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my bday is july 24, i think ive been talking abt it too much without saying the actual date 😭😭

there’s just so much that i like coming out or happening around my bday i literally can’t stop mentioning it

when you accept a situation the ego isn’t present as much but that is a more manifestation related thing so..

also lowkey rescripting my fairy tail dr bc i’ve been wanting to do it for a while but haven’t because i kept finding every excuse under the sun

you won’t be going back to the same reality

> same people except now everything is better. i feel better and i get to experience my dr better

what if when you decide to go to the new vers, you just aren’t able to shift anymore

> stfu, why wouldn’t i be able to shift just bc i changed my dr 😭

what if you’re unhappy with the changes

> girl rescript? go back to the og? literally anything?

i’ve struggled with this a lot, even now, so trust when i say that you’re not alone with that problem. i think i’ve heard ppl say something about it having to do with the ego not wanting to let go or something, idafk, but i made myself see the fear and anxiety as a sign that i was doing it or at least getting closer. because if nothing is happening, what would i be nervous about? (i have anxiety so im literally always nervous about nothing, but idk it still helps a little😭😭)

so yeah i basically just take the nerves and use it as a motivator tool to tell myself that im about to be in my dr. if it gets to the point where its actually hard to breathe out focus though, thats when i take a moment to just stop and talk to myself. i basically just reassure to myself that im safe, tell myself to stop being a pussy and just keep going, and i think about all the things waiting for me in my dr.

especially lately, wherever i start getting nervous before an attempt, i kinda just think about my s/o in my fairy tail dr and imagine him kind of holding me through it. idk it just gives me a sense of security and comfort, calming me down and also usually helping me connect to my dr more.

so yeah i guess you could also imagine a tether to your dr being with you as you shift. kind of like a rope pulling your towards your destination when it’s too dark to see the way. even if you’re scared or nervous, try and trust that the rope is pulling you the right direction and that not matter how you’re feeling or thinking, you’re still going to get there

so yeah i think being nervous while shifting is perfectly fine. you don’t have to be fully calm in order to shift, you’ll shift regardless. but when it starts getting too much, i think just remind yourself why you’re doing this in the first place, what you have waiting for you, and remind yourself that you are safe and you are in control. you want to shift, so your emotional state won’t hinder the end result.

1) can I use a script/ my script? Meaning I write it out then put it under my pillow as I am doing the Julia method? I want my script because I feel better if I use it & so does my ocd😅

2) when doing the Julia method and counting from 100 to 99 how do I say the affs as I am doing it? Do it do it like “100- I am shifting, 99- I am in my dr” like how did you do it? I’ve been researching and everyone does something different so that’s why I ask❤️

for your first question, absolutely! there’s literally no doing anything wrong when it comes to shifting. do whatever feels the most comfortable and right to you. when you’re following an established method, you don’t have to force yourself to follow each step exactly. i think they work best when you tailor it to your preferences. if having your script under your pillow helps you, then for sure do it.

for the second question, i don’t think i ever really kept it consistent. there were times where i would do it after every number or ever 5 numbers, and sometimes i would just do it by breaths.

i played the saxophone in band for a really long time so whenever i do deep breathing, i unconsciously go “in-2-3-4, hold-2-3-4, out-2-3-4(-…8), hold-2-3-4,” in my head. the first 4 counts is an inhale, the second 4 is a hold, the third 4 (sometimes 8) is an exhale, and the last 4 is another hold. then repeat.

while i would do that i’d also still be counting down from 100 outside of the counts for my breaths. so it’d be like:

in-2-3-4, hold-2-3-4, out-2-3-4…-8, hold-2-3-4

100…………..…99………..….98…………..….97……………

while the counting is like the background track to the breathing

if that makes any sense AT ALL

but yeah so whenever i did it that way, i would just say an affirmation during the hold after the exhale, no matter what number i was on from counting down from 100. my counting pace was also usually a lot slower than my breathing, so i couldn’t just be like ‘oh yeah, ill just say an affirmation every 20 seconds because that’s how long a breath cycle lasts’ because by the time i finished my breath, id only have gotten through like 5-12 numbers.

basically it was really irregular and i just did it whenever it felt right sorry

i really recommend tailoring whatever method you do to your own needs and preferences. nothing has to be followed to a tee when it comes to shifting, whether it’s advice or a method. take the parts that resonate with you and work for you and tweak everything else however you need to. methods aren’t one size fits all.