 19 year old inside my aging crippling body.

People expect things from me as a 35 year old that my 19 year old mind cannot bring to the table. I am not supposed to be here.

Even the last 2.5 years, I was not supposed to be here, I was supposed to leave at 33,and before that, 30,26,23,19,17,14,12 and 7.

- i’m socially exhausted - i don’t have the time right now - i don’t know how to reply - i have a bad memory and got distracted - i’m having a depressive episode and don’t have the energy to socialise

not reasons i haven’t replied back:

- liking questionable content instead of reblogging bc u don’t want to trigger ur followers

- when people put their weight but not their HEIGHT

- painfully obvious photoshop

- finding ur irl friends’ blogs

- completely normal blog with no ed content following u and liking all ur posts

- alternatively, porn blog following u and liking all ur posts

- *deactivated*

“Is This Healthy” is a comic that I made for an independent study in which I looked deeper into the idea of health, mental, physical, and emotional as it relates to myself.

Breaking my 21hr fast with these bad bois.

Cucumber (30), light laughing cow wedge (35), and smoked salmon (140). Total - 205 cals.

~ 45 CAL Mug Cake Recipe ~

Time needed: 5 minutes

Calories: 45 calories

What you need:

1 Tbsp flour

1 Tbsp sweetener

½ tsp baking powder

½ tsp cacao

1 tbsp lowfat milk

How to:

Mix everything together and place the mug in the microwave for 1 or 2 minutes.

You can also add berries, cinnamon, vanilla extract, applesauce or banana if you like.