Lena Young

Me when asked for general grad school advice. 

And I mean this in the way that you should realize that it’s okay to feel like you don’t know what you’re doing. You’re learning, after all. But you should also use this feeling as a way to reach out to the various resources that are there to help you and ask lots of questions!

Me, squinting bloodshot eyes over the rim of a thrice reheated coffee: “Well… ‪today’s dinner is saltines and starbursts - which I suppose is an improvement over last week’s coffee and beef jerky.‬ I was in the shower for a full thirty seconds this morning before I realized I was still wearing my pajamas. And I was proud of making time for breakfast until my partner texted me that I’d put the box of cereal back in the fridge and the milk in the cupboard when I was done. The notification sound for my emails is rage inducing and my advisor is, unequivocally, the ruler of my universe. I regard him with the appropriate devotion, terror, and bewildered anger. I have no neutral feelings towards gradschool but instead wildly oscillate between being apathetic, incandescently happy, and savagely bitter.”