it's hard for her to sleep which is understandable so now we are watching clueless to try to relax her mind. I'ma let her chill here for the weekend til we figure out what's our next move. I don't have any extra money for the extra head in the house. If we could get some help so that I can get some things for her ( toothbrush, wash cloth, towel, underwear, etc) also need some pantyliners cause she has some slight bleeding from the attack coming from her vagina. also carfare for her so we can go to the police station later on this morning. So if anyone can spare anything for us so she can have some necessities while she's here
Cash app: Daniellegrant64
Venmo: danielle-grant-131
Anything will help so I can get the things she needs while she's here 🙏🏿
Can we please get her some transportation to the police station this morning so she can see if she can identify any of the people involved in her assault are in the perp book thingy ?
Also hygiene products & clothing
I'm proud of her for wanting to catch these people and for her to be able to report the foster mother and her boyfriend. I let her know I'm not going anywhere and that she doesn't have to fight alone. I hope they are able to get these people off the street before they can hurt anyone else
We still need 15 more to get to the Police station in the bronx . And what's left from the 80 to get her necessities
The detective on our case clocks out at 5 and we have to go to the Bronx for this so yeah we really need that last 15 to get up there plz . This is serious. A crime was committed and we need to get the ball rolling sooner than later plz 🙏🏿
It's Friday so if we do not start this today this investigation won't start til Monday and she needs to be able to do this while the details are fresh so she can give as much information as possible!!!
Someone plz if she can identify even one of those people and if they are on parole or probation they can pick them up today !!!
I ran out of the posts so I can't do anything anymore so hopefully someone anyone can help us possibly get at least 1 of them it's a total of 6 guys plus the foster mother and boyfriend at least one of them has to be on papers . And hopefully he snitches on the others for some type of deal but we need to first get her there to identify them.
She's leaving in an hour it's gonna take us about 45 minutes to even get there smh damn we would accept being able to get 15 minutes of her time if that's all we could get if we could there 😕
Damn man I can't believe we won't be able to actually do something about her rape today fuck man . SMH shit . I'ma go and knock on people door in the building and see if they could help. I don't wanna out her business out to people that she will see since she's staying here but I don't have no other options right now we can't get the help on here and time is leaving us😞😔
Well I asked her if she would be ok with me going around the building to ask for help she said no so I guess that it. I apologized for not being able to get her to the police station. The fire in her is gone she just told me to forget it . It doesn't matter to her anymore. And she just went to the couch and laid down and closed her eyes .... 😞😔 Damn I'm now another adult who let her down. I hate this for her and myself
It's already hard enough for the cops to take sexual assault crimes seriously and even less so when it comes to black girls/ women . I feel horrible hearing her cry into the couch makes me feel her pain 😢 someone was actually trying to make something happen for her and I couldn't get her to the help . I ain't shit
I just called the detective and lied and said we're on our way there's a lot of traffic and if she could just hold on at least for the next 45 minutes for us she agreed. Im just trying to give it one more try cause hearing her cry and say nobody cares if they get away is killing me so I'm just trying one last time for her. I owe it to her. Cause she doesn't want the people in the building knowing her business.
I don't want her to give up on going after these guys..... Cause she doesn't feel like it matters cause no one else cares . Her mood went from confidant about getting them to throughout the day more and more like fuck it and that shit is sad bro. I don't know what to do at this point
And she's bleeding from her privates and I can't even give her a pantyliner or anything. My daughter's tiny pads are too small for her and I don't have any cause I left them at the old place trying to rush out ... Wow shit just keeps getting worse for her I feel so bad I can't do shit
She's leaving at 5:45 if we get help great if not it's whatever I'm just defeated at this point . At least she has someone to cry with her it's better than crying alone
It's 5:20 we ain't making it all the way to the Bronx by 5:45 smh. It's ok I'm a failure 😔 oh boy shit like this makes me feel like I can't be sober anymore . They bring back feelings I had when I raped nothing happened. I feel like this wasn't only for her but it was for me too metally cause it like I see myself in her our lives are very similar and I know exactly how she feels and if things go like they did for me life ain't gonna be good for her. can we at least get the pads for her bleeding
So I got me a cigarette from a neighbor to smoke to deal with the stress of this whole thing . I haven't had a cigarette in 5 years .... This whole thing has brought back so many feelings from when I was her age . Things I thought were put away. I'm gonna make us something to eat and try to make the best of the night . She isn't really speaking to me anymore just nodding if I ask her something 😞. This whole thing has triggered me and now it's starting its fuckery on her..... my kids will be back tomorrow. It's weird now....
She asked me to call 911 cause she felt like hurting herself so she wanted to go into the hospital so I respected her wishes and now we are waiting for the ambulance to come pick her up so said she doesn't want me to go with her so I'm giving her the space she's asking for.... I don't want her to harm herself either so it's best to be safe than sorry ..... This is my fault cause I couldn't help her get her rapists locked up . She is speaking so negative now . Saying she's used to people not giving a fuck about her why did she think things were gonna be different now and calling herself stupid for thinking she could get anyone locked up . She is just walking back and forth crying and yelling negative things..... This really went way worse then I thought it was . I made shit so much worse....
She doesn't even care that she's bleeding all over the couch. She's so disconnected right now it's insane and they still haven't gotten here yet.... She's calling herself a bum bitch ... 😞😞😞. God I wish things went differently . I won't ever forgive myself for giving her hope and then letting her down .... I'm the one that's a bum bitch
Maybe I can still try so that maybe when she gets released she may want to pursue it ... They took her .... They told me what hospital they are taking her to so I'll go visit her tomorrow and if she will see me discuss the matter if she brings it up. If I could still get the help maybe I can restore her faith a lil bit and she might reconsider when she gets out. I just think that what if they do that to someone else and we had an opportunity to possibly stop another rape from happening but I was too broke to do anything about it. I feel guilty about all of this
Could I at least get the left over $45 to bring her underwear, pads and toiletries when I go visit her on the psych hospital even if she won't see me I can at least leave them there for her tomorrow... At least I wanna try to let her have some type of something so she at least knows I care and I'm sorry . She doesn't have anything but the clothes on her back which gave her to put on she has nothing more but her phone that's it .
$0/$45 to bring necessities for her at the psych hospital tomorrow
I put the 35 dollars aside in case I get something to add to it before she comes out if she changes her mind again and wants to pursue the case
I can't believe this situation got me smoking cigarettes again smh wow 5 years of clear lungs down the drain because I needed something to help me cope with this stress. I wish I had friends or family to help me deal with things I've never felt so alone and now dealing with my PTSD from being raped myself that I thought was long gone.