so i took this awkward nap today. awk as in timing. cuz it was like... 6-8??? so i basically missed dinner and ya know how youre not really hungry after a nap so i wasnt hungry so i didnt eat and now its 1am AND IM SO HUNGRY.
but obv i cant eat................ cuz that would ruin everything... yuyuyuyu. is it sad that im getting used to hunger pains now. like it hurts but i can deal.
lol i really like church.
kind of because its the only time im out of my house during the week. LOL.
but srsly. church is just treating me really good these days. like everything from spiritual to social. ever since retreat ive honestly refallen in love with this place and its just really really good.
oh yah. another thing i wanted to talk about. im realizing that i have really really low self esteem around guys that im attracted to LOL. like normally, i have such an annoyingly high self esteem but when it comes to those boyz.. da self esteem disappears.
and idk if its a good thing because my ego is usually huge or if its a bad thing because im in so much pain usually...
idk maybe thiss why im so easy for guys who're good at saying fluffy little things loooool.