Rawr. I'm an Ellagator.

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So about a year, maybe a year and a half ago, I decided to go back to school and change my major from Spanish to Software Development. I had considered pursuing this field for years but always thought it was too late to start because everyone I knew in the tech field had started in high school and here I am a twenty-something trying to jump into it. I finally decided to go for it after my mom told me it’s never too late to learn what you want to learn. Upon entering the program, I realized that pretty much everyone else knew just as little about the subject as I did. That’s why we were all taking intro courses, to learn how to do this stuff! Even so, I still felt like I didn’t belong here. Fast-forward to now and I’m excelling in this program, I have gotten a 4.0 in every class I have taken so far, even the ones where I felt like I had no idea what I was doing, and I complete every class with glowing compliments from my instructors. I know I can do this, I know I’m good at it, I know I’m cut out for it. And yet I still find myself waiting in suspense for the day when it all unravels and I’m revealed to be a fraud who isn’t cut out for it, who doesn’t belong here, who can’t do it. I have to keep looking back at my success, and remind myself of my passion for this subject, and keep pushing on, keep convincing myself that I do belong here, I am good at it, I can do it. Maybe I’ll finally believe it when they hand me that diploma with that summa cum laude, or when I land a job in my field, but until then I’ll just keep going, and try to ignore that fear that I’m just a fraud who’s going to fall flat on her face. The point of this long rambling story was to remind anyone reading this that whatever you’re doing, Impostor Syndrome can spin its little lies. Convincing you, no matter how much evidence there is to the contrary, that you can’t do it, you don’t belong, you’re not good enough. And you just need to push on, keep proving that voice wrong, even though it sounds so convincing. It’s not too late to do what you want to do, you can do it, you are good enough, you are cut out for it, you do belong.

I queued this like 8 months ago I’ve waited a long time for this moment

ok so why am I just finding out that Taika Waititi was nominated for an oscar back in 2005 for a short film …and he almost slept through the nominations lmfaoooo

Here’s a picture of my cat no one asked for.

Cats don’t only purr because they’re content! When they’re sick, or when a kitten/companion is sick, they purr to help heal faster. So if you’re feeling down and your cat friend comes up to purr on you, it’s because they sense something’s up and they want to help you feel better!

Bad Cats.

A strong contender for tweet of the year, already.