This past February, Zach - my boyfriend for a year and a half, and one of my closest friends in the world for about five or six years prior to that - passed away due to medical complications.
They had been diagnosed with cancer at the age of 27. The symptoms came on fast, and the treatment was grueling. Only a few weeks in, he lost the use of his voice. He never got it back. It was an awful experience for me and all of his other loved ones; I canât even begin to imagine what it was like for him.
I like to think that I did my best to support them, but even so, life was hard for them. I have a lot of regrets, and Iâm sure that they did too. Speaking for myself, the biggest one is that Iâve wanted to collaborate with them on a piece of music for a very long time. They used to compose fairly regularly, and I always loved the work they shared with me - but after 2017, they largely stopped.
Today would have been Zachâs birthday, and this is, I think, the closest I can ever get to the sort of project I wanted to make with him. Itâs a rearrangement / remix of sorts, using the fifth track off their old EP Black Magic Market as a baseline. I hope that I did it justice, and I hope that it can stand as a testament to everything they meant to me.
May their memory be a blessing.




















