For the very first time in years, youāre met with the scent of fresh air. No antiseptic, no lingering smell of blood, still so thick you can practically taste it at just the memory of it. Youāre not going back if it kills you.
Which it very well might.
DEMO: LINK (UPDATED DECEMBER 8TH, 2023.)
Nemisi is an 18+ modern horror/romance/urban fantasy interactive novel WIP. Play as a customizable MC, whoās on the run from Vicelie Labs.
The struggle between cosmic deities ā now worshiped (or abhorred) as gods ā tore its way into your planet not long before you were born. Unluckily for you, you were one of the first generations to be born exposed to Excinate, the name given to the radioactive-like sickness that comes from being exposed to magic not of your world. As your symptoms slowly got worse and worse, you were promptly ripped from your family after a doctorās visit ushered on by your concerned parents. Since then, youāve been shipped around and transported from facility to facility to be poked and prodded at.
Until now. No, now youāre free.
Aside from that lingering hunger for flesh youāve had since becoming infected, of course. Just a little side effect from the radiation, along with a mouthful of jagged teeth and a jaw that can unhinge like a snake.
THE CAST:
Refs for RO skin tones can be found here!
Felix (he/she, bigender + bisexual): Curt, blunt, and too tired to deal with this mess, Felix really had no reason to suspect the lab next to gas station he works night shifts at had anything to hide. Itās not like the screams he heard coming from that direction were anything more than some kids messing around late at night, right? Besides, she'd met some of the employees of Vicelie Labs, and aside from the occasional lingering scent of blood, they seemed like just fine people.Ā
Okay, so maybe she did have a sneaking suspicion something was up. Not like he could do anything about it. Not until you show up, at least, crashing through the gas station door in such a tizzy youād nearly run into it.
Tall and lanky, Felix often has a scowl spread across her face. He has tawny brown skin, dark brown eyes, and poorly bleached hair with quite a bit of jet black root growth. His hair is styled into a shaggy wolf cut, and of course one canāt forget the shitty stubble sheās refused to shave since it grew in. Felix has a body that might often be described as scrawny, or perhaps even gangly. A strong gust of wind could knock him over. Felix is most often seen in casual clothes; hoodies, band shirts, and jeans make up the majority of her wardrobe. Has several piercings; a bridge, septum, both nostrils, snake bites, and two eyebrow piercings side by side. She stands at 5ā11ā tall.
Felix is trans no matter what. He will always use both he and she pronouns interchangeably. Please do not use they/them to refer to her.
Dr. Eden Neal (gender selectable, M/F/NB): Kind, but awkward. A doctor who didnāt know what they were getting into when applying for a job with Vicelie Labs. Fresh out of med school, the harsh reality of the labs was too much for them. They were assigned to examine you, and though it was hard to trust them at first (and even now) they were essential in your escape.Ā
While Eden seems to be a kind soul, your bitter side canāt help but wonder if their assistance in your escape was some cruel joke.
Combined with their soft, rounded features, Edenās dark hair is in long braids, often pulled back out of their face into a ponytail. They have large golden brown eyes with thick eyelashes, and their skin is a deep brown, with a hint of a cool undertone. More soft than muscle, though they still have some tone and definition to their arms and back. Itās not easy work lifting and moving those heavy vats around the lab, after all. Eden is most typically seen in a lab coat, though they lean a bit more business casual once they start meeting up with you for check-ins after your escape. They stand at 5ā4ā, regardless of gender.
Eden is black, with dark skin.
Sable (gender selectable, M/F/NB): A bit of an outcast, Sable is an extremely shy mortician, and one of your (limited) options for getting the flesh you so desperately crave. They spot you sneaking into the morgue one night, half lucid and drunk with the need for blood and flesh on your tongue. They offer to cut a deal with you ā theyāll give you all the scraps and leftovers that they can get away with, so long as you give them any information youāve picked up about the consequences of using cosmic magic.Ā
Are they seeking power, or just simply curious about the consequences of magic from a biological standpoint?
Sable is one of the tallest ROās, standing at 6ā2ā regardless of gender. They have a bright shock of long, curly ginger hair, and their near ghostly pallor is covered in freckles and beauty marks. Most notably, they have beauty marks to the right of their bottom lip, as well as underneath their left eye. They have a long, roman nose with a prominent bridge and blue eyes. Their body is on the heavier side, with a soft stomach and thick thighs. Sable doesnāt dress to impress as theyāre mostly surrounded by dead bodies, typically wearing neutral colored slacks and skirts. They occasionally spice things up with an interesting vest or tie, but are much too scared to stand out to do so often. They have circle glasses.
Sable is plus size, with a pear shaped figure.
Eris (gender selectable, M/F/NB): A hired killer, and the only other option you have for sating your hunger besides Sable. You meet Eris as youāre hiding away from Vicelie Labs in Eden's apartment, drawn to the smell of blood from them finishing up one of their ācontractsā in the apartment next door. Itās a mess of guts and gore, and you canāt stop yourself from indulging. After a moment of awareness, you go to turn tail and run, only to find Eris still there. They have an offer for you ā theyāll kill for you, and you can have at their fresh meat. Certainly an offer thatās hard to pass up, considering your current predicament.
Perpetually masked, youāre actually not certain what Eris looks like behind it. From what you can see, theyāre very sturdy. All you can see besides their build is their hair, occasionally peeking out from beneath their hood. It falls to Erisā wide shoulders, and from what youāve seen is a dark brown.Ā They stand at 6'0" tall, regardless of gender.
???: Youāve only heard of them in passing at the lab ā someone who goes after rogue assets, like you. According to Eden, theyāre after you, and with a vengeance.
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i am absolutely going to ramble so hereās a tldr:
nemisi is still NOT canceled. i have another blog (@sanguineshadow-if) for a MUCH smaller side project (also horror!) that iāve been working on while i restructure nemisi. if youāre gonna send me hate abt having a side project i do not gaf man at least read my reasoning below
also, i know the last time i was here i mentioned my mother had cancer. as of right now, sheās completely cancer free :)
as i said above, nemisi is NOT CANCELED! yay. iāve put a lot of love into it, and while itās not at a state iām happy with any more, iām working on actually outlining it in a way that wonāt overwhelm me.
my problem/roadblock with nemisi (aside from irl stuff) came in the form of me having no prior experience with twine or branching narratives and wanting to make something too ambitious for a first project!! dont do that guys. i got overwhelmed after posting about it during an (admittedly unmedicated manic episode lol) and the outline was a MESS!!! a complete mess. hence why iām struggling through restructuring it.
i mentioned my side project @sanguineshadow-if because this was the focus of my brainstorming when i couldnāt think about nemisi because it made me so anxious i got sick. itās much, MUCH smaller in scale both mechnically and stakes wise (for MC). it no longer makes me nearly as anxious/overwhelmed to handle, and i think having my other project cooking in the background these past several months helped with that.
while i am absolutely not abandoning my pride and joy nemisi, i do want to be transparent in that iāll most likely be focusing on the side project at least for a bit. i believe the experience a smaller project might give me will do wonders for how i go about tackling nemisi. part of my anxiety came from delivering a subpar game.
feel free to send me asks here or on @sanguineshadow-if if i need to clarify anything/you have other questions. i know i rambled.
I had just discovered Nemisi and I am already invested on the concept. And that we get to play as a feral MC with a few non-human traits.
Eden already has my heart, and trust they will be getting another cat (me btw) that will crush them from trying to cuddle. š„°
And I do wonder if MC has any other unusual visual traits besides their sharp teeth and being able to unhinge their jaw.
on a lighter note i never got a notif for this. thank you for playing!!
eden is a cuddler so they'd love mc being a weighted blanket for them LMAO. though only once they aren't scared mc will snap and eat them in their sleep, of course.
i've been wanting to amp up the unusual traits in my rewrite, yeah. maybe up to the player how extreme they wanna go? if i want to code that in? mc will always be mostly human as that's what they started off as, but i do like the classic body horror aspect of like, hitting puberty and your body is new and different and scary. even if i don't code options in i will say feel free to imagine them as more scary and monstrous so long as they could like, feasibly blend in amongst humans somehow for the most part lolol because i love when there is a guy (gender neutral) who looks mostly human and could be mistaken as one at first glance before you realize something is horrifically wrong with them.
so yeah, while i might not code them in, go crazy! if you need inspo i'm putting some recent things i've been inspired by (bc yes!! i do think about the game when i can and it strikes) for the rewrite under the cut
originally i did say mc's jaw is more like a snakes and while i still like the idea i've also been toying around with the aspect of it being more... eel like. i kinda wanna give them a pharyngeal jaw and maybe lean into the deep sea/general aquatic-ish type of mutations for mc. dunno how exactly i wanna work it in yet but some form of bioluminescence to lure in prey could be fun! i'm also probably just gonna give them slightly reflective eyes in the dark as well no matter what.
i also am deeply in love with the classic trope of unknowable eldritch entity takes residence in the sea so. talking about this is giving me some thoughts on sullyr actually
Are you ever going to make that catch up post... It's been a long time since you promised us that
well not to get serious but (cancer mention under the cut)
my mom got diagnosed with cancer recently so no i dont exactly have the energy to be on tumblr giving updates and coding and writing š hope this helps
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editing is so funny because it's like "damn, i wrote 'before' two times within three paragraphs. they are going to stone me in the town square for this"
So my problem with most āget to know your characterā questioneers is that theyāre full of questions that just arenāt that important (what color eyes do they have) too hard to answer right away (what is their greatest fear) or are just impossible to answer (what is their favorite movie.)Ā Like no one has one single favorite movie. And even if they do the answer changes.
If Iām doing this exercise, I want 7-10 questions to get the character feeling real in my head. So I thought Iād share the ones that get me (and my students) good results:Ā
What is the characterās go-to drink order? (this one gets into how do they like to be publicly perceived, because there is always some level of theatricality to ordering drinks at a bar/resturant)
What is their grooming routine? (how do they treat themselves in private)
What was their most expensive purchase/where does their disposable income go? (Gets you thinking about socio-economic class, values, and how they spend their leisure time)
Do they have any scars or tattoos? (good way to get into literal backstory)Ā
What was the last time they cried, and under what circumstances? (Good way to get some *emotional* backstory in.)Ā
Are they an oldest, middle, youngest or only child? (This one might be a me thing, because I LOVE writing/reading about family dynamics, but knowing what kinds of things wereĀ ānormalā for them growing up is important.)
Describe the shoes theyāre wearing. (This is a big catch all, gets into money, taste, practicality, level of wear, level of repair, literally what kind of shoes they require to live their life.)
Describe the place where they sleep. (ie what does their safe space look like. How much (or how little) care / decoration / personal touch goes into it.)
What is their favorite holiday? (How do they relate to their culture/outside world. Also fun is leastĀ favorite holiday.)Ā
What objects do they always carry around with them? (What do they need for their normal, day-to-day routine? What doesĀ ānormalā even look like for them.)Ā
wish i could post snippets of this big eris scene im working on but alas itās all currently written in my chicken scratch u_u i need to transfer it to digital but i havent yet </3
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i rly wanna revamp the graphics and such for the game... give it a fresh coat of paint. but i'm kind of awful at graphic design and stuff HAHA so it will take a bit...
hi! a much needed update. i'll keep it short and simple.
tldr: nemisi is not cancelled, and i'm coming out of hiatus! though i'm probably going to rewrite (or at least restructure) stuff. expect some previews/sneak peeks soon!!
i finally moved after a long period of being depressed (being gay/trans in a rural town is NOT fun) and lacking motivation for any creative processes. im moving AGAIN though, so i probably won't be able to post much for the next 2 weeks until then, but after that expect me to be annoying you all with updates.
i've also finally got used to my work/volunteer schedule on top of schooling, so i'm much less stressed out and have some time cut out of most days that i can write. i've actually been writing/plotting a bit for nemisi in my free time already. i work better writing physical notes, and i've nearly filled half a notebook with planned restructures/notes.
thank you all for being patient with me! i hope you enjoy the next update, whenever that comes out.
I check in on your blog at least once a week in case tumblr notifications are failing me lol, your IF is one of my most looked forward to <3
AWWW thank you so much!! that means a lot šš
im excited to settle into this new schedule so i can start posting more often! i also think once winter is over iāll be much more motivated. my depressive episodes always flare up during the fall/winter so ^_^ spring and summer are usually much more productive!
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i've been writing when i can, but i've just moved + started school again so things are a bit hectic!! i just wanted to reassure everyone that the game is still being worked on, however slowly that may be.