contrary to popular belief...

If I am going to make any sort of personal or career progress this year I need a buttload of ground rules so here they are and HOLD ME TO THEM.

OMGGG I cannot believe my liiife. last night I saw my celeb crush perform whom I’ve had the hots for for literally a decade. I  met him once before at this other event and managed to figure out how to say hi to him and he was super nice and asked my name and was like it was nice to meet you. and I thought THAT was like life changing tbh. but THIS TIME was SO MUCH BETTER. I went to the event alone because nobody would respond to my texts and when I got there it was this super chill/intimate party and I was hanging out towards the front near the stage. I wasn’t sure if he’d remember me but at some point he looked up and saw me and gave me a head nod and I was like WTFF howww??? and I was just hanging out dancing by the front and made eye contact a couple times but was trying not to be creepy about it lol. and when he finished his set I legit just kind of walked up to him on the side of the stage and he reached out and hugged me and gave me a kiss on the cheek and was like how are you? I was like WTFFFTFTF and he asked my name again and was like good to see you. like he greeted me like we were homies and I was like WTF bae is lowkey dowwwn omg. and I let it sizzle for a minute and let him do his thing and he left and I assumed that would be the end of it. but at the same time I had a feeling it wasn’t over lol so like 10 mins later I went out to the patio and he was still out there chillin talking to some friends and I was like WUT. so I kinda walked over and waited for a good entry point lol and his friend walked away and I SAWOOPED in there and was like heyy and he hugged me AGAIN and was like how are you. and he looked genuinely happy to talk to me like he was actually smiling and shit omg. and he was like are you friends with [the other performer] cause I saw you at that other show? and I was like ummm naw haha I didn’t know how to tell him bruh I came here for YOU lol. and then his coworker walked up and he introduced me to her and I was just like in their convo for a second and ionno he was so just like cool with me being there and it felt weirdly affectionate standing next to him? like I dunno if that’s the right word but it felt like we already knew each other and we legit looked like a cute couple like we kind of dress the same too lmao so I dunno there was something weird about it obviously in a good way. and then the other performer who is also super cute and bae walked up to talk to the group and I was just there in the middle of it like uhhh omg what is going on this is the best hahah. and eventually he had to go and he was like it was good to see you and I was like yeah see you around lmao because I literally have tix to see him perform again next month but didn’t want to tell him aghhhh. like I’m so fucking into him and I swear I keep attracting him into my life because the last two times I met him it was a super last min decision that just worked out perfectly. ionno man just had to chronicle this lol baii.