30s, she/her β¨ BG3, dnd, and fantasy nerd; avid reader and writer β€οΈβπ₯ elinorbard on AO3 β¨ pfp by infernaldaydreams β€οΈβπ₯ adults only
Hi, I'm Elinor! Baldur's Gate 3 still has me in a chokehold, especially the Dark Urge x Enver Gortash. All of my writing is on AO3 (also as elinorbard) and is for adults only.
β¨ recent fics: β¨
Heaven Is Not Fit to Hold Us (Explicit, Ch. 7 / ??, post-canon) The brain is defeated, Baldur's Gate is burning, and Ta'av is reeling in the aftermath. With her last link to her past severed, she faces an impossible choice: does she try to be the hero that others seem to think she is, or does she defy fate and the gods in pursuit of her heart's desire?
That Deathless Death (Explicit, 5k, pre-canon) Elegy, the Dark Urge, seeks out her ally, Enver Gortash, and finds his god waiting for her instead.
The Heart Cannot Be Broken (Mature, 2.5k, post-canon) The Netherbrain was defeated, but Archduke Enver Gortash rules Baldur's Gate with an iron fist. In the face of betrayal and tyranny, Wyll chooses resistance and hope. (A gift for incognito_ghost!)
The Lamb and the Knife (Mature, 3k, pre-canon and during canon) A story of Orin the Red, her sister Elegy, and the tragedy that befalls all children of Bhaal. Written for the Dead Three zine.
β¨ elinorbard's masterlist: β¨
series: sex and violence, one is just the other (Dark Urge/Gortash) β¨
I Knew You When (Mature, 8.6k, Act 3) Ta'av, the Dark Urge, confronts Gortash and discovers the truth about their past.
A Banite and A Bhaalist (Mature, 5.1k, pre-canon) Gortash meets a captivating Bhaalist who is nothing like he expected.
Bad Idea (Explicit, 10.7k, Act 3) Ta'av gambles on her newly discovered connection with Gortash and makes things messier than ever.
get in my bed, I wanna kill you (Mature, 7.9k, pre-canon) Gortash tests the boundaries of his alliance with the Dark Urge - and the limits of her temper.
A House, A Home (Explicit, 21k/3 chapters, Act 3) After visiting the House of Hope, Ta'av lets Gortash draw her back into the mystery of their shared past.
our strange duet (Explicit, 8.4k, pre-canon) Gortash hires the Dark Urge to assassinate one of his rivals in a way that happens to require a night at the opera.
what she came for (Explicit, 7.6k, pre-canon) Gortash finds his life disrupted when the Dark Urge decides to bring him three gifts. (Gortoween: A Bloody Mess)
Guilty Pleasure (Explicit, 8.4k, Act 3) One bad decision gets Ta'av arrested. Several more get her brought before Gortash to beg for her freedom.
Blood, Iron, and Rot (Explicit, 13k/2 chapters, pre-canon) Gortash and Ta'av travel to Moonrise Towers to forge an alliance, and their partnership is irrevocably changed.
Dead Girl Walking (Mature, 8k, Act 3) Ta'av descends into the Undercity for a long overdue reckoning with Orin the Red, and Gortash finds her in the aftermath.
Marked, Mine (Explicit, 2.3k, pre-canon) Ta'av makes sure her lover will always know he belongs to her. An expansion of a flashback from A House, A Home. (Durgetash Week 2025, Day 2: Domestic/Bondage)
A Little Prayer (Explicit, 5.8k, pre-canon) Gortash's work is interrupted when Ta'av seeks out his help with a new kind of uncontrollable urge.
Masquerade (burning faces, turning heads) (Explicit, 2.7k, pre-canon) Ta'av and Gortash attend a masquerade ball in celebration of a momentous victory. (Durgetash Week 2025, Day 4: Masquerade/Voyeurism)
the best of you belongs to me (Explicit, 2.9k, Act 3) Unable to sleep, Ta'av goes for a walk in the middle of the night. Gortash isn't pleased.
Chosen (Explicit, 11k, pre-canon) Gortash and Ta'av achieve their greatest triumph⦠and Gortash meets the Chosen of Bhaal, again.
Choice (Mature, 1.8k, Act 3) Ta'av and Gortash confront each other while Baldur's Gate sits on the edge of ruin. (Gortash Week: Ruler/Redemption)
Heaven Is Not Fit to Hold Us (Explicit, Ch. 5 / ??, post-canon) The Netherbrain is defeated, Baldur's Gate is burning, and Ta'av is reeling in the aftermath. With her last link to her past now severed, she faces an impossible choice: does she try to be the hero that others seem to think she is, or does she defy fate and the gods in pursuit of her heart's desire?
series: death and politics (Dark Urge/Gortash, modern AU and canon) β¨
Deadly Ambition (Explicit, 55k over 13 chapters, AU) U.S. Congressman Enver Gortash eagerly accepts Governor Richard Bhaalβs invitation to join his presidential campaign as his running-mate. In the process, he discovers the true mastermind behind the campaign: Bhaal's daughter, Elegy, who is as ruthless as she is charming. Together, they will do anything it takes to win the electionβ¦ but will their web of deals and deception fall apart when they find themselves relentlessly drawn to each other?
Congressman Gortash's Office (Explicit, 2.7k, AU) Elegy Bhaal stops by the office of Congressman Enver Gortash; smut ensues. (Gortash Week: AU/Dealer's Choice)
Cold, Cold Heart (Mature, 4.3k, pre-canon) Gortash is confronted by the leader of the cult of Bhaal, and he is determined to find her again, despite her warnings. (Durgetash Week 2025, Day 1: First Impressions)
The Lamb and the Knife (Mature, 3k, pre-canon and canon) A story of Orin the Red, her sister Elegy, and the tragedy that befalls all children of Bhaal. Written for the Dead Three zine, Blood, Bones, and Tyranny.
That Deathless Death (Explicit, 5k, pre-canon) Elegy, the Dark Urge, seeks out her ally, Enver Gortash, and finds his god waiting for her instead.
other fics β¨
The Heart Cannot Be Broken (Mature, 2.5k, post-canon) The Netherbrain was defeated, but Archduke Enver Gortash rules Baldur's Gate with an iron fist. In the face of betrayal and tyranny, Wyll chooses resistance and hope. (A gift for incognito_ghost for the BW3 fic exchange!)
revenge tastes sweet and so are you (Dark Urge/Gortash; Mature, 1.5k) Gortash reunites with his favorite assassin. A companion piece to Black-Eyed Susan by flamemittens for the Love in Faerun exchange.
Hunger for Blood (Dark Urge/Astarion; Explicit, Chapters: 8 / ??) Astarion and the Dark Urge discover they have a hunger for each other and a hunger for blood.
My other loves include: D&D 5e; Critical Role; Kushiel's Legacy; The Witcher; Buffy the Vampire Slayer; Ninth House; Stardew Valley; LOTR; ASOIAF.
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i DO believe that a good writer can make mischaracterization work. oh there's a character who doesn't normally cry? figure it out!! dissect the character. make the situation cryable for them. make that character cry ugly tears even if it goes against their very nature. YOU CAN MAKE IT WORK!!!
the horror of being "god's favourite princess". literally one of my favourite horror themes. the god loves you and it's so scary.
it will always choose you. you cannot die. you'll always come back because it loves you so much. you are its right and left hand, its eternal weapon. it will drown you in its light. light as horror. darkness as horror. what if it thinks you are its best friend.
you are god's favourite princess and it's terrifying.
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"Well, go on," she says as soon as they're behind the booth's curtains.
Geraldus has to know very well what she's inviting him to do; he's young, but he's certainly no fool, and not so innocent as all that, what with the way he'd slid his tongue over hers the moment she allowed him purchase the very first time they'd kissed. Still, he looks at her with wide eyes, voice nearly breathless when she drops his hand. "What?"
Caitriona takes another sip of wine and smiles against the rim of the cup as she hooks the fingers of her free hand round the buckle of the belt at his waist. She tugs him closer and is rewarded with a soft moan against her cheek. "You've been looking at me all night like you're starving," she murmurs into his ear. That hunger in his eyes has been building a slow fire in her belly, kindling a warmth she hasn't known was possible for her to feel again. She'll say damn near anything now just to keep it burning, no matter how absurd the words sound in her head. "Have a taste."
That earns her another moan, deeper this time, and Geraldus cups one cheek in his broad, callused palm as he plants a soft, skittish line of kisses along the curve of the other. She hums her approval, and he grows bolder, more eager, nipping where her ear meets her jaw before kissing his way up to trace his tongue along the shell all the way up to the point.
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I think making character playlists is good for you and connected to analysis skills in a very fun way and low investment way. I know its seen as quite trivial but to me it operates the same way looking at a lot of art builds ur skills passively. Yummy enrichment activity
honestly sometimes there's no better feeling than rereading a fic you've written and coming out of it going, "yeah that actually this DOES slap. exactly what i wanted to read. fucking nailed it."
plot 150 words
bed-sharing 200 words
smut 800 words
projecting my fears, insecurities, and anxieties onto a fictional character 9,356 words
fluff 150 words
someone who is good at fan fiction please help me budget my WIP, my family is dying
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May I just say, I think life should stop giving me good reasons to be sad. I have demonstrated many times that I am good at being sad without good reason, so this is just overkill
