Okay confession time… I need help
I don’t know if I’ve ever really liked anyone before. I don’t know if I feel romantic or sexual attraction or if I feel like I don’t deserve it cause I’m short and kinda dopey. I don’t know if I just don’t deserve love or if I’m scared to start something I don’t know if I actually want.
I like someone and, well, am I delusional or do I have a chance? I don’t want to talk to anyone I know because we ALL know him and it would be awkward.
Pros and cons list of things he’s done/is:
Pros: best listener ever, good communicator, so wise, very cute, very generous and kind to his friends, even weirder than me, knows his direction in life (and is super passionate about it), he’s extremely admirable, called me pretty indirectly, we’re similar heights (very important!), has shown me a picture of his ribs and asked me to fluff his hair (?), wants to visit me over the summer (!!), asked if i wanted to borrow his shampoo (?), took me to see a play and kept whispering in my ear (in a silly way), has bad acne like me, said he likes directness, i can read his social battery on him and feel very attuned to his presence, and i think he knows me similarly
Cons: very very busy, has his own person he’s delusional about but can’t commit to, he’s way more experienced than I am with relationships (not necessarily a con, but scary)
I just feel like I’ve been waiting to like someone on my own level and it’s just not happening. I’m always punching. Is that a bad thing? The people I love and idolize stick around me so I can’t be that repulsive TT
I really just want to ask him for a hug
I’m just so so delusional
I think realistically and I’m like, hmm, he’s nice to me so I like him. He’s cute, so I like him. And I think I’m building him up to be a better person in my head than he is. But I had this same situation happen to me in the past, and I also thought I wouldn’t want to be with him, I just wanted to admire him and listen to him talk, and even though I’m past being so freaking delusional about him now, I still think he’s just as amazing as I always did. He’s amazing, and so is this new guy. They’re both so special to me. But I’m so slow to get to know people I like. I’m so slow. And this guy really likes straightforwardness. So if he is on to me liking him, he probably doesn’t like that I’m not saying anything. I don’t know.
I don’t know how to tell someone I like them and I don’t know if it’s even worth it, because what if I’m just making him so much shinier and brilliant in my head?
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