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⭑sarah⭑25⭑white⭑⚥⭑♏⭑🔞⭑

have not seen my abusive father in person since 2014 when my parents seperated and i cut him off/disowned him. for a few years as a teen i fantasized about running into him by chance and just beating the shit out of him on sight. in reality i don't know what i would actually *do* if i saw him again but i know for certain i'd be aggressive.

anyway, my work is walking distance from my apartment. decided to go home for a few mins on my break. as i went through the lobby i heard a voice from my property manager's office, "thank you very much, you've been a real sweetheart" and like, i hear voice's that sound like my dad's all the time, but this was a very different experience. i had the thought "wtf, that sounded kinda like dad" but before that my BODY actually reacted before my brain did, completely visceral, i physically turned my whole body around as i was walking like 🤨🤨 even had the urge to stop and wait by the hallway door to just see who it was and what they looked like because there was just no way. decided against it, went inside, took my little break, went back to work, and didn't think anything of it for the rest of the day. later this evening my mom fucking tells me, "listen... your father delivered something today." and i go "wtf? wait, was he HERE?" she goes "how did you know?" and i go "oh my god, no way, i fucking HEARD him, i knew it" and we realize i was in the same building as this man just a few feet away for the first time in 12 years and we missed each other by just a few seconds. completely by chance. i have no idea what the fuck would have happened if i had showed up just a few minutes later/earlier. what the fuckkkkkkkkk. he could have seen me outside through the windows but i guess he had his back turned. oh my god, if he had seen me... dude i would not have been able to go back to work if he approached me i wouldve attacked him. dude.